October 3, 2009 - 12:09
Wow. Didn't realise that I hadn't updated in so long. Too many updates in my head, I guess.
So ... Big news first, I guess. For those who didn't get the family newsletter ...
Albert got the news that he is not eligible for the heart transplant at this time ... he has too much pressure around is lungs. A new heart now would "make him explode." However, there is a pump that will improve the quality of his life significantly and should eventually ease that pressure for a transplant later. Only six other people have this pump and two were so happy that they decided to keep it instead of getting the transplant. This sounds like a good thing ...
Everybody keeps telling me that this is my chance for a new start. Since this was not my intention, it started to get annoying after the fourth person. I'm not leaving because I need a fresh start, or because I have to get away from certain people. I'm going to help my parents deal with things and to look after their house while they are gone. If they lived here in the city, nobody would be talking about fresh starts and new lives. I don't need to start over, people. I just need a new apartment!
Granted, I appreciate the feeling behind the good wishes, but really ... write your own story!
Having said that, I do admit to getting away from the current rumour that somebody thought I had to know. Although I'm confused as to why I had to know another rumour about Jade cheating on me AFTER we officially split up is beyond me. The girl in question is supposed to be a good friend of mine ... and is supposedly the one who is spreading the rumour to others. This either means that she is bragging, dying to confess (guilt, you know), or just plain stupid. Either way, it's something that I don't mind stepping back from. The usual rumours are easily dismissed. These ones aren't much different ... the facts given don't add up, except in fantasy. But the fact that it's coming from a friend (allegedly) ... that's a betrayal that I haven't yet recovered from and am not sure what to do about it. I'm very tired of being in the middle of factions who all have the best of intentions for me. Especially when one of them starts acting oddly ... thereby confirming??
Bah!
We'll see. I'm still waiting. Not sure for what. Just having trouble believing. Jade denies it, of course. In fact, having heard what she is supposedly saying, he says that this person is no longer his friend. I feel a bit used ... but by whom?
So I'll be using this to step back and think about things ... but not for a new start. That will begin six months from now ... the question remains as to where. I have a good chance of still having a job when I come back, so coming home is still in the plans. But who knows? The island is beautiful, and there are alot of good looking guys there. And I AM single now ...
We'll see. New adventures await, if not a new start.
Had the gas turned off while I was on vacation. Talk about signs, eh? Been very cold in here. Got the space heater in the kitchen for Ashley. An extra comforter on the bed makes things cozy at night. Spot seems content too.
Not sure what I'm going to do with Ashley. I really don't want to take her with me. If she ever got out, she'd be gone for good. Like I said in my e-mail, she'll join a cult of giant seagulls and go bad. They'll use her to crack open crab shells, I know.
She also likes to fly into windows. Something is going to break. Maybe her. Maybe me.
Slowly getting things gathered for easy packing. That means putting everything upstairs. Something I should get back to doing ...
Sweet Dreams!
