Riding the Whirlwind But Always Looking Forward

13:00

I was all set to write when something that Dona said brought a picture to my mind that made me shudder and I suddenly don't feel like writing. Ugh.

Quote of the Day: Temptation usually comes in through a door that has delibrately been left open." - Arnold Glasow

It's gonna be busy weekend for me. Luckily, Jade's new job is only 4 10's so he'll have Friday off and we can do things. Get our errands all done. Then I have to make supper for Lynne. She wants mashed potatoes. Says she's craving it. She doesn't care what we have with it as long as there are mashed potatoes. Okay, then ... So I was thinking BBQ'd Chicken with coleslaw and mashed potatoes. Maybe some devilled eggs too. Love the devilled eggs. Which I also find amusing.

No, don't ask. Lady knows that I haven't. Some things should just be accepted without question.

Saturday is FCBD! I'll be helping out at Happy Harbor's Downtown location, for at least the morning. Last year they had more than enough people, but I still managed to help out a few people here and there. Not as much fun as my first year though. THAT was cool. Only thing that marred it was that one of Star's friends kept flirting with Jade behind my back ... and not-so behind my back. (She just thought that I wasn't looking.) And a certain shepherd couldn't understand why Jade wasn't interested.

Fool. He's with me. He doesn't NEED anybody else.

I'm not mad at my friend, despite his strange ideas. Some guys will never understand until they find it ... find it and realise that they have it. Most don't ...

Lynne and I had a similar conversation once in regards to another mutual friend. I'm not sure if I convinced her of my views, but she stopped nagging me about it. From that angle at least. Didn't stop the theoretical ones. "What if ..."

Is it such a difficult concept for people to go into a relationship and expecting forever? Has society really become to jaded? Maybe it's because people have stopped expecting it that they've stopped being able to achieve it. They've stopped reading and wanting the fairytale. Everything is so disposable in the world now-a-days ... your life-mate shouldn't be one of them.

I'm getting very tired of the lack of knocking around here, but I've been holding back from saying anything until an opportunity comes up with Jade home. I'm tired of feeling alone in the fight against Perpetual Parenthood. He claims that he doesn't understand his mother any more than the rest of the world, but he's not going to do anything about it either. No point in fighting a losing battle. Great. So we're going to just let her walk all over us because she's crazy?

F**k that.

She's not my mother and I'm not used to having to explain my every move to anybody. Even my mother never demanded so much detail in regards to my private life. Everything is whywhywhy with her. And it pisses her off when I don't answer automatically, but say something evasive instead. I know damn well that she fishing me for info, because Jade doesn't tell her squat.

She's still being polite to me right now and asking permission for things now and again, so I have to wonder if she's become somewhat reasonable in her thinking, or if somebody has been talking to her. (Wayne?? Possible, but I wouldn't bet on it.)

Anyway, after FCBD, I have to pick a few things up from the Farmer's Market and somewhere in there, I plan on getting a haircut. I SO need a trim!! I also need to find some clothes to wear to the wedding that we are going to next weekend. I hold no hope that the outfit that I wanted is still available, but I'm sure that something similar will be available. I really don't have anything else to wear. Really.

I've lost more weight, more body fat and more inches. I'm going to ignore the bust measurement .. it really depends on what bra I wear, I think. So, in total, I've lost 2.5 inches on my waist, 2 inches from my abdomen, .5 inch on the hips (I gained a bit there), .5 inch on the thigh, and a total of 7 pounds and 2.10 % of my body fat. Sounds pretty good ... I just wish I could see it!

Lynne, I think you should come with me to Curves and check it out. Now that we're both unemployed bums, we'll have the time, right? They aren't like Spa Lady - they aren't pushy about joining. And maybe you'll like it. It's great for getting you out of the house for a short period of time.

I have to try and fit that in tomorrow too ... Hmmm ...

I finally started to write more of my SM story. It's the beginning of the end ... and of the beginning. Something that can only be understood by those who are a fan of Sailor Moon. I admit, in case you are curious, that's it's very rough. But once I get it finished, I plan on polishing it up. I'll also finally be able to focus on something else. For example, I still want to write D&D adventures. I think I even have a title picked out that will allow me to avoid the big background info for my Nessa. I was worried that I'd have to explain EVERYTHING in regards to her past adventures, and it's helped me to stall. Of course, that character is so old now that I remember little of what happened and the Chronicler has already tossed the notes. (GAH!!) So, i can start fresh and only worry a bit about background info. I'm also interested in doing a bit writing about my Amber. Greywhistle told me that I had actually created her quite well and that he only understood how well after I left the group. Pity. Still proves that I have a good understanding of the character though and it can be used in writing. We'll see. I doubt she'll ever be used again for adventuring in any other form.

Maybe Lynne would like to play with me ... she mentioned that she's played before. Hmm ... Will have to give this some thought.

(Get your mind out of the gutter.)

Sunday ... Sunday is still fairly open and I think will be spent here at home or finishing up on any errands that weren't completed previously.

Next weekend ... next weekend, we're going to Calgary. Gonna stay at a nice place (if the reservations ever get made) and have some god times. (Yeah, good times in Calgary is hard for me to imagine too, but I tend to focus more on who I am with and less about where I am. It helps. ;)

Found a new way to decorate my walls ... with writing. Looks interesting. No, not graffiti, with a product called Write on the Wall. It looks worth checking out.

There, I updated something ... I feel better. Hope Lynne does too! ;)

Sweet Dreams!