The Home Stretch

May 30, 2015 - 23:52

Mood: Exhausted
Music: In the Air Tonight ~ Phil Collins
Thought of the Day: "Spirituality does not come from Religion. It comes from the Soul." ~ Anthony Douglas Williams

     I've been wanting to write again, but it's been stupidly busy and not very quiet when its not busy. But tomorrow is an Unplugged Day, so I want to get this in while I can. Besides, a friend updated hers and it made me feel motivated. :)

     We're still unpacking. We've been in the "new" house for a month now ... and we're still unpacking. Partially because the shelving pins were put in a last minute "safe" place. Dammit. So I can't put the shelves up, and I can't unpack my books or display items. Grr ... So I'm unloading likely locations onto any available surface. My bed, the spare bed, my comic boxes, chairs, my closet. *sigh* It'll all settle soon, I think. Meanwhile, I'm able to go through things and decide what I'm keeping and what I'm not. And wonder why the heck I was holing on to something in the first place. I mean really ... why do we do this to ourselves? I need to do a mass shredding event too. Pity I missed out on the one being offered by AMA. I might be able to sneak some in at work, but I'd prefer not to. Kind of against the rules.

     So ... just to catch you up with things form the last entry ... the car got a tune up. Spark plugs had an excessive gap, fuel injector was dirty, tires were ready to blow (well, one had a bubble forming, but the rest weren't far behind), and the timing belt was over due. $1300 later and all that was fixed. I get a smoother ride out of the car now, and it's not using quite as much gas, but it's still gutless. I'm afraid to pass on the single lane highway, because I end up playing chicken with on-coming traffic. It's just not a highway vehicle. At all. I'm trying to convince Mom to let me trade it up, but I'm waiting to see what my job situation is like. My current assignment ends on June 12. Will I be staying longer with another extension? Staying permanently? Or will I be moving on to another job? Or on a temporary "vacation". I tried to go an pick up the van last night, but the battery was dead and the hood wouldn't open. So I returned the papers and the keys and suggested that they donate it to the Kidney Foundation. they also had a friend who wanted it for parts. That works too.

     Mom is, as usual, slowly driving me insane. Partially because she's taking over the house (claiming that she's not, all the while) and partially because there's really no where that I can go where she doesn't interrupt me multiple times by either trying to chat me up, babbling silly/idle conversation at me, and I mean CONSTANTLY, or coming into my space. As an introvert, this is not acceptable. I need uninterrupted quiet to recharge. I'm not getting it. Instead, I'm being nagged at to DO something ... because she's bored. I have to go to bed when she's tired. And yes, put on a sweater when she's cold as well. Actually, she occasionally tries to cover me up because she says that I LOOK cold. Oookay, then.

     The garden ... is sadly going to wait until next year while I take the time to work it. It's getting a bit late to plant things and we need a good rototiller. The garden and flower beds here have been so abused/neglected. Which is a pity, because the soil was excellent. Still is, I guess, but it needs some serious lovin'. Well, it'll get that. I'm determined.

     So many things that I wanted to get off my chest today, but I'm not able to think of them as well as I was earlier. *sigh* The danger of writing in the wee hours, I guess. :) Oh, well. Safe to say that I'm still frustrated, lonely, depressed, and struggling with my hormones. The depression has improved, but I have the odd time when it really hits for a while.  Still, it has improved greatly. Reduced stress helps. Even my weight is slowly getting better. Still fluctuates, but the amounts are less ... this is a good thing! Slow, but good. My back is a major ache though. Stiff. A massage is very much required. I wonder if my Blue Cross covers it?

     So, I keep going back to my job situation. Or, my brain does. If I have to choose, do I go with the job that is the longer commute (30 - 40 min), but higher pay, and I'm already trained for it? I'd also be trained in other areas as well. Or do I choose the shorter commute (like 15 - 20 min) for lightly less pay (-$3), but utilizes my variety of skills better as well. I'd be starting over from scratch again. I wonder. It's a waiting game at the moment. I still hope to get some schooling completed as well. Well, fingers crossed that I get a choice and not have it thrust upon me. And if it is, I hope it turns out to be a damn god one.

     I should go and relax in bed now. Tavis is away on exercise and the kitties are restless without him to distract them.

Sweet Dreams!

Circles Within Circles

(aka There's Always That One Thing, You Know? Damn Aliens.)

May 18, 2015 - 16:15

Mood: Tired, tense, and craving
Music: Who's Your Daddy ~ Toby Keith
Thought of the Day: "I find that my words sound better coming from my fingers than from my mouth. It's my honest opinion." ~ Lea

HAPPY VICTORIA DAY!

     Having a rocky day today. Can't decide if I need uninterrupted "alone" time, or just really good sex. Little to no chance of getting either, so I guess I'll have to find something else. *sigh* Either way, I'm still a little overwhelmed with how much we still have to do in the new place. And it all seems to have deadlines and price tags. Guh. I'm taking the car in tomorrow to find out why I'm going through 1/8th of a tank of gas a day. (Going directly back and forth to work only.) Still have to get my van in from Camrose (and find where I packed the keys too! And pay for it as well ...) Half hoping I can trade both vehicles in for something newer and efficient.

     I'm also trying to get the flower beds and garden ready. The flower beds are proving easier but the garden is so neglected that it took me 3 hours to clear a patch of dirt big enough for my cat to roll in. I need a rototiller ... but buy, or rent? Small chance of borrowing.We also have to get garage finished/cleared and set up for a garage sale next weekend. No rest for the wicked here. Just a couple of heavy items to move ... and then my poor muscles might be coaxed in to relaxing. Maybe. So far, they haven't believed me. Probably can't blame them.

     Have a sunburn on the small of my back ... It never occurred to me to put sunscreen there. (I was fully clothed outside, but apparently my shirt kept riding up as I weeded.) Makes it a bit uncomfortable to wear pants ... Ah, well.

     Oh. Yeah ... Tavis and I moved. Right out of the city. Now living in a small town that we feel safe in. Moved Mom back in with us too. Not sure how I'm dealing with that, but there it is. My god-mother suggested that I get her into a "home" so that she can be independent, but cared for and also have friends her age "to play with". this is a good plan, in theory, but also quite out of our (mine or Mom's) price range, and nobody else will take her in. So, here we are ... on the raggedy edge.

     House is lovely. I adore it. It's everything that I want, Really. Hoping to have things fully unpacked by the weekend so that we can start inviting people over to see it! and have BBQ's and all that. Mom is insisting on having a pool. I don't mind that plan, and offered her a solution that won't take up yard space, or ruin the grass. 12' pool ... we are going to be very popular in the summer.

I need to get off the computer. This temporary desk surface is hurting my back ... another cost to worry about.

Sweet Dreams!