December 21, 2010 - 02:56
Event: Winter Solstice/Lunar Eclipse
Music: She's My Kind of Rain - Tim McGraw
Mood: Low enough to cry, but not depressed into immobility
Been an odd day today. Not sure if i would blame hormones or not. Probably just lonely. Lonely for my own space with my own things. Lonely for strong arms, and whispered loving words. Lingering kisses ... and hearing that special some one breathe deeply in sleep beside me.
I've got things pretty good here and I know it - which makes me even more depressed because then I feel guilty. I've been living out of my suitcase for over a year now. When I wasn't living in somebody else's home, I was scratching a sparse life with things that I couldn't even keep. I'm ready to go home.
I just have to find it.
Things are going well at work. Lots of hours pouring in which will make finding my home that much simpler, but it will still take a while. I have a couple more debts to pay off ... I have to consider new debts/bills and food in addition to rent, etc. I have to consider that PartyLite isn't going to make my life easier any time soon ... but I know that I will not give up on it because I love it.
I don't give up on anything that I love. Ever.
Let that be a lesson to me.
There's a strangeness in the air tonight ... another reason to wish for my own space. It's been a while since I felt this and I wish I was alone to explore it a bit. There's an energy ... a slumbering power with a light humming breath. I wish to immerse myself within it. It Calls to Me.
Sweet Dreams ...
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Thursday, December 16, 2010
I Can Only Shake My Head
December 16, 2010 - 14:40
It's quite the mish-mash of 'easy' and 'struggle' since I came back home again. Frankly, the 'struggle' is increasing. Damn retrograde. I can't totally blame the retrograde though ... things were getting silly even before it came about ... and got fixed while in it. That's unusual and I wonder if any good will come out of it.
My biggest struggle has been with my own business. I've never had so much trouble with PartyLite before. Bad enough that I got screwed over by my bank on the island and am now on a Money-order Status with PartyLite (which I bypass by using my own credit card) but it's taken me about a month to get my party settled ... from November!! Lavender had done such a wonderful job getting that party together, and has been so good about it all, including dealing with her friends who are wondering where there orders are. Thankfully, some have shown up ... but there are some that are going to be close. I find this especially embarrassing because I kept telling everybody that I've never had a problem with PartyLite before. Well, SOMEBODY dropped the ball in this case. I hope that things get out on time. I've been putting the word out to the Universe.
More bad news. I talked with PartyLite this afternoon and I was finally told why my website is still down. And that it won't be up again until February 16th, 2011. I'm missing out on cybersale #4 right now. I'm sure that I'll be missing out on at least three, or more, by the time I get it back. Busiest time of year, and the best chance to get orders ... and my site is down. All because my bank screwed around with my account.
I should sue HSBC for these losses ... probably cost me more than I would win though. So, instead, I'm spreading the word. Avoid HSBC. They have not only screwed me, while charging top dollar to do it, they caused problems for my mother as well. I'm sticking with the credit unions ... thanks.
There's more than this ... but these have been my top concerns for th past while.
Good news. Yes, there is some in here somewhere.
I managed to get my Term Deposit started so that I'll be all set for next year. My 'Master Plan' is in motion once more. Every two weeks, $50 will come out of my account ... by this time next year, it will mature, I'll have $600 in my savings, and the remaining $600 + interest will be re-invested to start all over again. It's a slow way to get rich, but it seems a bit more reliable than the lottery.
I'm still living with Mercury and Harem ... and Spot is still getting on well with the kitties here, although one tries to bully him now and then. (I think he's jealous.) We're hoping to have our own place soon. Maybe January. Probably February. There are things that I need to replace in order to have my new world perfected. For one, I need a bed. For another, yet another kitty litter tray. Litter ... food ... and a couch. For the most part, I have everything else that I need.
I miss my things. Oh, how I miss my things. Each one is special to me ...
Well, time to get ready for work ...
Sweet Dreams!
It's quite the mish-mash of 'easy' and 'struggle' since I came back home again. Frankly, the 'struggle' is increasing. Damn retrograde. I can't totally blame the retrograde though ... things were getting silly even before it came about ... and got fixed while in it. That's unusual and I wonder if any good will come out of it.
My biggest struggle has been with my own business. I've never had so much trouble with PartyLite before. Bad enough that I got screwed over by my bank on the island and am now on a Money-order Status with PartyLite (which I bypass by using my own credit card) but it's taken me about a month to get my party settled ... from November!! Lavender had done such a wonderful job getting that party together, and has been so good about it all, including dealing with her friends who are wondering where there orders are. Thankfully, some have shown up ... but there are some that are going to be close. I find this especially embarrassing because I kept telling everybody that I've never had a problem with PartyLite before. Well, SOMEBODY dropped the ball in this case. I hope that things get out on time. I've been putting the word out to the Universe.
More bad news. I talked with PartyLite this afternoon and I was finally told why my website is still down. And that it won't be up again until February 16th, 2011. I'm missing out on cybersale #4 right now. I'm sure that I'll be missing out on at least three, or more, by the time I get it back. Busiest time of year, and the best chance to get orders ... and my site is down. All because my bank screwed around with my account.
I should sue HSBC for these losses ... probably cost me more than I would win though. So, instead, I'm spreading the word. Avoid HSBC. They have not only screwed me, while charging top dollar to do it, they caused problems for my mother as well. I'm sticking with the credit unions ... thanks.
There's more than this ... but these have been my top concerns for th past while.
Good news. Yes, there is some in here somewhere.
I managed to get my Term Deposit started so that I'll be all set for next year. My 'Master Plan' is in motion once more. Every two weeks, $50 will come out of my account ... by this time next year, it will mature, I'll have $600 in my savings, and the remaining $600 + interest will be re-invested to start all over again. It's a slow way to get rich, but it seems a bit more reliable than the lottery.
I'm still living with Mercury and Harem ... and Spot is still getting on well with the kitties here, although one tries to bully him now and then. (I think he's jealous.) We're hoping to have our own place soon. Maybe January. Probably February. There are things that I need to replace in order to have my new world perfected. For one, I need a bed. For another, yet another kitty litter tray. Litter ... food ... and a couch. For the most part, I have everything else that I need.
I miss my things. Oh, how I miss my things. Each one is special to me ...
Well, time to get ready for work ...
Sweet Dreams!
Sunday, December 05, 2010
Just a Little Quickie ...
December 5, 2010 - 15:00
Feeling a bit of tension at "home". I'm really keen to get my own place, but I don't want to dive out of here so quickly that I jump without being ready to land. I'm just going to take things one day at a time and try to be calm and patient.
But, oh, I miss my things ... and my privacy. Granted, my roomies do their best, but I don't have that personal space unless they go somewhere without me ... or lock themselves in their room for a few hours. :) I'm a private person, and I have a certain way of doing things ... and I'm trying very hard not to impress my way on them. It's not my place.
November was a roller coaster month ... I came back to Alberta and was welcomed with joyous open arms. Spot and I have settled in and found our place amongst the others who are sharing their space with us. Took a couple weeks, but my old job finally came around and re-hired me ... on my happy first day at work, November 18, my Dad, Albert, passed. He had a very exhausting couple of years, and the last was worse than the rest. I hope he's found his peace, at last.
The memorial ... a Celebration of his Life ... was a wonderful time. Lots of laughing, lots of tears, and lots of memories. A lot of people who didn't get a chance to say good-bye.
In other news, my mother is making plans to get everything settled for herself ... and if I haven't gone insane by then, we'll find a place together. I think though, that she should stay with her sister for a long while and rest. We'll see.
On the bright side, I had an EXCELLENT PartyLite Party at Lavendar's ... she really is one of my best friends. She went all out and gave me my best party ever ... together, we reached over $1200 in sales. You SO have a train ticket coming to you, Lav. My thanks to my friends who pitched in what they could. I hope you'll book your own parties and get some free stuff for yourselves. ;)
Other good news ... my "day" job had a contest for the month of November. I didn't think too much of it because I came in on the 18th ... but you had to push 6 packs of Pepsi as you took orders ... and it would be judged by the # you sold per hour you worked. This could have been an advantage, but there were some who worked less hours than me, even. I got SECOND PLACE!! This equals a prize of $100 and a case of Pepsi product! WHOO! HOO! Thank you, Universe! Keep it coming!
I have to go to work now. Will try to write later!
Sweet Dreams!
Feeling a bit of tension at "home". I'm really keen to get my own place, but I don't want to dive out of here so quickly that I jump without being ready to land. I'm just going to take things one day at a time and try to be calm and patient.
But, oh, I miss my things ... and my privacy. Granted, my roomies do their best, but I don't have that personal space unless they go somewhere without me ... or lock themselves in their room for a few hours. :) I'm a private person, and I have a certain way of doing things ... and I'm trying very hard not to impress my way on them. It's not my place.
November was a roller coaster month ... I came back to Alberta and was welcomed with joyous open arms. Spot and I have settled in and found our place amongst the others who are sharing their space with us. Took a couple weeks, but my old job finally came around and re-hired me ... on my happy first day at work, November 18, my Dad, Albert, passed. He had a very exhausting couple of years, and the last was worse than the rest. I hope he's found his peace, at last.
The memorial ... a Celebration of his Life ... was a wonderful time. Lots of laughing, lots of tears, and lots of memories. A lot of people who didn't get a chance to say good-bye.
In other news, my mother is making plans to get everything settled for herself ... and if I haven't gone insane by then, we'll find a place together. I think though, that she should stay with her sister for a long while and rest. We'll see.
On the bright side, I had an EXCELLENT PartyLite Party at Lavendar's ... she really is one of my best friends. She went all out and gave me my best party ever ... together, we reached over $1200 in sales. You SO have a train ticket coming to you, Lav. My thanks to my friends who pitched in what they could. I hope you'll book your own parties and get some free stuff for yourselves. ;)
Other good news ... my "day" job had a contest for the month of November. I didn't think too much of it because I came in on the 18th ... but you had to push 6 packs of Pepsi as you took orders ... and it would be judged by the # you sold per hour you worked. This could have been an advantage, but there were some who worked less hours than me, even. I got SECOND PLACE!! This equals a prize of $100 and a case of Pepsi product! WHOO! HOO! Thank you, Universe! Keep it coming!
I have to go to work now. Will try to write later!
Sweet Dreams!
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