Fall Weeding

November 4, 2015 - 21:12

Mood: Admittedly Somber. (No, that's not a typo.)
Music: Ain't Not Sunshine ~ Ed Sheeran
Thought of the Day: Letting others make you happy is a good thing, but you shouldn't depend on them to keep you there. Being happy in your life is YOUR job. Being happy is YOUR reward.

So a couple weeks ago, a guy I know texts me out of the blue and says he's going to be in town soon and he wants to take me out to dinner and a movie. I was hesitant, at first, because it was a Wednesday he was talking about, and I was between job assignments. (Being partially employed doesn't offer much paid vacation time.) I allowed myself to be talked into it though ... and even let myself look forward to letting him sweep me off my feet. That's what he told me ... he was going to sweep me off my feet like the beautiful woman I am. Well, he did. He swept my feet out from under me ... and dropped me on my ass.

It's not unusual for this guy to "maintain radio silence", so I was not alarmed to not hear from him again after the brief text conversation and then phone call. I texted him last night to ask him where he wanted to meet up. (I work close to the movie theatre, so it made more sense to meet there instead of driving all the way to my place just to come right back to where I already was.) No answer. Thanks to iPhone, I know that he saw the message not too long after I sent it though. Okay, no problem. He was busy. I get it. By noon the next day, I had still heard nothing. So I messaged him again ... his reply at last? "I'm sorry for not getting back to you ... I've been quite busy and have forgotten some things." Oh. Okay. No worries. I went from being told that I'm constantly thought about to being told that  I was easily forgotten. No problem. I can forget things too. I'm going to forget ever giving you another chance to have a date with me. You will remain the acquaintance that you seem to be be more comfortable with and I'm going to move in other directions.

Speaking of new moves, I finally have a new job. A real one. With full time hours, and a salary. After being partially employed for a full year - almost exactly - I have a job. With an office!! My own office! Whoo! It's a bit overwhelming at times as I'm holding down three positions at once ... but I'm get there slowly. It's been a week and a half and I'm starting to get comfortable. I know because I'm starting to mutter ... LOL! I'm planning of going shopping for a couple new tops ... my office has a big window ... and it's a tad chilly for my currently Spring fashions. Which are two years old to boot.

So that's my life at the moment. Give and take ... not a bad balance, I guess. I've my own path to follow and it doesn't include walking in others' weed patches. That just spreads more weeds into your own space. You don't need that crap. I certainly don't need that crap. Moving on under my own steam and at my own pace. Feel the peace.

Sweet Dreams!