November 23, 2008 - 01:07
I'm at a bit of a block with my current story, so I thought I'd get the gears greased by writing a bit of something for myself. So, here I am ... letting the world know that there is still one thing that never changes. There's very little going on in my life! LOL!
Today starts my final week at this location of my job. As of Dec 1, I move to a location in the NW. I made this decision for me. I don't know if it was wrong or right, it just needed to be made. Hopefully, things work out. If they don't, I still have a few things to fall back on now that I'm living in familiar territory.
Got a new piercing this morning. I hope it heals before Jade gets back from his ski trip. Sure hurt to get it done though. Poor Spot was afraid to move until he felt that enough time had passed ... then he crawled out of the new hole in the wall.
Just kidding ...
There's no hole in the wall, and I didn't throw him ... I had my hands quite full with First-Aid treatment. It wasn't quite a place they make band-aids for, you know? Either way, things have gone well, nothing has turned green, or fallen off and I seem to be healing well. Miracles do happen.
It's amazing how good and relaxed I feel ... I found myself singing to my music while I worked on the computer and suddenly realised that I hadn't done it for a long time. Not like this. It was ... refreshing. My friends at work are also breathing a sigh of relief ... it took over a week, but I'm dancing at work again. I don't know how silly it actually looks, but it's apparently a special part of me, to them, and they worried when I stopped. Nobody knows what's been going on with me for the past little while, they just know that it was traumatic for me and are very happy to see me back to my old self ... with a bit more bounce than usual. Thrilled to bits for me.
I'd also like to take this opportunity to thank the academy ... whoops, wrong paper ...
Very, very few of you will read this, but I thank each family member and friend who has offered me their love and support to me recently. Just knowing it was there if I needed it was greatly reassuring to me. You'll never really know how much it meant. Thank you.
"Headin' up that highway, leavin' you behind,
hardest thing I ever had to do
Broke my heart in two, but baby, pay no mind.
The price for finding me was losing you.
Memories help me hide my lonesome feelin';
far away from you, and feeling low.
It's getting late my friend, my love, I miss you so ...
Take good care of you; I gotta go."
(Bonus points if you can name the song.)
Sweet Dreams!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
A Horse With No Name ... Is Still A Horse!
November 19, 2008 - 18:16
Got the house to myself for a little bit. Its' nice and quiet. It'll stay that way until the birds start screeching, causing the dog to howl. But right now, it's quiet ... let's not borrow trouble.
So ... I've been looking at how to expand my social life. It's not something I've ever been very gifted with. Even when I was going to school, I had a limited group of friends. Been feeling old lately too ... the "kids" at work all look up to me as older and wiser and they ask me a lot of advice. Do I laugh or cry? *shakes head* Either way, when I give them crap, they moan and complain, but do it anyway ... and then act like nothing happened five minutes later. *rolls eyes* I feel like I've adopted a bunch of teenagers.
I've made the decision to be transferred to a closer location. It makes my gut clench, but I'm doing this for me. At least, I think I am. I'm doing it for my wallet at any rate. I was so bored while coming home at rush hour that I almost dozed off. LOL! Oops! Luckily, I was almost home and traffic was slow ... which is what made it boring. Stupid rush hour. Rush, my a$$ ... there's no rushing involved in going 60 in a 70 zone where most people do 80 or more!
Anyway, where was I? Ah, yes. Expanding my social life. So, I've been thinking of getting out a bit more. Doing things. Will have to try to remember what it's like to do things without money.
Wait ... I never did anything when I didn't have money.
Okay, so I'm going into this blind. Fine. I know what I don't want to do, and that's hit the bar scene. I don't have the money, I don't have the clothes and I won't make the time. It's not me. If I can't hear you, or be heard, without talking very loudly and inserting some pantomiming, then I will not go. A coffee house or a cozy restaurant ... that's fine. Still can't afford much, but I'll be happier. Need to get out and find out what part of the Earth my friends are on now, and what they are up to. I was also considering getting back into D&D ... it gets me out of the house, and helps to get the creative juices flowing. I want to start my writing up again. I had some good stuff. And now I have friends who will help me publish it!
I also have to remember to go and get my comics on my own ... and not worry about waiting for Jade or if I can afford to pick his comics up. I'm sure The Shepherd will be happy for the money either way. Now there's a busy boy ... maybe I should get more involved in some of their community stuff. Maybe.
It's hard to decide ... I don't feel like I belong anywhere anymore. And I have no idea what my schedule is at any point in advance enough to say ... we can have a meeting place here, on this day every week, or bi-monthly. Who ever shows up, wins. Can't do it. I have two jobs, one I'd really like to busier with, and the other, well, we'll see how it goes. It's easier to replace from here.
Digressing again. It's a talent, I guess. Not that it's good for much. Hmm .. thinking of joining something. Not much to join around here that doesn't give you more stuff to find space for, or doesn't require joining the church! :) I suppose I could take up swimming; check out if there's a pass for the pool nearby. Would be good for me and friends could join me on occasion. Yeah, I kind of miss the group swims. Okay, so adding swimming to the list. I've been losing some weight and it's actually showing when I look in the mirror! I like this! Swimming will help to keep it off. And I might meet some friends. You never know.
A friend, can't recall if I've named her yet, suggested that I get a new start by changing my hair style. I think she means me to cut it off. But I'm loving my hair ... and I'm happy with the length - even when I have to keep pulling it out of the way during certain times. (Driving, sleeping, etc) I'll do more with it, but I don't think I'll go gong-ho on the length just yet. Too winter-y right now!!
There's so much going on right now ... and yet, so very little actually worth writing about! Typical me, eh?
Well, I'm going to start with the bedroom re-arranging. I'm also going to make my bed properly. If I'm still cold after all this, I'll give in and see if Jade will lend me his duvet. Bothersome things, duvets, but they are, at the very least, warm!
After that, I'm going to take a crack at finishing an over-due story line.
Sweet Dreams!
Got the house to myself for a little bit. Its' nice and quiet. It'll stay that way until the birds start screeching, causing the dog to howl. But right now, it's quiet ... let's not borrow trouble.
So ... I've been looking at how to expand my social life. It's not something I've ever been very gifted with. Even when I was going to school, I had a limited group of friends. Been feeling old lately too ... the "kids" at work all look up to me as older and wiser and they ask me a lot of advice. Do I laugh or cry? *shakes head* Either way, when I give them crap, they moan and complain, but do it anyway ... and then act like nothing happened five minutes later. *rolls eyes* I feel like I've adopted a bunch of teenagers.
I've made the decision to be transferred to a closer location. It makes my gut clench, but I'm doing this for me. At least, I think I am. I'm doing it for my wallet at any rate. I was so bored while coming home at rush hour that I almost dozed off. LOL! Oops! Luckily, I was almost home and traffic was slow ... which is what made it boring. Stupid rush hour. Rush, my a$$ ... there's no rushing involved in going 60 in a 70 zone where most people do 80 or more!
Anyway, where was I? Ah, yes. Expanding my social life. So, I've been thinking of getting out a bit more. Doing things. Will have to try to remember what it's like to do things without money.
Wait ... I never did anything when I didn't have money.
Okay, so I'm going into this blind. Fine. I know what I don't want to do, and that's hit the bar scene. I don't have the money, I don't have the clothes and I won't make the time. It's not me. If I can't hear you, or be heard, without talking very loudly and inserting some pantomiming, then I will not go. A coffee house or a cozy restaurant ... that's fine. Still can't afford much, but I'll be happier. Need to get out and find out what part of the Earth my friends are on now, and what they are up to. I was also considering getting back into D&D ... it gets me out of the house, and helps to get the creative juices flowing. I want to start my writing up again. I had some good stuff. And now I have friends who will help me publish it!
I also have to remember to go and get my comics on my own ... and not worry about waiting for Jade or if I can afford to pick his comics up. I'm sure The Shepherd will be happy for the money either way. Now there's a busy boy ... maybe I should get more involved in some of their community stuff. Maybe.
It's hard to decide ... I don't feel like I belong anywhere anymore. And I have no idea what my schedule is at any point in advance enough to say ... we can have a meeting place here, on this day every week, or bi-monthly. Who ever shows up, wins. Can't do it. I have two jobs, one I'd really like to busier with, and the other, well, we'll see how it goes. It's easier to replace from here.
Digressing again. It's a talent, I guess. Not that it's good for much. Hmm .. thinking of joining something. Not much to join around here that doesn't give you more stuff to find space for, or doesn't require joining the church! :) I suppose I could take up swimming; check out if there's a pass for the pool nearby. Would be good for me and friends could join me on occasion. Yeah, I kind of miss the group swims. Okay, so adding swimming to the list. I've been losing some weight and it's actually showing when I look in the mirror! I like this! Swimming will help to keep it off. And I might meet some friends. You never know.
A friend, can't recall if I've named her yet, suggested that I get a new start by changing my hair style. I think she means me to cut it off. But I'm loving my hair ... and I'm happy with the length - even when I have to keep pulling it out of the way during certain times. (Driving, sleeping, etc) I'll do more with it, but I don't think I'll go gong-ho on the length just yet. Too winter-y right now!!
There's so much going on right now ... and yet, so very little actually worth writing about! Typical me, eh?
Well, I'm going to start with the bedroom re-arranging. I'm also going to make my bed properly. If I'm still cold after all this, I'll give in and see if Jade will lend me his duvet. Bothersome things, duvets, but they are, at the very least, warm!
After that, I'm going to take a crack at finishing an over-due story line.
Sweet Dreams!
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Song Sung Blues and Other Chilly Colours
November 16, 2009 - 08:25
So, I went and saw a dietitian on Thursday to see why I haven't been losing any weight for the last three years. I had to wait for a month to get in. The week before I go? Typical reaction to a doctor. I lost five pounds. *rolls eyes* Anyway, she was a nice lady. Unfortunately, she was as much of a quack as anybody else. Basically, I'll lose weight if I follow the Canada's Guide to Food Group servings.
That's it. That was her advice. *rolls eyes* Right.
She was alarmed by my levels of stress and depression, but didn't think it affected my weight ... except to maybe make me eat more. (Which I don't, that's just what "most people do".) She didn't take into account that I haven't been getting a full night's sleep in the past few years either. Even I know that a full 8 (or at least 6) hours a night is needed for your body to rest, rejuvenate, and maintain energy levels. That means I'm not storing fat to keep going. I described my basic lifestyle with the horses ... all she had to say about that was that kind of lifestyle must have changed my eating habits and I must have been eating more to sustain the energy.
What?
Pigeon holing me without facts does not make me want to come back to you with a follow-up!!
Oh, yes, and I must completely give up Barq's. Reducing it isn't enough. As soon as I said I wasn't going to give it up she blanked out on me. She had already decided that she couldn't help me. She came back to it three times after ... Lady, it's one item. I don't guzzle it, or have orgies with it. Get over it.
Anyway ... My new temporary living space is shaping up slowly but surely. It's not warming up at all, but it is shaping up. I'm not just complaining about a little bit of a draft here either. I have a blanket and wear a sweater and fuzzy socks and slippers when I am home. At all times. My bedroom window (which some goof put the bed UNDER) pours cold air down on me while I sleep. I am covered by four blankets - sheet, thermal, comforter, and a sleeping bag. I'm wearing PJ's to bed!! Spot comes under the blankets now and then to warm up during the night. I've even noticed him going in during the day. And it's not even really winter yet! *GLOOM* I am going to re-arrange the room tomorrow after my other appointment. You shouldn't get that much air moving through a closed window with the curtains down!
Maybe Jade could check the caulking?
Speaking of whom ... For those who hadn't yet heard, Jade and I have separated for a little while. I have received many, many letters of support and offers of help from friends and a couple from family. Nobody has pried past the explanation I gave out, except for one person who shut me out to sulk when I refused to give details. Told me to tell everything and to tell the truth. Well, the truth is, it was nobody's business, and I said so. Haven't heard a word from that person since.
That's true friendship.
Seriously, I'm not telling anybody anything. This is between Jade and I. We have not divorced, broken up, or anything else ... we've just found other living arrangements. And we're working on us. that's it. That's all you need to know. Thanks for coming out.
So now I'm driving 45 min to work ... which makes the split shifts stupid. The managers want to make sure we get a "decent break" between shifts. So I have generally three hours of nothing to do and no where to go between shifts on those days. I break it up with sitting in the truck and sitting at work. Both usually costs me money. It doesn't help my temper that the schedule completely ignores my availability. I am not available on Fri evenings or on weekends, yet I've been working those days for over a month now. *sigh* Maybe I should transfer closer to home.
I better get some more arranging done. Got two weeks before I present this place to the public!
Sweet Dreams!
PS. Just saw a "ghost" of Princess Fernie-poo walk through my home ... that's just freaky!! She's never been here and would NOT come looking for me. *thinks* Well, maybe she's looking for Spot.
So, I went and saw a dietitian on Thursday to see why I haven't been losing any weight for the last three years. I had to wait for a month to get in. The week before I go? Typical reaction to a doctor. I lost five pounds. *rolls eyes* Anyway, she was a nice lady. Unfortunately, she was as much of a quack as anybody else. Basically, I'll lose weight if I follow the Canada's Guide to Food Group servings.
That's it. That was her advice. *rolls eyes* Right.
She was alarmed by my levels of stress and depression, but didn't think it affected my weight ... except to maybe make me eat more. (Which I don't, that's just what "most people do".) She didn't take into account that I haven't been getting a full night's sleep in the past few years either. Even I know that a full 8 (or at least 6) hours a night is needed for your body to rest, rejuvenate, and maintain energy levels. That means I'm not storing fat to keep going. I described my basic lifestyle with the horses ... all she had to say about that was that kind of lifestyle must have changed my eating habits and I must have been eating more to sustain the energy.
What?
Pigeon holing me without facts does not make me want to come back to you with a follow-up!!
Oh, yes, and I must completely give up Barq's. Reducing it isn't enough. As soon as I said I wasn't going to give it up she blanked out on me. She had already decided that she couldn't help me. She came back to it three times after ... Lady, it's one item. I don't guzzle it, or have orgies with it. Get over it.
Anyway ... My new temporary living space is shaping up slowly but surely. It's not warming up at all, but it is shaping up. I'm not just complaining about a little bit of a draft here either. I have a blanket and wear a sweater and fuzzy socks and slippers when I am home. At all times. My bedroom window (which some goof put the bed UNDER) pours cold air down on me while I sleep. I am covered by four blankets - sheet, thermal, comforter, and a sleeping bag. I'm wearing PJ's to bed!! Spot comes under the blankets now and then to warm up during the night. I've even noticed him going in during the day. And it's not even really winter yet! *GLOOM* I am going to re-arrange the room tomorrow after my other appointment. You shouldn't get that much air moving through a closed window with the curtains down!
Maybe Jade could check the caulking?
Speaking of whom ... For those who hadn't yet heard, Jade and I have separated for a little while. I have received many, many letters of support and offers of help from friends and a couple from family. Nobody has pried past the explanation I gave out, except for one person who shut me out to sulk when I refused to give details. Told me to tell everything and to tell the truth. Well, the truth is, it was nobody's business, and I said so. Haven't heard a word from that person since.
That's true friendship.
Seriously, I'm not telling anybody anything. This is between Jade and I. We have not divorced, broken up, or anything else ... we've just found other living arrangements. And we're working on us. that's it. That's all you need to know. Thanks for coming out.
So now I'm driving 45 min to work ... which makes the split shifts stupid. The managers want to make sure we get a "decent break" between shifts. So I have generally three hours of nothing to do and no where to go between shifts on those days. I break it up with sitting in the truck and sitting at work. Both usually costs me money. It doesn't help my temper that the schedule completely ignores my availability. I am not available on Fri evenings or on weekends, yet I've been working those days for over a month now. *sigh* Maybe I should transfer closer to home.
I better get some more arranging done. Got two weeks before I present this place to the public!
Sweet Dreams!
PS. Just saw a "ghost" of Princess Fernie-poo walk through my home ... that's just freaky!! She's never been here and would NOT come looking for me. *thinks* Well, maybe she's looking for Spot.
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