January 26, 2010 - 03:06
Mood: Calm, confident, content ... and feeling damn sexy too!
Music: Angel's Eyes - ABBA
Thought of the Day: Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there footsteps on the Moon ...
I wasn't sure that I'd be writing today. As usual, I do my writing in my head as the day goes on and, having 'written', I am content. But I've been moving boxes, in lieu of jogging on a treadmill, and getting things organised as best I can, and I've decided to take a bit of a break. It's almost fry time though, so stopping now may be a bit dangerous ... I could just go to bed without doing anything further. I guess we'll see how long I write, and how tired I am by the end of it.
Typing is becoming a bit of a chore now, you see, because my nails have been getting so long. I'm afraid to cut them now that I go and get them 'done'. LOL! Ah, well, I'll adjust. That's what life is all about, right? Adjusting, absorbing, and overcoming our obstacles.
As for details of my date, sorry, no voyeurism here. Get your own love life. ;)
Needless to say, I will not post too many details about it here for a little while. I want to proceed without prejudice. I love my friends, and I know that some of you have given me wonderful advice, but I've always said that I have my own path to follow and I need to walk it in my own time and my own fashion. I need to stay true to myself. You would all love me less if I didn't. Admit it. *smile*
Meanwhile, my space in the apartment continues to get settled.
By the by, I welcome work out partners. I realise that my work schedule is not ideal, but I think we can work something out. You never know.
I'd like to take a moment to say that I'm very proud of everything that my friend, Annie, has accomplished for herself. Especially, I must say, when she decided to NOT do it all by herself. That's tough stuff, girlie.
Music: Shadow Stalker - Heather Alexander (Mercedes Lackey)
Music: The Man Who Shot Liberty Valence - Gene Pitney
Well, I guess I should get something else accomplished ... maybe I will do a bit of shopping around for a mattress set ... So many sales going on! And Jackie has mentioned a sale at Reitman's ... *sigh* So many sales, so many needs, so little time to get it all done by bus. Not to mention the limited ability to carry it all. LOL!
Sweet Dreams!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
Finding Bits of Me ... And Remaking the Image
(aka: Picking Up the Pieces - Reduce, Re-use, Recycle!!)
January 24, 2011 - 02:16
Mood: Tired, but content, and yet slightly restless.
Music: None today ... just whatever is playing in the my head at the odd moment. :)
I don't feel too much like writing at the moment, but if I don't write something soon, Lavender is going to come over and smack me around ...
Wait ... She can't. Hmm ... No, she might send somebody scarier ...
Get better soon, Lavender. Really.
So ... some big things have happened. I moved into a new place on the 13th. It's been very nice to be able to have my own place. Mom took up residence shortly after, which was a bit disappointing, since I was expecting some time to myself. Alone time, with some quietness, was needed to help myself focus, to center myself, so that I could deal with my mother calmly. I didn't get it. It took a lot of energy to exert some control over my emotions, and my reactions. Sometimes I slipped. I just took a deep breath and tried again. It's unfortunate that my mother and I do no wander on the same wavelength. Not even remotely. For one thing, it's a family joke that my mother is colour blind. Some of her colour choices are a bit odd. It's not to say that she is without taste, but we definitely prefer different ... flavours.
Decorating is going to interesting. Hmm ...
Well, she comes back with her stuff mid week ... we'll see what happens. Meanwhile I have to have my own things unpacked and settled. Out of the way. Making some good headway so far. Tomorrow I'll get some more done. Hoping to visit Lavender a bit on Wednesday, but I haven't had a chance to talk with her yet. I'll text her when I wake up. I need to get a phone number, or an e-mail, from her ...
Spot handled the move quite well. He called for about an hour and when he didn't get any answer except me ... wow ... such joy. It was just us again, and he was so happy. Poor little sod. LOL!
Had a date last night, and things went very well. I find myself in beginnings of a true adult relationship for the first time, and it stuns me with the pleasure of it. Makes me wonder how much I've grown in the past couple years. And how much my scars show. Anyway, I'm going to let it ride and see what happens. In the meantime, I plan on buying a bed. :) With new pillows too.
So, new place, new relationship, new bed, new life ... New year.
Sweet dreams ... <3
January 24, 2011 - 02:16
Mood: Tired, but content, and yet slightly restless.
Music: None today ... just whatever is playing in the my head at the odd moment. :)
I don't feel too much like writing at the moment, but if I don't write something soon, Lavender is going to come over and smack me around ...
Wait ... She can't. Hmm ... No, she might send somebody scarier ...
Get better soon, Lavender. Really.
So ... some big things have happened. I moved into a new place on the 13th. It's been very nice to be able to have my own place. Mom took up residence shortly after, which was a bit disappointing, since I was expecting some time to myself. Alone time, with some quietness, was needed to help myself focus, to center myself, so that I could deal with my mother calmly. I didn't get it. It took a lot of energy to exert some control over my emotions, and my reactions. Sometimes I slipped. I just took a deep breath and tried again. It's unfortunate that my mother and I do no wander on the same wavelength. Not even remotely. For one thing, it's a family joke that my mother is colour blind. Some of her colour choices are a bit odd. It's not to say that she is without taste, but we definitely prefer different ... flavours.
Decorating is going to interesting. Hmm ...
Well, she comes back with her stuff mid week ... we'll see what happens. Meanwhile I have to have my own things unpacked and settled. Out of the way. Making some good headway so far. Tomorrow I'll get some more done. Hoping to visit Lavender a bit on Wednesday, but I haven't had a chance to talk with her yet. I'll text her when I wake up. I need to get a phone number, or an e-mail, from her ...
Spot handled the move quite well. He called for about an hour and when he didn't get any answer except me ... wow ... such joy. It was just us again, and he was so happy. Poor little sod. LOL!
Had a date last night, and things went very well. I find myself in beginnings of a true adult relationship for the first time, and it stuns me with the pleasure of it. Makes me wonder how much I've grown in the past couple years. And how much my scars show. Anyway, I'm going to let it ride and see what happens. In the meantime, I plan on buying a bed. :) With new pillows too.
So, new place, new relationship, new bed, new life ... New year.
Sweet dreams ... <3
Sunday, January 09, 2011
My Resolutions Update
January 9, 2011 - 02:51
Mood: Tired, but thoughtful ... eager to get the move done! Finally, I will be HOME!
Music: The Other Side of Time - Mary Fahl
Tarot of the Day: *on hold until I can use real cards*
I've heard more than one person say that New Year resolutions are the height of stupidity. I do not let this sway me from my current list. Mostly because I didn't make this list because it was New Year's. I didn't make it because all my friends were doing it and I had to be a part of the Thing. I'm not one to make resolutions. I've never bothered before. This year was different. This year, changes are needed, and now is a good time to bring forth those changes. It's still The Year of the Tiger until February - Chinese New Year ... and I'm still holding on to the fact that this is my year to find myself and do great things ... I think next year is the Rabbit. I've always seen the rabbit depicted as white ... A White Rabbit ... sounds like trouble next year.
So, changes, or changes underway, BEFORE the Tiger gives up it's position.
Speaking of my list ... Here's the update on what I have done so far ...
So ... maybe not All Ahead Full ... but I'm a strong believer in baby steps. Even if I never get any farther than what I have accomplished so far, it's not a failure. Point of fact, size doesn't matter. I have accomplished SOMETHING. Which is better than doing nothing at all.
Music: Take a Chance on Me - ABBA
I'm moving this Thursday ... Not sure when my things will get there, but I'll be in the place on the 13th. I'm determined. It's important. Not even the thought of sleeping on the floor will cause me hesitation.
I hope I have help.
Sweet Dreams ...
Mood: Tired, but thoughtful ... eager to get the move done! Finally, I will be HOME!
Music: The Other Side of Time - Mary Fahl
Tarot of the Day: *on hold until I can use real cards*
I've heard more than one person say that New Year resolutions are the height of stupidity. I do not let this sway me from my current list. Mostly because I didn't make this list because it was New Year's. I didn't make it because all my friends were doing it and I had to be a part of the Thing. I'm not one to make resolutions. I've never bothered before. This year was different. This year, changes are needed, and now is a good time to bring forth those changes. It's still The Year of the Tiger until February - Chinese New Year ... and I'm still holding on to the fact that this is my year to find myself and do great things ... I think next year is the Rabbit. I've always seen the rabbit depicted as white ... A White Rabbit ... sounds like trouble next year.
So, changes, or changes underway, BEFORE the Tiger gives up it's position.
Speaking of my list ... Here's the update on what I have done so far ...
#1(Wardrobe/Image) ... will be acting on this soon ... like when I get a dresser and buy some hangers. Although part of improving my look isn't about clothes ... so I guess I've been acting on this already also.
#2 (Finances) is coming along nicely. Slowly, but steadily. I'm happy. (I even explained my plan to Shorty who seems to be considering a similar plan.) I'm going to be very happy next Christmas ...
#3 (Health)... I'm acting on it, but I know that I'm my own worse critic. I'm trying to like myself better, but seriously, I'm going to feel more rewarded by YOUR comments than i will by mine. For now.
#4 (Love) Not gonna rush this ...
#5 (Happy) Things are a bit stressed right now. Hormones can be nasty things when they fight back. ;) But I think I am headed to a better place.
So ... maybe not All Ahead Full ... but I'm a strong believer in baby steps. Even if I never get any farther than what I have accomplished so far, it's not a failure. Point of fact, size doesn't matter. I have accomplished SOMETHING. Which is better than doing nothing at all.
Music: Take a Chance on Me - ABBA
I'm moving this Thursday ... Not sure when my things will get there, but I'll be in the place on the 13th. I'm determined. It's important. Not even the thought of sleeping on the floor will cause me hesitation.
I hope I have help.
Sweet Dreams ...
Wednesday, January 05, 2011
Reunion
(aka "200th Issue! No Alternate Cover Available!)
January 5, 2011 - 02:17
Music: Various ... went from Fly Away (Moulin Rouge) to Wild Horses (Jewel)
Mood: Hungry, restless, expectant ... and lonely, horny, and lots of other stuff! :)
Tarot of the Day: The Sun
As much as I don't appreciate my mother rushing us into something, just because SHE likes it, I find myself looking forward to the move itself. In just a couple weeks I will be surrounded by my own things once again ... I will be living in my own space with my own things and I will be able to once again live my own life ... which is convenient since I am quickly finding myself once again ... and I'm loving what I'm finding. How I have missed me. <3
Not sure what I'll do first ... watch movies/anime or just listen to all my music on a stereo with real speakers ... while dancing naked in the living room. :) I like that picture. True joy can not be contained!
I will have to find a couch and a bed ... but I think that I can manage those things. Might even manage them new ... we'll see.
Going to meet with my mom tomorrow (later today) and we'll view the place that she has her heart set on. I'm pretty sure that we'll end up taking it. We're going to set some rules. I'm going to make some strong suggestions. we'll see what happens from there.
Things are getting crowded here, so it's good that I'll be leaving soon. And the drama built up to a point where it became outright ridiculous ... which finally allowed for the closure that was necessary. Good. I'm glad that things have turned out.
I have green fingernails ... :) Went out and got a manicure. Not sure if I mentioned that already, but I probably did. I'm still pleased with them. Wonder what colour I'll get next?
Sweet Dreams!
January 5, 2011 - 02:17
Music: Various ... went from Fly Away (Moulin Rouge) to Wild Horses (Jewel)
Mood: Hungry, restless, expectant ... and lonely, horny, and lots of other stuff! :)
Tarot of the Day: The Sun
As much as I don't appreciate my mother rushing us into something, just because SHE likes it, I find myself looking forward to the move itself. In just a couple weeks I will be surrounded by my own things once again ... I will be living in my own space with my own things and I will be able to once again live my own life ... which is convenient since I am quickly finding myself once again ... and I'm loving what I'm finding. How I have missed me. <3
Not sure what I'll do first ... watch movies/anime or just listen to all my music on a stereo with real speakers ... while dancing naked in the living room. :) I like that picture. True joy can not be contained!
I will have to find a couch and a bed ... but I think that I can manage those things. Might even manage them new ... we'll see.
Going to meet with my mom tomorrow (later today) and we'll view the place that she has her heart set on. I'm pretty sure that we'll end up taking it. We're going to set some rules. I'm going to make some strong suggestions. we'll see what happens from there.
Things are getting crowded here, so it's good that I'll be leaving soon. And the drama built up to a point where it became outright ridiculous ... which finally allowed for the closure that was necessary. Good. I'm glad that things have turned out.
I have green fingernails ... :) Went out and got a manicure. Not sure if I mentioned that already, but I probably did. I'm still pleased with them. Wonder what colour I'll get next?
Sweet Dreams!
Tuesday, January 04, 2011
In the Works
January 4, 2010 - 02:02
Music: Isn't any ... Harem and Mercury are supposedly sleeping. So ...
Song in my Head: Seven Day Fool
Mood: Pleasant
Tarot Card of the Day: The Hermit
Got my make over started today. Had a spontaneous manicure. Mercury picked out the colour ... Green-wich Village. When she first read the name, I had thought she said 'Green Witch' ... so, of course, my interested was peaked. It's not a bad colour, and everybody agrees that it suits me. And I guess it must since it takes them a while to notice it in the first place. *rolls eyes* I talk with my hands, people ... flashes of green on my hands are not so common ... I think. :)
Tomorrow, I plan on getting a haircut, perhaps ...
Also, I have requested information in regards to keeping a promise to somebody special. Albert wanted me to sing ... so I'm getting info on vocal lessons from the Alberta Music College (or whatever the name is ... it's 2 AM. Quiet!) I'm going to take some private lessons to find what style suits me best. I've had plenty of experience working with groups. I want to see what I can do solo. It will improve my confidence too. I'm used to blending in. It's about time I learned to stand out!
Speaking of which, as soon as I get my own bathroom, I'll be wearing a splash of make up. I don't feel that I really need it. I personally think that I am pretty enough without it ... but I do admit that I have a way of making heads turn when I have it and I feel like making a splash. So, there you are. The make over is beginning.
Speaking of my own space ... Mom and I are getting an apartment right away. She's determined to have this certain one ... and I may be able to get in early ... we'll see.
Lavender, I miss you on Fb and hope that you will eventually come back. I miss sharing things with you there!
Finally, I have given Jackie her birthday present ... that one that I have been holding for almost a year now. Now I just have to catch up on a coupe more ... might get caught up in time for Christmas again! LOL!
So many things to be done ... so little time ... it almost feels like I'm just entering the "Christmas Season" because my time seems to be so full to big and little things. I guess that I should get to sleep so that I can be ready for it all.
Sweet Dreams!
PS. Send Jade a picture ... He loves my nails too! <3
Music: Isn't any ... Harem and Mercury are supposedly sleeping. So ...
Song in my Head: Seven Day Fool
Mood: Pleasant
Tarot Card of the Day: The Hermit
Got my make over started today. Had a spontaneous manicure. Mercury picked out the colour ... Green-wich Village. When she first read the name, I had thought she said 'Green Witch' ... so, of course, my interested was peaked. It's not a bad colour, and everybody agrees that it suits me. And I guess it must since it takes them a while to notice it in the first place. *rolls eyes* I talk with my hands, people ... flashes of green on my hands are not so common ... I think. :)
Tomorrow, I plan on getting a haircut, perhaps ...
Also, I have requested information in regards to keeping a promise to somebody special. Albert wanted me to sing ... so I'm getting info on vocal lessons from the Alberta Music College (or whatever the name is ... it's 2 AM. Quiet!) I'm going to take some private lessons to find what style suits me best. I've had plenty of experience working with groups. I want to see what I can do solo. It will improve my confidence too. I'm used to blending in. It's about time I learned to stand out!
Speaking of which, as soon as I get my own bathroom, I'll be wearing a splash of make up. I don't feel that I really need it. I personally think that I am pretty enough without it ... but I do admit that I have a way of making heads turn when I have it and I feel like making a splash. So, there you are. The make over is beginning.
Speaking of my own space ... Mom and I are getting an apartment right away. She's determined to have this certain one ... and I may be able to get in early ... we'll see.
Lavender, I miss you on Fb and hope that you will eventually come back. I miss sharing things with you there!
Finally, I have given Jackie her birthday present ... that one that I have been holding for almost a year now. Now I just have to catch up on a coupe more ... might get caught up in time for Christmas again! LOL!
So many things to be done ... so little time ... it almost feels like I'm just entering the "Christmas Season" because my time seems to be so full to big and little things. I guess that I should get to sleep so that I can be ready for it all.
Sweet Dreams!
PS. Send Jade a picture ... He loves my nails too! <3
Sunday, January 02, 2011
Resolutions
January 2, 2011 - 04:48
Tarot for the Day: The Star, The Tower, The World
Music: None - Listening to Mercury watch Bones episode
Mood: Thoughtful ... and Fidgety (Which, yes, looks just like it sounds)
Tarot for the Day: The Star, The Tower, The World
Music: None - Listening to Mercury watch Bones episode
Mood: Thoughtful ... and Fidgety (Which, yes, looks just like it sounds)
My 2011 Resolutions ...
- To get a handle on my T-shirt addiction, and improve my wardrobe. I'm going to try and get away from the full time jeans/t-shirt look.
- I'm going to be financially stable, if not comfortable. (Independently wealthy would be nice, but ... baby steps ... baby steps ...)
- Lose weight/tone up/be a little healthier
- Find Love. That Somebody who wants Me and wants me to want Him back.
- Be Happy.
That's pretty much it. If I can only find a smidgeon of each, I'll consider myself well off.
I have been giving this list some further thought. I had kept it short purposely, so that I would be more likely to keep it ... or most of it ... or bits of some of it. :) However, a new list style has been brought to my attention. A Bucket List of resolutions/goals ... something that I can check off as I accomplish them throughout the year. I will be thinking it out for later.
For now, though ... sleepy time!
Sweet Dreams!
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