The Aliens Strike Again!

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Today's Quote of the Day:
Honesty is a bitch. If you can't appreciate it, delusion can be found anywhere else you care to go.
- Lea

I am in SUCH a good mood right now. First off, I have made some very good achievements with my efforts to slim down. The numbers might have been a tad better if I'd been wearing a T-shirt instead of my kangaroo jacket, but I don't care. It'll look that much better next time.

I've lost a whole inch in my bust (don't tell Jade, he'll cry), a 1/4 inch in the waist, 1/2 inch in the hips!!, 1/4 inch in the thigh, AND I've lost about three pounds. The lady helping me said that the real thing to be proud of though was that I had lost over 2% of my body fat%. It doesn't sound like a lot to me, but she assured me that it was fantastic.

I celebrated with a doughnut. (Don't worry, I had a sandwich and a chocolate milk with it!) I wanted McDonald's, but I decided to save that for a work day lunch when my metabolism would be up from working and I'd still be moving around after to work some of it off. I'm sure I've said this before, but I don't think that McDonald's is fattening. I think some people's routines are fattening. When I worked at McDonald's, I ate at least one meal a day - usually a 1/4 pounder. Greasiest thing you can order, in my mind, with fries and a Coke. I weighed under 125 and had what my own mother called a Barbie doll figure. She kept waiting for me to break in half, she said.

Get of your asses, people! Get a workout video or something to keep you moving for at least half an hour, three times a week. Have at least a glass of water after. then you can vegetate in from of your computers or TV for as long as you like. I'm actually enjoying Curves. People are willing to talk to me there and aren't alarmed if I try to start a conversation! And since there are no men to show off for, we all wear the same jogging pants and baggy T-shirts or sweat shirts!

Okay, enough plugging and soap boxing. Well, maybe not the soap boxing. But enough for this subject. Let's move on to another health issue ...

Mental health! More specifically - self image! A conversation within Lynne's page left me a bit staggered, but not surprised, at the realisation that people now-a-days really don't have time to know themselves. This case in general revolved around the friend's inability to succeed in relationships with a fantastic woman. First of all, I think he's incredibly lucky to have found such a great girl for himself more than once in his lifetime. the fact that it has happened more than once suggests that there is something about him attracting these women and he should use that to feel good about himself. According to Lynne, her friend was sabotaging his own relationships because he couldn't believe that such a great person could really be interested in him. So he'd do something to ruin the relationship and make her leave on a bad note, therefore re-enforcing the picture that he's not worthy. And he never noticed why he was doing it. He had to be told it was because of his bad self esteem.

Doesn't anybody sit down and look inside themselves for answers anymore? How are you supposed to find the person/job/place in life that makes you happy and completes you if you don't know who the heck you are? I used to meditate often when I found myself doing stupid things. (Normal teenager things, but stupid, none-the-less) I asked myself questions and viewed it from all angles until I found an answer. Sometimes the answer came quickly, like it was being given to me (spirit guides are fabulous people!!) and sometimes it took a few sessions of looking inward. Now this wasn't all a self help success story, but it did lay the bricks on a muddy path that led me to where I could start believing in myself. I had a very patient partner who was willing to tell me over and over the things I needed to hear and couldn't believe. HE believed. That's what I needed the most. I started to try to see it for myself and I'm finally to the point where I can.

Good bye, invisibility cloak, and hello, wolf whistles and admiring glances. Jade's not as happy about those as I am, but he's okay as long as I don't try to go home with any of them. HA! Not likely! He's the best lover I've ever had! I'm not leaving him for somebody else to find!!

Quote: "I have found men who didn't know how to kiss ... but I've always found time to teach them." - Mae West.

Well, I've taught my share. I've hung up my teacher's hat. (Unless I find a really nice looking position that I want to try ...)

Speaking of self image, Lynne has asked me to come with her to pick out her new boobs. yes, that's not a typo. New Boobs. It will definitely be the most original shopping trip that I've ever participated in. Bar none!

Dona is still downstairs with her pity party. I went downstairs earlier today to find out exactly what she had planned for me to drive her to, so that I could how my own plans would be affected, but she told me not to bother,that I really didn't want her around so she'd get her husband to take her later tonight. She didn't need me. (All said with a thin, wavering voice. all that was missing was a sniff or two.)

Whatever. As Lynne said, 'Get off the cross! Somebody needs the wood!'

I'm tired of her attitude in regards to living here. So you don't have access to a city anymore. Boo-bloody-hoo. You knew what you were getting into when you moved here with us. Yes, I'm willing to help out and drive you places, but I'm not your beck-and-call girl. You can't volunteer me whenever you need to go somewhere or invite yourself along every time I plan on doing something. ASK ME! And accept the fact that sometimes I want to go places on my own. You don't like being downstairs alone? Feel trapped without transport? DEAL WITH IT. Find a solution for yourself, because you certainly have gone out of your way to poo-poo every suggestion that I've come up with to help you. Well, I'm not helping any more. You're happiest being a pitiful creature in your dungeon, so, by all means, stay there. I'm tired of it.

It's been over six months already, woman. Get with the program and grow up!

Okay, I have some writing to do. Look out, Crystal Tokyo, here I come!!

Sweet Dreams!