Country Roads ...

January 10, 2009 - 10:50

Wow ... a crisp new year. So far it has been fairly kind to me, for the most part. My PartyLite has been seeing some welcome growth, I am doing well at my my other FT job, I'm losing weight, and I'm feeling good about myself again.

Of course, there are a few rough patches to balance the rough - I have a head cold that is doing strange things to my throat, and I haven't seen Jade in three and a half weeks as he's been on a much needed holiday - a mountain hopping ski trip. He makes sure to text me once or twice a day though and tells me he's missing me. I'm glad he's having a good time, but I'll be happy when he comes home to me. I had only been at my new job for two weeks when he left, or I might have tried to go too. It's easier for him that I didn't though. He can share a room with his guy friends and cut down on costs ... and he can stay out longer.

Sure miss him though ... just a week left to wait. I can do that.

But things are going well for me right now. My bills are getting paid, I have a bit of space on my credit cards :), and there is nothing looming over me, really. Nothing financial, at any rate.

I still feel like I haven't accomplished anything in my life. When I see my friends on Facebook, or somewhere in the city, and they ask me what I've been doing since they saw me last ... I always hesitate a bit before shrugging. What do I have to tell them? I'm an owner of a beautiful home on an acreage that I can't live in, I have no living children, and even though I've been with the same man for about 15 years, we've never married. I haven't followed the herd down to Vegas, Mexico, or any other "hot spot". I could have earned a trip to Atlantis, in the Bahamas, but I didn't try to earn it, because I thought I was going to Scotland and the dates kinda clashed. Now I have neither.

So ... instead of sitting in a dark corner about all of this, I have been working towards making it happen myself. I'm going to Scotland!! Even if I have to go alone, I'm going to Scotland! I have been researching the time I want to go, the places I want or need to see ... and how much it will eventually cost me. The fact that I'm not going for a wedding will just make it easier to afford! I might even try one of the backpacking trips, who knows?

I'm also trying to put together a small group to go to Jasper in the spring ... maybe around Easter. Not having a lot of luck with that either. Was hoping it could be a girls' trip ... but I love Jasper and if I have to, I'll go alone there too! I might even drive! If I get bumped off by a sheep or a moose, well, it'll give people something to talk about.

Maybe I'll take the bus ...

Sweet Dreams!