21:03
So, a few things have happened.
Yes, they have. Things happen to me too, once in a while. This is one of those whiles. Shush up.
First off, Dona is back to being very nice to me. I'm just going with the flow there and trying to keep my distance. It's hard though because things are nice when she's being nice (without smothering) and I want very much to enjoy it. Even knowing that it could end at anytime. Maybe because I know that. Anyway, she told me that she and Wayne are going to try to get jobs together at a golf course. She needs to get out of the house she says. (Like this is new news.) Apparently, she almost tried to suicide last week. This isn't the life for her, she says. She can't just sit around on her butt and she can only clean so much house. (She's cleaning more than she should, but I zipped that part off.) She's also talking about getting a senior's job in the winter.
I'm sorry that she feels this way and I would be upset if she actually hurt herself like that. I actually am fond of the bitch. ;) But I feel no pity for her. We're coming into our 8th month here and she's still moping because she's "stuck" in the country. She needs to be in the city where she can be more independent, she says. The only reason she is "stuck" is because she was determined to be "stuck" here to prove how pitiful she was. We all made suggestions on how she could help herself and she put down every suggestion. She didn't even think about them, she just smashed them. So I gave her no reaction when she told me about her depression. No way was I going to feed into her "poor pitiful me" routine.
She asked me (ASKED!!) to drive her into town to pick something up because the guys were taking forever with their errand. We went to a couple of Farmer's Markets (Another option to E-bay, Lynne?) and during this she talked about our property as just an investment thing. It's not supposed to be long term. (EH??) That in, maybe, ten years, they'd move into a condo or something and Jade and I would invest in another property. Probably a larger one.
Okay, I can see the sense in that. Especially this place is going to get VERY small when I finally have a child. (I'm allowed to have one, which is all I want ... so I'll probably have twins! BWAHAHAHA!) But I refuse to view this place as temporary or see my work as a way to make more money. I am NOT going to put my soul into this house and fix it up for somebody else. Nuh uh. I'm doing this for me. For myself and for Jade. This is a home, not a temporary business arrangement.
Whatever. We're getting along for now and if she actually gets a job, I'll have the house to myself. And I can choose if I go to work or not. I really should write to Dragonlady soon and let her know about my availability. I also haven't told her about the ring or any of the other happy news.
So there you go.
Next subject - "click!"
Albert is in the hospital again. His heart was fibrillating all over the place and his numbers were wonky. -- Just been updated, he'll be home tomorrow. Aparrantly, the trip was relaxing for him. I agree with Jade ... that's just wrong.
"click"
Had supper last night with the Green Man. It was fantastic! The company more so than the supper. We went to the Keg on the west end. I had called on Thursday to make reservations and I thought I had made them. When we got there, I was informed that they don't take reservations on Friday nights. Really? Then I should have been told that when I called to make one. I was obviously unhappy with this turn of events, but the list was short for waiting, so I shrugged it all off. She asked if I wanted to see the manager and I said that there was no point. I wasn't going to get a table any faster, was I? Managed to have a good time anyway, although it did get fairly noisy and I had to concentrate to hear everything that my companions were saying. Ah, well. Next time, we go to Applebee's, Green Man, okay?
We have a lovely border feature to a new flower bed out front now. Unfortunately, the tree will have to go. It's too close to the cistern. Pity.
Lynne wants to start an E-Bay business with me. This co-incides with similar thoughts that Jade and I were already having, so it's something I am positively thinking about. I also like the Farmer's Market idea too. It's a nice feeling in there and I wouldn't mind being a part of it. Very Family-ish. Clannish, perhaps.
Sounds nice, doesn't it?
Sweet Dreams!
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Friday, April 27, 2007
You Look Wonderful to Me
09:49
First, before I forget, I'd like to thank the friends who responded via cuddles, comments, e-cards or MSN. It's nice to know that my entries are read by people who still care. Shorty, the e-card from you and Princess Mum was fantastic. It DID make me smile and I kept that silly song in my head all day yesterday. It helped immensely. I showed it to Jade and he liked it too. Greywhistle is talking to me via MSN. I'd like to ask him about playing D&D at my place in the afternoons. I figure that their kids can play in the yard or something so that he and his lady, Naomi, can both come. I'd also invite three gentlemen from a previous grouping. Or maybe just keep it us. If it's just us maybe Jade will join in. Yeah, that would be nice.
So, there you are, Greywhistle. What do you think? Also, I checked back on EVERY entry I've made since coming to 'Blogger ... if Naomi had another name, and I don't think she did, then it was so long ago that I have no clue what it is. I was making a list of names for reference, but I had to stop. Spot is sleeping on it. *grin*
I really should be outside helping with the yard. We've got a garden area staked out and it's been given it's initial dirt stirring. It's pretty packed down. We're going to have to go over it a few times before we can plant anything. I also have to make sure that I get down to my parents' place to pick up my plants. they are starting to grow and Joyce is itching to do her own planting. I hear my English Mint is also taking over the place. Anybody want some?
I came home early yesterday and nobody really noticed. Well, Jade sorta did, but the fact that he was home already was exciting enough for him, I guess. Apparently he got fired on Thursday morning. Over a very stupid reason. When Wayne heard about it, he went into the office, tore a strip off of them because it WAS a stupid reason, and promptly quit. So now the company has no Quality Checkers. Is this company stupid or what?
Anyway, Jade already has another job that he starts on Monday. In town, thank the Goddess. I don't know what Wayne is doing. Taking a break first, I guess.
I have to go play outside.
Sweet Dreams!
First, before I forget, I'd like to thank the friends who responded via cuddles, comments, e-cards or MSN. It's nice to know that my entries are read by people who still care. Shorty, the e-card from you and Princess Mum was fantastic. It DID make me smile and I kept that silly song in my head all day yesterday. It helped immensely. I showed it to Jade and he liked it too. Greywhistle is talking to me via MSN. I'd like to ask him about playing D&D at my place in the afternoons. I figure that their kids can play in the yard or something so that he and his lady, Naomi, can both come. I'd also invite three gentlemen from a previous grouping. Or maybe just keep it us. If it's just us maybe Jade will join in. Yeah, that would be nice.
So, there you are, Greywhistle. What do you think? Also, I checked back on EVERY entry I've made since coming to 'Blogger ... if Naomi had another name, and I don't think she did, then it was so long ago that I have no clue what it is. I was making a list of names for reference, but I had to stop. Spot is sleeping on it. *grin*
I really should be outside helping with the yard. We've got a garden area staked out and it's been given it's initial dirt stirring. It's pretty packed down. We're going to have to go over it a few times before we can plant anything. I also have to make sure that I get down to my parents' place to pick up my plants. they are starting to grow and Joyce is itching to do her own planting. I hear my English Mint is also taking over the place. Anybody want some?
I came home early yesterday and nobody really noticed. Well, Jade sorta did, but the fact that he was home already was exciting enough for him, I guess. Apparently he got fired on Thursday morning. Over a very stupid reason. When Wayne heard about it, he went into the office, tore a strip off of them because it WAS a stupid reason, and promptly quit. So now the company has no Quality Checkers. Is this company stupid or what?
Anyway, Jade already has another job that he starts on Monday. In town, thank the Goddess. I don't know what Wayne is doing. Taking a break first, I guess.
I have to go play outside.
Sweet Dreams!
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Stop the World! I'm Gonna Be Sick!!
19:08
Lynne says that I don't update so often anymore. I know. I just haven't been feeling very up to it lately. Besides, I found that I was mostly writing about HER and was worried that you'd all get bored. Then again, maybe you are bored already. Certainly haven't exactly been overloaded with comments or e-mails lately. Lynne has been making more effort to comment (thank you!) and I hope you'll follow her example. You don't need to be a ember. Just click the anonymous and it's up to you whether you sign a name. Just note that I have to okay it before it shows up - don't try to create numerous comments because you can't see them. (Yeah, somebody has already done that. You know who you are.)
No wonder I never get any updates up ... Nobody talks to me unless I'm trying to write one!!
Here's something cool and interesting ...
Click on the picture that represents what you feel about the topic given, and then it will give you a personality profile ... check it out.
http://dna.imagini.net/friends/
Mine came out as:
MOOD: Dreamer
FUN: Conqueror
HABITS: Junkie Monkey
LOVE: Love Bug
I'm actually a little tempted to sign up for this site. It seems interesting ... and I could use a few more friends. The small group I have now is cozy, I suppose, but I need something more. I don't even know what I'm looking for.
Nah. Books are safer. You know where you are with books. and if you don't like them, you can toss them out of your life without a second thought or without worrying that they will come back asking for money, sex, or food.
And I've never had one that was a horrible window. Darn cat!!
Lynne says ( alot of that happening here!) that if I want more comments, I have to show my site to more people.
BWAHAHAHAHAHA!
I don't KNOW any more people! I certainly don't want my family reading it, or my in-laws, for that matter. I doubt my brother or his friends would give a fig (although he did add me to his Facebook - but that's another complaint), and I only have a handful of friends to begin with. So, it's up to you then, Reader. Feel free to pass this on to your friends if you feel that it is worth the read. I mean, come on ... YOU read it! And, please, feel free to comment. I really do love comments.
Well, most of them. *grin*
So ... work. It's almost done. Some are sorry that I'm leaving. Some are aghast that I'm not leaving for another job - they think I'm going to get bored. I tried to explain that despite the large workload there, I was already bored. I want to work WITH the horses, not just around them. I think only one is really looking forward to my leaving ... I'm not going to bother giving her a real name ... but this Princess thinks that I am "mean". I don't know whether to laugh or roll my eyes. But she talks about me behind my back with my co-worker who claims that she denies I'm mean ... but who knows? Should I even care? Bugs me though. Sad thing is that I've heard them talk about me. Twice. And I've pointed it out to the co-worker who gave a small 'oh'. And nothing more was said.
This is the same co-worker who stood me up for lunch yesterday. That really hurt. There were three of us and I had offered to buy the third girl lunch because the two of us were going out and I thought it was not nice to leave girl 3 at the barn to eat her cold baloney sandwiches. I know I used to feel left out when the others left to eat out without even saying goodbye or 'can I bring you something?' It was arranged that Co-worker and Girl 3 would ride together because they smoke. I had picked McDonald's - mostly because it was fast and cheap. (Yes, cheap) Anyway, as I was pulling out, Co-worker decided that she didn't want to go to McDonald's. She wanted to go to Extreme Pita. So they went there ... and didn't pop by the McDonald's (apparently right next door) to let me know.
I had waited for about 10 minutes in the parking lot for them to arrive. I was a bit baffled that they weren't right behind me. I wondered if their car had broken down (Girl 3 has tranny troubles.) I finally went inside to eat, watching for them the entire time. Meanwhile, Lynne texted me a disgusting forward to my phone. (Please don't do that, I think it's a waste of money and I don't like that I can't delete the damn things!) So now I was grossed out AND depressed.
I got back to the barn ... they had beat me back. Guess it helps to not stand in the parking lot for a bit. they even parked in my spot. I walked into the barn and saw the take out - clued in - and walked quietly by, going on with whatever work. Nobody apologised or explained. When I had a chance to get Girl 3 alone, I asked what happened. She felt bad that I waited for them. She said she didn't think that I would wait. I quietly pointed out that I had offered to buy her lunch and therefore would have waited for her to order it. She apologised, and I think it was sincere. I brushed it off. There was no point in making a big deal about it. We won't be working together again.Today Co-worker was giving orders and making demands and constantly telling me that I was wrong. Even when it turned out that I was right. At one point she exploded at me because I had paused for bit to have a bit of thought.
"Why are you just standing there?!"
"I'm thinking. It does happen now and then."
"Can't you think and work at the same time?!? Don't you realise it took you 50 minutes to get those last three stalls done?"
(That was a gross exaggeration and it didn't matter how long I took because 1: she left without communicating, 2: I stayed ahead of her - there was no waiting involved and 3: I got back from dumping the load before she could even finish what SHE was doing. I mean, WTF??)
After lunch, she was all relaxed. Until the boss asked me to something different from what was planned and Co-worker tried to tell me that I had done something incorrectly again. I pointed at the boss, whom she had passed to TELL me that, and said that plans had changed. She thumped away.
Damn, I love working with people who are trying to quit smoking. And this is the girl who LOVES working in Human Resources?!?
Goddess, help her. (Or the customers ... either works.)
I have to go to bed. We'll try to write more tomorrow ...
Sweet Dreams!!
Lynne says that I don't update so often anymore. I know. I just haven't been feeling very up to it lately. Besides, I found that I was mostly writing about HER and was worried that you'd all get bored. Then again, maybe you are bored already. Certainly haven't exactly been overloaded with comments or e-mails lately. Lynne has been making more effort to comment (thank you!) and I hope you'll follow her example. You don't need to be a ember. Just click the anonymous and it's up to you whether you sign a name. Just note that I have to okay it before it shows up - don't try to create numerous comments because you can't see them. (Yeah, somebody has already done that. You know who you are.)
No wonder I never get any updates up ... Nobody talks to me unless I'm trying to write one!!
Here's something cool and interesting ...
Click on the picture that represents what you feel about the topic given, and then it will give you a personality profile ... check it out.
http://dna.imagini.net/friends/
Mine came out as:
MOOD: Dreamer
FUN: Conqueror
HABITS: Junkie Monkey
LOVE: Love Bug
I'm actually a little tempted to sign up for this site. It seems interesting ... and I could use a few more friends. The small group I have now is cozy, I suppose, but I need something more. I don't even know what I'm looking for.
Nah. Books are safer. You know where you are with books. and if you don't like them, you can toss them out of your life without a second thought or without worrying that they will come back asking for money, sex, or food.
And I've never had one that was a horrible window. Darn cat!!
Lynne says ( alot of that happening here!) that if I want more comments, I have to show my site to more people.
BWAHAHAHAHAHA!
I don't KNOW any more people! I certainly don't want my family reading it, or my in-laws, for that matter. I doubt my brother or his friends would give a fig (although he did add me to his Facebook - but that's another complaint), and I only have a handful of friends to begin with. So, it's up to you then, Reader. Feel free to pass this on to your friends if you feel that it is worth the read. I mean, come on ... YOU read it! And, please, feel free to comment. I really do love comments.
Well, most of them. *grin*
So ... work. It's almost done. Some are sorry that I'm leaving. Some are aghast that I'm not leaving for another job - they think I'm going to get bored. I tried to explain that despite the large workload there, I was already bored. I want to work WITH the horses, not just around them. I think only one is really looking forward to my leaving ... I'm not going to bother giving her a real name ... but this Princess thinks that I am "mean". I don't know whether to laugh or roll my eyes. But she talks about me behind my back with my co-worker who claims that she denies I'm mean ... but who knows? Should I even care? Bugs me though. Sad thing is that I've heard them talk about me. Twice. And I've pointed it out to the co-worker who gave a small 'oh'. And nothing more was said.
This is the same co-worker who stood me up for lunch yesterday. That really hurt. There were three of us and I had offered to buy the third girl lunch because the two of us were going out and I thought it was not nice to leave girl 3 at the barn to eat her cold baloney sandwiches. I know I used to feel left out when the others left to eat out without even saying goodbye or 'can I bring you something?' It was arranged that Co-worker and Girl 3 would ride together because they smoke. I had picked McDonald's - mostly because it was fast and cheap. (Yes, cheap) Anyway, as I was pulling out, Co-worker decided that she didn't want to go to McDonald's. She wanted to go to Extreme Pita. So they went there ... and didn't pop by the McDonald's (apparently right next door) to let me know.
I had waited for about 10 minutes in the parking lot for them to arrive. I was a bit baffled that they weren't right behind me. I wondered if their car had broken down (Girl 3 has tranny troubles.) I finally went inside to eat, watching for them the entire time. Meanwhile, Lynne texted me a disgusting forward to my phone. (Please don't do that, I think it's a waste of money and I don't like that I can't delete the damn things!) So now I was grossed out AND depressed.
I got back to the barn ... they had beat me back. Guess it helps to not stand in the parking lot for a bit. they even parked in my spot. I walked into the barn and saw the take out - clued in - and walked quietly by, going on with whatever work. Nobody apologised or explained. When I had a chance to get Girl 3 alone, I asked what happened. She felt bad that I waited for them. She said she didn't think that I would wait. I quietly pointed out that I had offered to buy her lunch and therefore would have waited for her to order it. She apologised, and I think it was sincere. I brushed it off. There was no point in making a big deal about it. We won't be working together again.Today Co-worker was giving orders and making demands and constantly telling me that I was wrong. Even when it turned out that I was right. At one point she exploded at me because I had paused for bit to have a bit of thought.
"Why are you just standing there?!"
"I'm thinking. It does happen now and then."
"Can't you think and work at the same time?!? Don't you realise it took you 50 minutes to get those last three stalls done?"
(That was a gross exaggeration and it didn't matter how long I took because 1: she left without communicating, 2: I stayed ahead of her - there was no waiting involved and 3: I got back from dumping the load before she could even finish what SHE was doing. I mean, WTF??)
After lunch, she was all relaxed. Until the boss asked me to something different from what was planned and Co-worker tried to tell me that I had done something incorrectly again. I pointed at the boss, whom she had passed to TELL me that, and said that plans had changed. She thumped away.
Damn, I love working with people who are trying to quit smoking. And this is the girl who LOVES working in Human Resources?!?
Goddess, help her. (Or the customers ... either works.)
I have to go to bed. We'll try to write more tomorrow ...
Sweet Dreams!!
Friday, April 20, 2007
Forget Reality TV - Come to My House, and Bring Popcorn!
11:25
I had meant to go to Curves today, but I'm too bloody tired! Maybe this afternoon, or this evening. We'll see. Maybe I'll leave it until next weekend. I'll be almost done work then and will be able to go more regularly after that. I really do like going there. The people are great - staff and clients!
The house is silent today. Mostly, anyhow. Every now and then, Dona stomps somewhere, sniffing all the while. I keep wanting to ask her if she has a cold, because she's always sniffing lately. I find it easier to just not talk to her though - at least, while we are alone. No point in giving her an excuse to start one of her rants. I'll clean my house soon ... that'll probably piss her off too. Don't know that there is anything I can do that WON'T piss her off. I don't understand her. Neither does Jade. He gave up trying to understand a long time ago. He says that's just the way she is.
Great.
So, let's see. What are my plans for today? Clean up a bit, do a lot of rest, organise the top of the snack/liquor cabinet, call the government and let them know where I am and that I've changed my banking info (like they don't already KNOW!), and catch up on all of Jade's comics. That might take up my afternoon.
Oh, frag ... I forgot to go to wings last night!
I'm sorry, Lynne! I actually forgot what day it was! Visibility over here was crap too, so maybe this was a good thing ...
I'll have to go find another PC D&D game soon ... Damn the man for not letting me have access to online gaming! Grrr ...
Meanwhile, I think I'm going to start contemplating my crafts. I had recently ordered a few more and I think I should get busy on them. I'll also have to write a letter to Dragonlady and let her know what's going on and see if she's willing to let me work PT or not.
You know, my entries seemed a lot more interesting when I was lonely. LOL! Now it looks more like nothing really happens in my life except to be an unwilling participant in a war with my mother-in-law. *snort* Ah, well. One day, I'll get a site of my own and I'll post all the old stuff that I have on file. Pity that I didn't get a chance to save the files from the Telus site before they terminated it ... *sigh*
Looking forward to:
I had meant to go to Curves today, but I'm too bloody tired! Maybe this afternoon, or this evening. We'll see. Maybe I'll leave it until next weekend. I'll be almost done work then and will be able to go more regularly after that. I really do like going there. The people are great - staff and clients!
The house is silent today. Mostly, anyhow. Every now and then, Dona stomps somewhere, sniffing all the while. I keep wanting to ask her if she has a cold, because she's always sniffing lately. I find it easier to just not talk to her though - at least, while we are alone. No point in giving her an excuse to start one of her rants. I'll clean my house soon ... that'll probably piss her off too. Don't know that there is anything I can do that WON'T piss her off. I don't understand her. Neither does Jade. He gave up trying to understand a long time ago. He says that's just the way she is.
Great.
So, let's see. What are my plans for today? Clean up a bit, do a lot of rest, organise the top of the snack/liquor cabinet, call the government and let them know where I am and that I've changed my banking info (like they don't already KNOW!), and catch up on all of Jade's comics. That might take up my afternoon.
Oh, frag ... I forgot to go to wings last night!
I'm sorry, Lynne! I actually forgot what day it was! Visibility over here was crap too, so maybe this was a good thing ...
I'll have to go find another PC D&D game soon ... Damn the man for not letting me have access to online gaming! Grrr ...
Meanwhile, I think I'm going to start contemplating my crafts. I had recently ordered a few more and I think I should get busy on them. I'll also have to write a letter to Dragonlady and let her know what's going on and see if she's willing to let me work PT or not.
You know, my entries seemed a lot more interesting when I was lonely. LOL! Now it looks more like nothing really happens in my life except to be an unwilling participant in a war with my mother-in-law. *snort* Ah, well. One day, I'll get a site of my own and I'll post all the old stuff that I have on file. Pity that I didn't get a chance to save the files from the Telus site before they terminated it ... *sigh*
Looking forward to:
- Being unemployed again! Although, I'll miss the pay cheques!
- FCBD! (That's Free Comic Book Day, y'all. And, yes, they really do give away free comics! Good ones too!)
- My god-brother's wedding. It'll be a mini vacation, a reunion, and a reason for new clothes all rolled into one!
- Having time to do things!
- Getting a garden started!
- Spring!
- SUMMER!!
Sweet Dreams!
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Beam Me Up, Scotty ... This Place is Just Too Screwed Up!
19:02
It has been a strange, sad, and tiring week. Last Friday, I came home and, as usual, went straight into the shower. Coming out feeling a bit more human, I sat down at the ol' 'puter and waited for Jade to come home. He did, and we played on our 'puters for a bit. It didn't take long for me to realise that something was odd.
Dona wasn't in the kitchen making supper.
A little while later, she came up the stairs and told us that we were on our own for supper. She had decided to get drunk that day instead. Jade and I just kinda looked at each other. This was taking the Winter Blues to a whole new level. I'm starting to wonder if she has a mental issue. Bi-polar maybe. I don't know. He mood swings are certainly something to behold.
And I thought I was bad! Whoo!
As things got sunnier, her mood improved, but of course it's been cloudy the past couple of days so she's very ... grumpy. Whatever. She lost my respect and my trust a long time ago. It's difficult to care about somebody that you don't respect or trust. So I just go about my business and treat her like nothing is wrong. Probably drives her nuts.
She was certainly driving me nuts the past week. She doesn't like my flour and sugar jars, because they are, well, jars. Big old jars that used to have something else in them. Anyway, she keeps trying to hide them. I thought that when she got back from her Easter vacation that things were fine. She seemed to accept my jars being back where I wanted them.
I was wrong. I had two days off after they got back. As soon as I went back to work, she tucked them into a cupboard. She re-arranged a couple other things too. Whatever. I left the other things alone, but I pulled those jars back out. She'd tuck them back in again as soon as my back was turned. One morning I pulled them out when I woke up to make lunches. She came upstairs and said nothing. As soon as I went back to bed, she tucked them away again. I heard her do it. And I heard her talk about it too. I woke up and pulled them back out again. Before I left, I put a sticky note on one of the jars telling her to please stop hiding them. They've been safe ever since. But for how long? I don't know. She's determined to make this whole house hers, I swear. Well, it's not. And in one week, I'll be around again to remind her of it.
So now she goes around pouting and finding things to change that I won't change back. She hasn't figured out yet that I don't give a flying fig. Just wait until I hang up my pictures at last. She'll really get grumpy then, because the place will look like mine again. She'll also be pouting because I'll be cleaning my own place again and she'll be bored all over again.
Boo hoo.
Heh. I'm almost afraid to let Lynne visit.
21:15
My shoulder aches like crazy. I was in so much pain at work today that I wanted to throw up. My co-worker thinks I'm crazy because I didn't get tomorrow off and just take a three day weekend to rest up. But as I pointed out ... there's really nobody to take my place. She can't do it alone - she has to be gone at 16:30 to pick up her daughter. A precocious little thing that I'm not sure if I want to smack or not. Cute, but willful. Anyway, tomorrow is the end of an eight day stretch for me. I was covering for somebody who had to go to a funeral out of province.
There have been three new comers to try things out, and I'm sure that two of them will do great. The third? Has asthma, hates people, and in my mind, has the wrong attitude to work there. She doesn't listen to instructions well. Or is incapable of understanding them. She reminds me of the girl we tried to get banned from our Groom school class. Slightly better personality. Maybe.
Anyhow, I'm done soon. Counting tomorrow, I have eight more days in total left to work there. I'll miss a couple of the horses - their personalities are really starting to come out. Some of them react rather well to me and some of the owners have noticed. They'll miss me too.
Damn, I wish I knew what I have done to my shoulder. Hopefully it'll feel better in the morning.
Sweet Dreams!
It has been a strange, sad, and tiring week. Last Friday, I came home and, as usual, went straight into the shower. Coming out feeling a bit more human, I sat down at the ol' 'puter and waited for Jade to come home. He did, and we played on our 'puters for a bit. It didn't take long for me to realise that something was odd.
Dona wasn't in the kitchen making supper.
A little while later, she came up the stairs and told us that we were on our own for supper. She had decided to get drunk that day instead. Jade and I just kinda looked at each other. This was taking the Winter Blues to a whole new level. I'm starting to wonder if she has a mental issue. Bi-polar maybe. I don't know. He mood swings are certainly something to behold.
And I thought I was bad! Whoo!
As things got sunnier, her mood improved, but of course it's been cloudy the past couple of days so she's very ... grumpy. Whatever. She lost my respect and my trust a long time ago. It's difficult to care about somebody that you don't respect or trust. So I just go about my business and treat her like nothing is wrong. Probably drives her nuts.
She was certainly driving me nuts the past week. She doesn't like my flour and sugar jars, because they are, well, jars. Big old jars that used to have something else in them. Anyway, she keeps trying to hide them. I thought that when she got back from her Easter vacation that things were fine. She seemed to accept my jars being back where I wanted them.
I was wrong. I had two days off after they got back. As soon as I went back to work, she tucked them into a cupboard. She re-arranged a couple other things too. Whatever. I left the other things alone, but I pulled those jars back out. She'd tuck them back in again as soon as my back was turned. One morning I pulled them out when I woke up to make lunches. She came upstairs and said nothing. As soon as I went back to bed, she tucked them away again. I heard her do it. And I heard her talk about it too. I woke up and pulled them back out again. Before I left, I put a sticky note on one of the jars telling her to please stop hiding them. They've been safe ever since. But for how long? I don't know. She's determined to make this whole house hers, I swear. Well, it's not. And in one week, I'll be around again to remind her of it.
So now she goes around pouting and finding things to change that I won't change back. She hasn't figured out yet that I don't give a flying fig. Just wait until I hang up my pictures at last. She'll really get grumpy then, because the place will look like mine again. She'll also be pouting because I'll be cleaning my own place again and she'll be bored all over again.
Boo hoo.
Heh. I'm almost afraid to let Lynne visit.
21:15
My shoulder aches like crazy. I was in so much pain at work today that I wanted to throw up. My co-worker thinks I'm crazy because I didn't get tomorrow off and just take a three day weekend to rest up. But as I pointed out ... there's really nobody to take my place. She can't do it alone - she has to be gone at 16:30 to pick up her daughter. A precocious little thing that I'm not sure if I want to smack or not. Cute, but willful. Anyway, tomorrow is the end of an eight day stretch for me. I was covering for somebody who had to go to a funeral out of province.
There have been three new comers to try things out, and I'm sure that two of them will do great. The third? Has asthma, hates people, and in my mind, has the wrong attitude to work there. She doesn't listen to instructions well. Or is incapable of understanding them. She reminds me of the girl we tried to get banned from our Groom school class. Slightly better personality. Maybe.
Anyhow, I'm done soon. Counting tomorrow, I have eight more days in total left to work there. I'll miss a couple of the horses - their personalities are really starting to come out. Some of them react rather well to me and some of the owners have noticed. They'll miss me too.
Damn, I wish I knew what I have done to my shoulder. Hopefully it'll feel better in the morning.
Sweet Dreams!
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
The Aliens Strike Again!
13:26
Today's Quote of the Day:
Honesty is a bitch. If you can't appreciate it, delusion can be found anywhere else you care to go.
- Lea
I am in SUCH a good mood right now. First off, I have made some very good achievements with my efforts to slim down. The numbers might have been a tad better if I'd been wearing a T-shirt instead of my kangaroo jacket, but I don't care. It'll look that much better next time.
I've lost a whole inch in my bust (don't tell Jade, he'll cry), a 1/4 inch in the waist, 1/2 inch in the hips!!, 1/4 inch in the thigh, AND I've lost about three pounds. The lady helping me said that the real thing to be proud of though was that I had lost over 2% of my body fat%. It doesn't sound like a lot to me, but she assured me that it was fantastic.
I celebrated with a doughnut. (Don't worry, I had a sandwich and a chocolate milk with it!) I wanted McDonald's, but I decided to save that for a work day lunch when my metabolism would be up from working and I'd still be moving around after to work some of it off. I'm sure I've said this before, but I don't think that McDonald's is fattening. I think some people's routines are fattening. When I worked at McDonald's, I ate at least one meal a day - usually a 1/4 pounder. Greasiest thing you can order, in my mind, with fries and a Coke. I weighed under 125 and had what my own mother called a Barbie doll figure. She kept waiting for me to break in half, she said.
Get of your asses, people! Get a workout video or something to keep you moving for at least half an hour, three times a week. Have at least a glass of water after. then you can vegetate in from of your computers or TV for as long as you like. I'm actually enjoying Curves. People are willing to talk to me there and aren't alarmed if I try to start a conversation! And since there are no men to show off for, we all wear the same jogging pants and baggy T-shirts or sweat shirts!
Okay, enough plugging and soap boxing. Well, maybe not the soap boxing. But enough for this subject. Let's move on to another health issue ...
Mental health! More specifically - self image! A conversation within Lynne's page left me a bit staggered, but not surprised, at the realisation that people now-a-days really don't have time to know themselves. This case in general revolved around the friend's inability to succeed in relationships with a fantastic woman. First of all, I think he's incredibly lucky to have found such a great girl for himself more than once in his lifetime. the fact that it has happened more than once suggests that there is something about him attracting these women and he should use that to feel good about himself. According to Lynne, her friend was sabotaging his own relationships because he couldn't believe that such a great person could really be interested in him. So he'd do something to ruin the relationship and make her leave on a bad note, therefore re-enforcing the picture that he's not worthy. And he never noticed why he was doing it. He had to be told it was because of his bad self esteem.
Doesn't anybody sit down and look inside themselves for answers anymore? How are you supposed to find the person/job/place in life that makes you happy and completes you if you don't know who the heck you are? I used to meditate often when I found myself doing stupid things. (Normal teenager things, but stupid, none-the-less) I asked myself questions and viewed it from all angles until I found an answer. Sometimes the answer came quickly, like it was being given to me (spirit guides are fabulous people!!) and sometimes it took a few sessions of looking inward. Now this wasn't all a self help success story, but it did lay the bricks on a muddy path that led me to where I could start believing in myself. I had a very patient partner who was willing to tell me over and over the things I needed to hear and couldn't believe. HE believed. That's what I needed the most. I started to try to see it for myself and I'm finally to the point where I can.
Good bye, invisibility cloak, and hello, wolf whistles and admiring glances. Jade's not as happy about those as I am, but he's okay as long as I don't try to go home with any of them. HA! Not likely! He's the best lover I've ever had! I'm not leaving him for somebody else to find!!
Quote: "I have found men who didn't know how to kiss ... but I've always found time to teach them." - Mae West.
Well, I've taught my share. I've hung up my teacher's hat. (Unless I find a really nice looking position that I want to try ...)
Speaking of self image, Lynne has asked me to come with her to pick out her new boobs. yes, that's not a typo. New Boobs. It will definitely be the most original shopping trip that I've ever participated in. Bar none!
Dona is still downstairs with her pity party. I went downstairs earlier today to find out exactly what she had planned for me to drive her to, so that I could how my own plans would be affected, but she told me not to bother,that I really didn't want her around so she'd get her husband to take her later tonight. She didn't need me. (All said with a thin, wavering voice. all that was missing was a sniff or two.)
Whatever. As Lynne said, 'Get off the cross! Somebody needs the wood!'
I'm tired of her attitude in regards to living here. So you don't have access to a city anymore. Boo-bloody-hoo. You knew what you were getting into when you moved here with us. Yes, I'm willing to help out and drive you places, but I'm not your beck-and-call girl. You can't volunteer me whenever you need to go somewhere or invite yourself along every time I plan on doing something. ASK ME! And accept the fact that sometimes I want to go places on my own. You don't like being downstairs alone? Feel trapped without transport? DEAL WITH IT. Find a solution for yourself, because you certainly have gone out of your way to poo-poo every suggestion that I've come up with to help you. Well, I'm not helping any more. You're happiest being a pitiful creature in your dungeon, so, by all means, stay there. I'm tired of it.
It's been over six months already, woman. Get with the program and grow up!
Okay, I have some writing to do. Look out, Crystal Tokyo, here I come!!
Sweet Dreams!
Today's Quote of the Day:
Honesty is a bitch. If you can't appreciate it, delusion can be found anywhere else you care to go.
- Lea
I am in SUCH a good mood right now. First off, I have made some very good achievements with my efforts to slim down. The numbers might have been a tad better if I'd been wearing a T-shirt instead of my kangaroo jacket, but I don't care. It'll look that much better next time.
I've lost a whole inch in my bust (don't tell Jade, he'll cry), a 1/4 inch in the waist, 1/2 inch in the hips!!, 1/4 inch in the thigh, AND I've lost about three pounds. The lady helping me said that the real thing to be proud of though was that I had lost over 2% of my body fat%. It doesn't sound like a lot to me, but she assured me that it was fantastic.
I celebrated with a doughnut. (Don't worry, I had a sandwich and a chocolate milk with it!) I wanted McDonald's, but I decided to save that for a work day lunch when my metabolism would be up from working and I'd still be moving around after to work some of it off. I'm sure I've said this before, but I don't think that McDonald's is fattening. I think some people's routines are fattening. When I worked at McDonald's, I ate at least one meal a day - usually a 1/4 pounder. Greasiest thing you can order, in my mind, with fries and a Coke. I weighed under 125 and had what my own mother called a Barbie doll figure. She kept waiting for me to break in half, she said.
Get of your asses, people! Get a workout video or something to keep you moving for at least half an hour, three times a week. Have at least a glass of water after. then you can vegetate in from of your computers or TV for as long as you like. I'm actually enjoying Curves. People are willing to talk to me there and aren't alarmed if I try to start a conversation! And since there are no men to show off for, we all wear the same jogging pants and baggy T-shirts or sweat shirts!
Okay, enough plugging and soap boxing. Well, maybe not the soap boxing. But enough for this subject. Let's move on to another health issue ...
Mental health! More specifically - self image! A conversation within Lynne's page left me a bit staggered, but not surprised, at the realisation that people now-a-days really don't have time to know themselves. This case in general revolved around the friend's inability to succeed in relationships with a fantastic woman. First of all, I think he's incredibly lucky to have found such a great girl for himself more than once in his lifetime. the fact that it has happened more than once suggests that there is something about him attracting these women and he should use that to feel good about himself. According to Lynne, her friend was sabotaging his own relationships because he couldn't believe that such a great person could really be interested in him. So he'd do something to ruin the relationship and make her leave on a bad note, therefore re-enforcing the picture that he's not worthy. And he never noticed why he was doing it. He had to be told it was because of his bad self esteem.
Doesn't anybody sit down and look inside themselves for answers anymore? How are you supposed to find the person/job/place in life that makes you happy and completes you if you don't know who the heck you are? I used to meditate often when I found myself doing stupid things. (Normal teenager things, but stupid, none-the-less) I asked myself questions and viewed it from all angles until I found an answer. Sometimes the answer came quickly, like it was being given to me (spirit guides are fabulous people!!) and sometimes it took a few sessions of looking inward. Now this wasn't all a self help success story, but it did lay the bricks on a muddy path that led me to where I could start believing in myself. I had a very patient partner who was willing to tell me over and over the things I needed to hear and couldn't believe. HE believed. That's what I needed the most. I started to try to see it for myself and I'm finally to the point where I can.
Good bye, invisibility cloak, and hello, wolf whistles and admiring glances. Jade's not as happy about those as I am, but he's okay as long as I don't try to go home with any of them. HA! Not likely! He's the best lover I've ever had! I'm not leaving him for somebody else to find!!
Quote: "I have found men who didn't know how to kiss ... but I've always found time to teach them." - Mae West.
Well, I've taught my share. I've hung up my teacher's hat. (Unless I find a really nice looking position that I want to try ...)
Speaking of self image, Lynne has asked me to come with her to pick out her new boobs. yes, that's not a typo. New Boobs. It will definitely be the most original shopping trip that I've ever participated in. Bar none!
Dona is still downstairs with her pity party. I went downstairs earlier today to find out exactly what she had planned for me to drive her to, so that I could how my own plans would be affected, but she told me not to bother,that I really didn't want her around so she'd get her husband to take her later tonight. She didn't need me. (All said with a thin, wavering voice. all that was missing was a sniff or two.)
Whatever. As Lynne said, 'Get off the cross! Somebody needs the wood!'
I'm tired of her attitude in regards to living here. So you don't have access to a city anymore. Boo-bloody-hoo. You knew what you were getting into when you moved here with us. Yes, I'm willing to help out and drive you places, but I'm not your beck-and-call girl. You can't volunteer me whenever you need to go somewhere or invite yourself along every time I plan on doing something. ASK ME! And accept the fact that sometimes I want to go places on my own. You don't like being downstairs alone? Feel trapped without transport? DEAL WITH IT. Find a solution for yourself, because you certainly have gone out of your way to poo-poo every suggestion that I've come up with to help you. Well, I'm not helping any more. You're happiest being a pitiful creature in your dungeon, so, by all means, stay there. I'm tired of it.
It's been over six months already, woman. Get with the program and grow up!
Okay, I have some writing to do. Look out, Crystal Tokyo, here I come!!
Sweet Dreams!
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Bobbing Along ... in a Field of Snow
16:56
What is the best way to eat a chocolate bunny? There always seems to be a debate as to which end to start with ... the ears or the butt/feet (depending on how your bunny is shaped). I've only heard one original answer and I kind of like it. First you eat out his Heart. What you eat after that won't matter a whit to him.
Well, everybody is home now. And apparently, Dona started to complain all the way home as soon as they crossed the border. (Or there abouts. Bluesky at least!) She was complaining about the snow we still have and how much cooler it is here. She woke up this morning and loudly announced how ugly and depressing everything was. This woman is the epitome of negativity. No wonder my Star is tarnishing ...
I woke up this morning, saw the new snow on the ground and what was (still is) falling and yes, I admit to disappointment, but I also admit that I thought everything looked beautiful. It didn't bother me a bit, really, as I found myself with a day off today and tomorrow. I wasn't working in it. I was happy. Meanwhile, Dona spent the whole day moping downstairs. Stupid woman.
Anyway, I went ahead and painted the bathroom. Moon Mist. Very nice colour. I wasn't sure if I should be dismayed or not when my mother announced that she loved the color and claimed to have the same colour at her house. (My mother has questionable taste, in my eyes, when it comes to colours.) But I put that feeling behind me. It was the first time I had painted a room and I was very proud of myself. I can see all the mistakes and errors, but I'm told that everybody who creates their own work like that can see them. The point is that nobody else notices them. Well, nobody did. And I'm not stupid enough to point them out. So there you go.
In addition to painting the hall bathroom, I organised the linen and broom closets, and re-arranged the kitchen cupboards. The flour/sugar jars are back where they belong and the green bottle thingy is strategically placed. Dona didn't like the jar switch. She tried to hide it, but you could hear it in her voice. She didn't like it, but she couldn't do anything about it. It'll stay as it is. All in all it was a very busy, yet satisfying weekend. Despite the lack of proper sleep due to a large bed and a noisy house. ;)
I've finally set up an appointment for Jade to get his massage. A Wiccan massagist ... how cool is that? She's Shorty's mother too, so I've known her for years. The appointment just happens to land on his birthday too ... So it all works out, doesn't it? At least, I hope it will.
Quitting my job is sure going to suck in the payday department. I hope I can find something else soon. It won't be hard to find something if I'm looking for just anything ... there isn't a business around that isn't screaming for help. Still, I'd prefer to work with the horses. We'll see.
Tomorrow should prove to be busy too ... I hope to get a few things accomplished. Like getting my monthly measurements at Curves done, seeing somebody about my new business grant and buying that outfit for my god-brother's wedding before it goes "away". I'll have to run in a payment on my wedding dress this payday too. I have until August, but why wait last minute? Only $600 left to go anyhow. Maybe Lynne will come with me to see it and we'll have lunch. I've been trying to research for a dress that will compliment mine but not make us stand out too much. I have a few ideas, but we'll see.
I keep thinking I'm forgetting to write something, but I can't think of what it is. Feel free to leave a comment if you have any questions ... or maybe even some comments. Comments are nice too.
Sweet Dreams!
What is the best way to eat a chocolate bunny? There always seems to be a debate as to which end to start with ... the ears or the butt/feet (depending on how your bunny is shaped). I've only heard one original answer and I kind of like it. First you eat out his Heart. What you eat after that won't matter a whit to him.
Well, everybody is home now. And apparently, Dona started to complain all the way home as soon as they crossed the border. (Or there abouts. Bluesky at least!) She was complaining about the snow we still have and how much cooler it is here. She woke up this morning and loudly announced how ugly and depressing everything was. This woman is the epitome of negativity. No wonder my Star is tarnishing ...
I woke up this morning, saw the new snow on the ground and what was (still is) falling and yes, I admit to disappointment, but I also admit that I thought everything looked beautiful. It didn't bother me a bit, really, as I found myself with a day off today and tomorrow. I wasn't working in it. I was happy. Meanwhile, Dona spent the whole day moping downstairs. Stupid woman.
Anyway, I went ahead and painted the bathroom. Moon Mist. Very nice colour. I wasn't sure if I should be dismayed or not when my mother announced that she loved the color and claimed to have the same colour at her house. (My mother has questionable taste, in my eyes, when it comes to colours.) But I put that feeling behind me. It was the first time I had painted a room and I was very proud of myself. I can see all the mistakes and errors, but I'm told that everybody who creates their own work like that can see them. The point is that nobody else notices them. Well, nobody did. And I'm not stupid enough to point them out. So there you go.
In addition to painting the hall bathroom, I organised the linen and broom closets, and re-arranged the kitchen cupboards. The flour/sugar jars are back where they belong and the green bottle thingy is strategically placed. Dona didn't like the jar switch. She tried to hide it, but you could hear it in her voice. She didn't like it, but she couldn't do anything about it. It'll stay as it is. All in all it was a very busy, yet satisfying weekend. Despite the lack of proper sleep due to a large bed and a noisy house. ;)
I've finally set up an appointment for Jade to get his massage. A Wiccan massagist ... how cool is that? She's Shorty's mother too, so I've known her for years. The appointment just happens to land on his birthday too ... So it all works out, doesn't it? At least, I hope it will.
Quitting my job is sure going to suck in the payday department. I hope I can find something else soon. It won't be hard to find something if I'm looking for just anything ... there isn't a business around that isn't screaming for help. Still, I'd prefer to work with the horses. We'll see.
Tomorrow should prove to be busy too ... I hope to get a few things accomplished. Like getting my monthly measurements at Curves done, seeing somebody about my new business grant and buying that outfit for my god-brother's wedding before it goes "away". I'll have to run in a payment on my wedding dress this payday too. I have until August, but why wait last minute? Only $600 left to go anyhow. Maybe Lynne will come with me to see it and we'll have lunch. I've been trying to research for a dress that will compliment mine but not make us stand out too much. I have a few ideas, but we'll see.
I keep thinking I'm forgetting to write something, but I can't think of what it is. Feel free to leave a comment if you have any questions ... or maybe even some comments. Comments are nice too.
Sweet Dreams!
Friday, April 06, 2007
Drained, Pained And Outa Rhyme
07:38
So, I was sitting here ... staring at my screen. Wanting to write but not having the energy to do so. Things have happened that I've wanted to write about but I've never found the time or energy to do so. Now I have it and I'm staring at the Dashboard ... waiting to shift into Drive.
Not that Neutral is a bad thing ... if you don't plan on actually going anywhere.
08:04
Okay, I found the "perk up" I needed to at least get some energy flowing. I moved a few things in the kitchen. Namely, that forsaken stupid green glass bottle that Dona uses to hold macaroni noodles. She took my beloved sugar and flour jars and put them in a place where they can't be seen (beside the fridge and behind a Tupperware container!) and replaced it with that ugly green bottle. I hate that bottle. Yes, I said 'hate'. The first morning I had to make Jade's lunch in front of it, I almost pushed it off the counter. If you wish to destroy a thing, then you must hate a thing. I very much want to destroy it. Maybe that's what Dona was counting on because she knows I don't like it and she agrees that it's ugly.
Bitch.
I'd quit my job just to remind her that I live here and this is my house upstairs.
Actually, I'm thinking of quitting my job anyway. It's a pretty good place, but I'm bored outa my tree. I became a Certified Groom to work with the horses, not to be a stall mucker. The amount of work they want two people to do in a day is just right - as long as there are no interruptions, delays or anything else that could impede our progress. They really need three people working every day - not just one day a week. Especially when the barn is full! (26 horses) There are three of us right now, sharing the work week, but one person is leaving on the 11th. I do feel sorry for this farm though because they keep hiring people that never show up.
How can people do that? How can they live with themselves? If you don't want the job, then SAY SO! One of the girls kept calling and calling, letting us know that she wanted the job. She'd had her try-out day, and she still liked the job. So they called her in and told her she could start. She never showed. Another girl, somebody who had worked at the track last summer, came for an interview, waved to my supervisor as she left and said, 'See you Saturday!' Never showed up.
That's two out of five people that have been hired since I got there ... another two were guys who each had a sudden "family emergency" and just never came back. Well, the excuse stinks, but at least they made the effort of communication.
Anyway, I'm not enjoying the job like I thought I would. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure things would improve with better weather, and I'm glad for the chance to brush up on driving tractors and what-not, and the horses - for the most part - are great. But I'm terribly bored. I'm not learning anything and I'm working long hours without any overtime. Yes, the five days a week is wonderful, and yes, I'll get time and a half this Sunday for working a stat, and yes, they allow two weeks a year for holidays ... but I'm not just a mucker.
Jade has been encouraging me to write to Dragonlady and let her know that I would be available part time. I'm not so sure that she will go for it. She doesn't like it when help is not available for races. Still, I miss the horses (Pepper!!!!) and I'd like to offer her the opportunity to tell me off herself instead of my giving up from the get-go. Hopefully, we'll get things done here quickly and I can get the job going here. I would LOVE to work from home. I just have to get my ass into gear and find out how the dickens I'm going to pay for it all. I know there is a grant for new businesses available, I just don't know how to get it.
I feel like I've typed pages, but I look up and it's only paragraphs ...
Lynne's surgery went very well, although the recovery is in question. She keeps trying to rush to work. Granted, she needs the money to support herself as EI won't give her any money until AFTER she's back at work. That's just wrong. I was bugging her about her need to exaggerate with "nobody" and "everybody" and other widespread terms, just to turn around and say, 'Oh, I didn't mean you!' Well, she got me back. Saucy wench. Here's what she wrote (with minor editing)
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This rule is absolute and expires when I die.
SO MOTE IT BE.
I love you, Lea, but half the time I don't know whether to hug you or slap you around. (Both could be fun..hehe)
Wench! I can't be the only one who takes offense at the lumping. She's just making fun of me because I'm the only one who posted a protest.
Heh. I wasn't even sure that she would allow it ...
My brother has finally started divorce proceedings. I wonder what kicked his butt into gear. Maybe he was just tired of it all.
My new T-shirt says: "I have PMS and ESP ... That means I'm a bitch who knows everything!" I love this shirt!! It's just unfortunate that it's pink!
I found a lovely top and skirt to wear to my god-brother's wedding next month! I just hope that it's still there when I have time to go back and get it! Beautiful neutral tone - somewhere between ivory and taupe, but I could be remembering it wrong. And it will look good with jeans or with a tank top/T-shirt, so it can be considered somewhat casual. (Of course, anything that I can't wear to the barn is considered "good" but to the rest of the world, it'll be somewhat casual.)
So I have until Sunday to do to the house anything I want. I have plans to move things around in the kitchen, but my mother gave me the idea of surprising them by painting a room. The bedroom would be grand, but it's huge. I'll never get it done by myself. Not in a day. The hall bathroom now ... that might be possible. I wonder if I'll actually do it. It's tempting ...
Sweet Dreams!
So, I was sitting here ... staring at my screen. Wanting to write but not having the energy to do so. Things have happened that I've wanted to write about but I've never found the time or energy to do so. Now I have it and I'm staring at the Dashboard ... waiting to shift into Drive.
Not that Neutral is a bad thing ... if you don't plan on actually going anywhere.
08:04
Okay, I found the "perk up" I needed to at least get some energy flowing. I moved a few things in the kitchen. Namely, that forsaken stupid green glass bottle that Dona uses to hold macaroni noodles. She took my beloved sugar and flour jars and put them in a place where they can't be seen (beside the fridge and behind a Tupperware container!) and replaced it with that ugly green bottle. I hate that bottle. Yes, I said 'hate'. The first morning I had to make Jade's lunch in front of it, I almost pushed it off the counter. If you wish to destroy a thing, then you must hate a thing. I very much want to destroy it. Maybe that's what Dona was counting on because she knows I don't like it and she agrees that it's ugly.
Bitch.
I'd quit my job just to remind her that I live here and this is my house upstairs.
Actually, I'm thinking of quitting my job anyway. It's a pretty good place, but I'm bored outa my tree. I became a Certified Groom to work with the horses, not to be a stall mucker. The amount of work they want two people to do in a day is just right - as long as there are no interruptions, delays or anything else that could impede our progress. They really need three people working every day - not just one day a week. Especially when the barn is full! (26 horses) There are three of us right now, sharing the work week, but one person is leaving on the 11th. I do feel sorry for this farm though because they keep hiring people that never show up.
How can people do that? How can they live with themselves? If you don't want the job, then SAY SO! One of the girls kept calling and calling, letting us know that she wanted the job. She'd had her try-out day, and she still liked the job. So they called her in and told her she could start. She never showed. Another girl, somebody who had worked at the track last summer, came for an interview, waved to my supervisor as she left and said, 'See you Saturday!' Never showed up.
That's two out of five people that have been hired since I got there ... another two were guys who each had a sudden "family emergency" and just never came back. Well, the excuse stinks, but at least they made the effort of communication.
Anyway, I'm not enjoying the job like I thought I would. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure things would improve with better weather, and I'm glad for the chance to brush up on driving tractors and what-not, and the horses - for the most part - are great. But I'm terribly bored. I'm not learning anything and I'm working long hours without any overtime. Yes, the five days a week is wonderful, and yes, I'll get time and a half this Sunday for working a stat, and yes, they allow two weeks a year for holidays ... but I'm not just a mucker.
Jade has been encouraging me to write to Dragonlady and let her know that I would be available part time. I'm not so sure that she will go for it. She doesn't like it when help is not available for races. Still, I miss the horses (Pepper!!!!) and I'd like to offer her the opportunity to tell me off herself instead of my giving up from the get-go. Hopefully, we'll get things done here quickly and I can get the job going here. I would LOVE to work from home. I just have to get my ass into gear and find out how the dickens I'm going to pay for it all. I know there is a grant for new businesses available, I just don't know how to get it.
I feel like I've typed pages, but I look up and it's only paragraphs ...
Lynne's surgery went very well, although the recovery is in question. She keeps trying to rush to work. Granted, she needs the money to support herself as EI won't give her any money until AFTER she's back at work. That's just wrong. I was bugging her about her need to exaggerate with "nobody" and "everybody" and other widespread terms, just to turn around and say, 'Oh, I didn't mean you!' Well, she got me back. Saucy wench. Here's what she wrote (with minor editing)
((DISCLAIMER))
Any and all reference to people in my life using any pronouns of any type
eg: Intensive or reflexive pronouns eg: themselves, herself
Indefinite pronouns eg: everything, everyone
Relative or Interrogative pronouns eg: whom, whomever
Objective pronouns eg: you, it
Subjective pronouns eg: you, she, they
should in no way be assumed to include or any way imply the inclusion of LEA.
For example: If I say "no one in my life understands me" it should not be assumed that LEA is lumped in with all the other people in my life.
Any reference to LEA in my blog will be direct and will use PROPER NOUNS although the assumption can be made that if a subjective pronoun is used in the same sentence as LEA'S name, that I am, indeed, speaking of her.
Otherwise exclusion of her person is implied.
I do, however, reserve the right to freely use colorful metaphors, simile's and hyperbole and maintain, at all times, creative license.
This rule is absolute and expires when I die.
SO MOTE IT BE.
I love you, Lea, but half the time I don't know whether to hug you or slap you around. (Both could be fun..hehe)
Wench! I can't be the only one who takes offense at the lumping. She's just making fun of me because I'm the only one who posted a protest.
Heh. I wasn't even sure that she would allow it ...
My brother has finally started divorce proceedings. I wonder what kicked his butt into gear. Maybe he was just tired of it all.
My new T-shirt says: "I have PMS and ESP ... That means I'm a bitch who knows everything!" I love this shirt!! It's just unfortunate that it's pink!
I found a lovely top and skirt to wear to my god-brother's wedding next month! I just hope that it's still there when I have time to go back and get it! Beautiful neutral tone - somewhere between ivory and taupe, but I could be remembering it wrong. And it will look good with jeans or with a tank top/T-shirt, so it can be considered somewhat casual. (Of course, anything that I can't wear to the barn is considered "good" but to the rest of the world, it'll be somewhat casual.)
So I have until Sunday to do to the house anything I want. I have plans to move things around in the kitchen, but my mother gave me the idea of surprising them by painting a room. The bedroom would be grand, but it's huge. I'll never get it done by myself. Not in a day. The hall bathroom now ... that might be possible. I wonder if I'll actually do it. It's tempting ...
Sweet Dreams!
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