December 25, 2008 - 15:13
So ... Merry Christmas to everybody who still peeks in to read this now and then. You probably won't read it today, but it'll be here waiting for you when you do.
It was a small Christmas this year with the family. This year, I received a gift card for Chapters/Coles, a bath accessory set, a nail care set, and, following with the usual family tradition, I got socks. I have yet to see what my brother/sister-in-law got me ... and I have no clue if I'll get a present from Jade or not.
We're moving locations at work next week; moving further south. I'm not looking forward to the drive coming up, so I've been keeping my eye out for a nice pet friendly place closer to work. By the end of February, I'll be ready to make a new start somewhere. Or, I thought I would be. It has occurred to me that I don't have any furniture. And it's a lot harder to get away with the board across the milk crate for table or bench or shelf ... and a couch made from beer cases or something or an air mattress. Heh. I've had some nice things recently ... and I want more of it. It's not enough to scrounge things and be proud of it because it's "mine". The bar has been raised and I can't lower it again.
Besides, gotta put my PartyLite on something good! LOL!
...
So it's taking me forever to write this entry today ... I keep wandering away and doing other things. Typical behaviour for me the night before something important is to happen. Christmas Eve, a party, an appointment, a first day of ... anything ... and before I have to travel somewhere. Tomorrow morning, I'm going to visit some family in Calgary. I'm really looking forward to it. Unbelievably so. One small bonus will be that it will distract me a bit from missing Jade so much.
Damn new job!
Well, there's more to it than that ... but it's moot at the moment. He's over there, I'm here and going down there, which isn't over there where he is ... and I'm missing that he's not where I am! And he's not going to be here for at least another week. So ... yeah. Makes me wanna sit against a wall with a baseball and glove ... and get rhythmic against another wall.
And if you don't know what that's in reference to ... egad!
Anyway ... it's been a pretty good day today. Lots of laughs and giggles. Proves that I'm on the mend, I guess.
Is it just me, or does every prescription medication advertised on TV have the same side effects? Doesn't matter what it's for ... it seems to cause the same problems.
I'm going to finish my adventure, pack my bags and then warm up the bed for sleep. Talk to you all later!
Sweet Dreams!
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Holiday Rushes, Brushes, and Crushes ...
December 21, 2008 - 14:15
Merry Yule and Happy Winter Solstice!
Finally found Lynne's present ... stupid "safe" places!! Going to wrap it in a bit. Will probably sit here 'til New Year's though. Still have her Birthday/Samhain present and her Beltaine present too ... LOL!
Jade is safely on the island, visiting with friends. One more relief to my mind. And I've got all my shopping almost done! Albert has graciously offered to pay for my bus ticket to go and visit my god-family so that I don't have to drive. The highway is very poor just south of the city right now ... RCMP are putting warnings out for future travel. They've been doing that for the past couple of days, really. The accidents are getting stupid.
Great ... just married an orc ... Oh, well, and escape is an escape ...
Almost have my wrapping done ... and realised that I still have a bit more shopping than I thought ... I forgot somebody *blush* That's okay though ... they will never know!!
There's a lot more floor to be seen at my place lately and hopefully, there will soon be even more ... but not before there will be a bit less, I 'm afraid ...
The following lyrics are dedicated to Jackie ... because I think of her whenever I hear it, and it makes me smile!
Handsome, single, young man well respected in his town
Seeks a fine, young lady from a similar background.
Generous, responsible, successful man of means.
Socialize with presidents and queens.
Reply,
P. O. Box 9847
P. O. Box 9847
I've described me very poorly,
Better try again.
Quiet, sincere, gentleman, well rounded and mature.
Fond of music and the arts, loves the theater.
Educated, sensitive, a trav'ler of the world.
Wants to meet an eligible young girl.
Reply,
P. O. Box 9847
P. O. Box 9847
I've been writing, advertising
That's not really me.
Lonely, understanding man, affectionate and true
Looking for girl to share his dreams and make them true.
Humble, loving, sensitive, considerate and shy.
Only sincere ladies need reply.
Reply,
P. O. Box 9847
P. O. Box 9847
I'm not liking what I'm typing.
Throw it all away.
Too much on the go to write ... LOL! Been at this for over an hour ...
Will come back tonight ...
Sweet Dreams!
Merry Yule and Happy Winter Solstice!
Finally found Lynne's present ... stupid "safe" places!! Going to wrap it in a bit. Will probably sit here 'til New Year's though. Still have her Birthday/Samhain present and her Beltaine present too ... LOL!
Jade is safely on the island, visiting with friends. One more relief to my mind. And I've got all my shopping almost done! Albert has graciously offered to pay for my bus ticket to go and visit my god-family so that I don't have to drive. The highway is very poor just south of the city right now ... RCMP are putting warnings out for future travel. They've been doing that for the past couple of days, really. The accidents are getting stupid.
Great ... just married an orc ... Oh, well, and escape is an escape ...
Almost have my wrapping done ... and realised that I still have a bit more shopping than I thought ... I forgot somebody *blush* That's okay though ... they will never know!!
There's a lot more floor to be seen at my place lately and hopefully, there will soon be even more ... but not before there will be a bit less, I 'm afraid ...
The following lyrics are dedicated to Jackie ... because I think of her whenever I hear it, and it makes me smile!
Handsome, single, young man well respected in his town
Seeks a fine, young lady from a similar background.
Generous, responsible, successful man of means.
Socialize with presidents and queens.
Reply,
P. O. Box 9847
P. O. Box 9847
I've described me very poorly,
Better try again.
Quiet, sincere, gentleman, well rounded and mature.
Fond of music and the arts, loves the theater.
Educated, sensitive, a trav'ler of the world.
Wants to meet an eligible young girl.
Reply,
P. O. Box 9847
P. O. Box 9847
I've been writing, advertising
That's not really me.
Lonely, understanding man, affectionate and true
Looking for girl to share his dreams and make them true.
Humble, loving, sensitive, considerate and shy.
Only sincere ladies need reply.
Reply,
P. O. Box 9847
P. O. Box 9847
I'm not liking what I'm typing.
Throw it all away.
Too much on the go to write ... LOL! Been at this for over an hour ...
Will come back tonight ...
Sweet Dreams!
Sunday, December 07, 2008
Friends for Low Places
December 08, 2008 - 12:08
It's a bit later than it should be and I'm going to get in trouble if Jade happens to see this, but I wanted to get this down, or at least started.
I had a fairly wonderful day today. Jade had an event in town and instead of driving all the way home again after, he came over to my place and spent what was left of the night with me ... and most of the morning. Everything felt good and right while he was there. It's the kind of feeling that you can get a buzz off of. When he finally left, the place actually felt empty. I threw myself into some work that needed to be done about the place, but made the mistake of watching a sobby chick flick while I was working ... which was a bad move. Never let me watch sobby chick flicks during Hormone week.
So, was feeling a bit low and allowed myself to be nudged lower by something stupid ... and then finally did something smart. Instead of wallowing in the deluge of my depression and hoarding my fears, I got a hold of Jade and we hashed things out. As usual, he made things better for me.
But he also made a point ... he said that I tended to hold people at a distance. Always have, he said, and it hasn't gotten any better over the years. Do I really? I'll have to give this some thought ... I've always had a bit of a built-in cloaking device. Once had a teacher tell my Mom that she often forgot that I was in the class room until I actually said something. Didn't matter where I sat ...
Maybe it's because moving so much made it hard to integrate properly and I've never really learned. Maybe I've been dumped too often - apparently, I'm boring. Maybe it's part of my low (but improving) self-esteem ... maybe it's about control. Maybe I only try to get close to people I click with ... I don't know. I'm willing to hear theories and observations.
Meanwhile, I'd better get to bed ... I need a shower in the morning! And 06:30 come awful fast!
Sweet Dreams!
I know mine will be!
It's a bit later than it should be and I'm going to get in trouble if Jade happens to see this, but I wanted to get this down, or at least started.
I had a fairly wonderful day today. Jade had an event in town and instead of driving all the way home again after, he came over to my place and spent what was left of the night with me ... and most of the morning. Everything felt good and right while he was there. It's the kind of feeling that you can get a buzz off of. When he finally left, the place actually felt empty. I threw myself into some work that needed to be done about the place, but made the mistake of watching a sobby chick flick while I was working ... which was a bad move. Never let me watch sobby chick flicks during Hormone week.
So, was feeling a bit low and allowed myself to be nudged lower by something stupid ... and then finally did something smart. Instead of wallowing in the deluge of my depression and hoarding my fears, I got a hold of Jade and we hashed things out. As usual, he made things better for me.
But he also made a point ... he said that I tended to hold people at a distance. Always have, he said, and it hasn't gotten any better over the years. Do I really? I'll have to give this some thought ... I've always had a bit of a built-in cloaking device. Once had a teacher tell my Mom that she often forgot that I was in the class room until I actually said something. Didn't matter where I sat ...
Maybe it's because moving so much made it hard to integrate properly and I've never really learned. Maybe I've been dumped too often - apparently, I'm boring. Maybe it's part of my low (but improving) self-esteem ... maybe it's about control. Maybe I only try to get close to people I click with ... I don't know. I'm willing to hear theories and observations.
Meanwhile, I'd better get to bed ... I need a shower in the morning! And 06:30 come awful fast!
Sweet Dreams!
I know mine will be!
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Hey, Hey, I Saved The World Today ...
December 3, 2008 - 21:49
I am having such a fantastic week!!
I had been looking forward to transferring to a new location and getting better tips, but I've landed something better! And I did it by ACCIDENT!
On Monday morning, I took my truck into the dealership to get the brakes checked. they'd been very soft and scary for a long time now ... turns out they were pretty bad off. Anyway, Jade, my dashing hero, offered to cover the cost of the brakes for me. ('Cause they quoted me $1000, and I just didn't have it.) While we were waiting for him to call my cell at the dealership, the cashier and I were talking and she mentioned that they were short-handed, and one thing led to another and I was racing home to update my resume to fax in.
Another adventure there, the drugstore lady was borderline incompetent with the fax m/c. I gave up on her and started to take my resume to the 7-11 down the street, because I've seen them sometimes do faxes. I noticed that the bank was still open so I went in, waited and asked politely if they would make a local fax for me. I was thrilled that they did, and they didn't ask for payment either. Even better!
Next morning, I was awakened by my cell ... and answered it only half aware. A voice in my ear asked me to come in for an interview. I was hired that afternoon. That was yesterday ... today was my first day at work!! It was great!
I love having stable hours (resulting in stable paycheques) and a decidedly better rate of pay than I've had in a while. It made me giddy with pleasure to put "gift giving" back on my To Do list for this month. Jade, my Prince, is going to get something that I've been trying to afford for a long time. He deserves it!
It's a shame that I don't see him as often as I'd like right now, but we are doing fine. More than fine. I think this has been good for us, in the long run. Harsh, but necessary. I wish things could have been different ... but I can't argue with the results.
Greenman suggested that we consider counselling ... and I thought of it ... but I don't think we're quite at that level of need quite yet. It only seems like it when he's been away from me for a bit. I don't do well when I'm away form him. My need for Barq's is Nothing compared to the withdrawal I go through when I am deprived of Jade for a time. I think we have some time before we really need it.
Now if only we could get his parents out of the house!
Well, I have to get to bed ... this early rising thing kinda sucks, but I guess a sacrifice was required for all the good luck I saw this week.
Are you watching, Santa? I've been a good girl!
Ruler of my heart
Robber of my soul
Where can you be?
I wait patiently
My heart cries out
Pain inside
Where can you be?
I wait patiently
When you're alone
Going gets rough
Come back, come back, come back baby
I've had enough
Make me a queen
Happy again
Hear my cry
And ease my pain
When you're alone
Going gets rough
Come back, come back, come back baby
I've had enough
Make me a queen
Happy again
Hear me cry
And ease my pain
(bonus points if you name the movie this is from!!)
Sweet Dreams!
I am having such a fantastic week!!
I had been looking forward to transferring to a new location and getting better tips, but I've landed something better! And I did it by ACCIDENT!
On Monday morning, I took my truck into the dealership to get the brakes checked. they'd been very soft and scary for a long time now ... turns out they were pretty bad off. Anyway, Jade, my dashing hero, offered to cover the cost of the brakes for me. ('Cause they quoted me $1000, and I just didn't have it.) While we were waiting for him to call my cell at the dealership, the cashier and I were talking and she mentioned that they were short-handed, and one thing led to another and I was racing home to update my resume to fax in.
Another adventure there, the drugstore lady was borderline incompetent with the fax m/c. I gave up on her and started to take my resume to the 7-11 down the street, because I've seen them sometimes do faxes. I noticed that the bank was still open so I went in, waited and asked politely if they would make a local fax for me. I was thrilled that they did, and they didn't ask for payment either. Even better!
Next morning, I was awakened by my cell ... and answered it only half aware. A voice in my ear asked me to come in for an interview. I was hired that afternoon. That was yesterday ... today was my first day at work!! It was great!
I love having stable hours (resulting in stable paycheques) and a decidedly better rate of pay than I've had in a while. It made me giddy with pleasure to put "gift giving" back on my To Do list for this month. Jade, my Prince, is going to get something that I've been trying to afford for a long time. He deserves it!
It's a shame that I don't see him as often as I'd like right now, but we are doing fine. More than fine. I think this has been good for us, in the long run. Harsh, but necessary. I wish things could have been different ... but I can't argue with the results.
Greenman suggested that we consider counselling ... and I thought of it ... but I don't think we're quite at that level of need quite yet. It only seems like it when he's been away from me for a bit. I don't do well when I'm away form him. My need for Barq's is Nothing compared to the withdrawal I go through when I am deprived of Jade for a time. I think we have some time before we really need it.
Now if only we could get his parents out of the house!
Well, I have to get to bed ... this early rising thing kinda sucks, but I guess a sacrifice was required for all the good luck I saw this week.
Are you watching, Santa? I've been a good girl!
Ruler of my heart
Robber of my soul
Where can you be?
I wait patiently
My heart cries out
Pain inside
Where can you be?
I wait patiently
When you're alone
Going gets rough
Come back, come back, come back baby
I've had enough
Make me a queen
Happy again
Hear my cry
And ease my pain
When you're alone
Going gets rough
Come back, come back, come back baby
I've had enough
Make me a queen
Happy again
Hear me cry
And ease my pain
(bonus points if you name the movie this is from!!)
Sweet Dreams!
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