Bittersweet Dreams and other Good Times

August 24, 2009 - 18:23

Listening to: "Everywhere" - Michelle Branch

The song is suitable for all of my moods ... describes everything from Jade, my friends, and wandering spirits. Wanted to paste it here, but it won't let me paste. Sucky.

Feeling a bit low today. Have been doing my best to keep my spirits up, but made a bad move when I put some music on while sitting at the 'puter. Damn love songs. Ah, well, probably good to let it happen and get it out of the way. My dreams turn strange when I try to hold it in.

Had a great time during a recent trip to Thunder Lake with Lavender, but can't find the notes I wrote to post here. :( Will search harder ... she'd like to see what I wrote. (If she hasn't already.)

Got invited to a special outing, but will have to wait for next year for it. If Facebook is good for nothing else, it is great at proving how small the world is. Made me happy all the same.

My mind is drifting to other things ... makes it hard to stay focused on the entry, but it's also a sign that I'm ready to start my writing projects again. A mixture of good and bad news, I guess.

Lots to do this week ... I have to get everything out into the garage. It's amazing how much I'm willing to get rid of to cut down on the clutter. There really is a lot in the house. Some of it is even mine. :) I hope to have all the signs, etc made and up, including prints of pics of the PL items that I 'm selling. Need to have it all priced out too. On top of that, I want to give the house a really good cleaning, and get my items upstairs. Especially the computer. as nice as it is to come downstairs where it's cool, my space is upstairs and it's a pain to have the computer separated. I have a plan though, and Greywhistle agrees that it is possible to arrange. Now I just have to get him over here to help me! :)

Okay ... feeling a bit better. Going to eat something and watch my movies.

Wish I had popcorn.

Sweet Dreams!

PS. Just read my entry for March 30, 2006 and laughed myself silly. I should go back a re-read some of those ...

I Had a Dream ...

August 7, 2009 - 12:50

There was a time when men were kind

When their voices were soft

And their words inviting

There was a time when love was blind

And the world was a song

And the song was exciting

There was a time

Then it all went wrong

So I had a slow, yet productive morning today. I can only hope that it all goes well - that is bears fruit, but not bad feelings. But as I hope, I can only wonder if I believe it can happen, or if I'm just trying to convince myself.

We've only been broken up for a couple weeks, but I'm still hearing rumours. Typical ones. Rumours of more lies. Another girl. Stories that nobody wants to tell me. It only serves to harden my heart against what must be done. Still, I hope that all goes well.

Moving on ...

Things are almost ready ... again ... for another garage sale. I just have to decide WHEN I'm going to have it. I'm not sure that my brother will be willing to help out again. This time, whatever doesn't sell gets donated. It goes straight into a box and I'll call whichever number that I find first to come and get it. the place feels really good with out all the clutter. It feels more like it's my space ... just mine ... and fresh. It feels new. Like a clean start.

I finally found my keys too. Lavendar sent me my choice of finding spells ... worked "like a charm" :)

I'm trying to get into a course for September, but it's pretty late ... the two that I've tried to get into so far have been full. Hmmm ... still, it's something to work towards. I can always try again in September ... and make sure I'm ready for it in the meantime.

Sweet Dreams!

Sugarplums ... are they just for kids?

August 1, 2009 - 01:49

I'm not sure if I should be writing ... I feel sorta of numb and am not quite sure what I wanted to say. What's happened lately? The usual ... Everything, and nothing, all at the same time. I've taken several steps into places that I never wishes to go ... places I've never been, places I've seen from a distance ... and places that I've never wanted to go back to. All because of a place that I didn't deserve to be put in ... and shouldn't want back as badly as I do.

Okay ... moving on ...

Garage sale went very well ... Before I go, I'll be doing it again. I'll be selling EVERYTHING. I hope.

Been trying to get a second job, while keeping my eyes open for another place to live. I have a willing roomie, but she won't be here until Dec ... And my rent goes up Nov ... which means if I get a place big enough for both of us, then I have to be able to afford it for at least that one month. :( GAH!

Been seeing a few good jobs and I've been putting out my resumes ... crossing my fingers all the while. I've also been making moves for another career move. Feels like I'm grasping smoke though ...

Making life more difficult, Jade arrives on Sunday morning to take the truck back.

Does life get any sweeter than this?

Yes. Yes, it does. But will it get sweeter for me?

I sure hope so.

Sweet Dreams!