Are We There Yet?

11:48

I don't understand my fat. It's just not normal. Not normal for me, at any rate. I'm not sure how to describe it but, well, usually when I gained a bit of weight between jobs, it would be "normal" fat. Soft, pinchable, jiggled a little ... (Jiggly butt! GAH! Damn that squirrel!) but this stuff ... you can't pinch, it barely jiggles unless I'm REALLY moving, and it actually resists movement. So am I stretching out or firming up?? *sigh* I need to talk with a professional.

Maybe tomorrow I'm going to go out to Walmart and find some other DVD's from the same line as my AM/PM Walking ... This Debbie Rocker is cool. She's sensible and I like that. I know there are other titles, I just have to see if Walmart carries them! The Walking DVD/CD was on sale, so ... who knows?

My tummy says it's starving, but I just ate a little while ago. If it would digest it instead of trying to send it back, it wouldn't have this issue!

Nope. Don't understand. I've made drastic changes to my diet and one of my friends referred to my exercise program as "intense" ... so why isn't anything changing? It's been over a month! I go back over my daytimer and look at my numbers and it rarely changes. Am I doing something wrong? Maybe I don't drink enough water ... but I drink as much as I can make myself. Maybe I should bring back in the Brita and filter the bottled water we get. It doesn't taste much better than tap and, well, I've been using it for watering the plants and the cat ... the cat dish had algae growing on the bottom of it. So did the one plant I have growing in a glass. It's just wrong.

Hmmm ... I wonder if it has anything to do with the mass on my liver. Probably not. Dr. says that I have possibly had it since I was born. We'll see. Meanwhile I'll keep up with the exercising and food watching. And I've gotta get that tape measure too. Give me a new set of numbers to cry over. ;)

Going to see the Producers tonight. Albert's not feeling so hot again and Joyce didn't want the tickets to go to waste. Hey, no problem! We'd have had the tickets ourselves already if there had been any good seats available.

Jade and Wayne are out inthe garage building the cabinet that will keep all of our statue boxes safe in teh garage. It was supposed to be our project, but I got dumped again. Ah, well. Not eneough room for three people anyway. Gives them some time together. You know ... "it's a father / son ... thing."

I wonder what happened to the numbers on my counter? When I first installed it, it was exactly as I expected it to be ... plodding. I only hve a few readers and I know it. No worries. But then it would takehuge leaps and bounds and I wondered if people were coming in by mistake or if somebody had a computer problem and had to keep coming back in. And now it's plodding again. WTD?

My friend, Wayne, (you need a new name, man ... from now on you are Greywhistle) scolded me for being too independent. We were discussing how my allowance was more than enough until the dentist appointment I just had. He told me that my allowance should be covering personal items ... snacks, personal purchases, gas for the truck, but that things like dentist bills should be part of the budget, not my allowance. He said that we've been using the traditional rolls ... I take care of the cooking and cleaning, etc ... I should let him take care of me.

He says that I make things complicated ... but, on the other hand, that's what makes me (Lea). He always tells me that he likes me BECAUSE I'm complicated. That made me feel better about myself. Here was somebody who was willing to stick around to try and figure me out a bit. He thought being friends with me was worth it. (Impressively, my first thought was NOT that he must have been desperate.)

I needto make a list of all my nicknames that I use ... if I don't refer to somebody for a long time I tend to forget some of them!

Hmm ... maybe I'll go have a PB&J ... it makes a nice, light snack ... and doesn't have as many bad calories as a coffee crisp! LOL!

Sweet Dreams!