Actions vs Words

February 14, 2012 - 13:46

Mood: Tense, maybe a bit pensive. Maybe.
Music: I Need a Hero ~ Bonnie Tyler
Thought For the Day: They say that the Road to Hell is paved with good intentions. If I believed in Hell, then I would have to say that those good intentions start with "May you get everything that you deserve." A thoughtless blessing is ever a curse in disguise.

Happy Valentine's Day! May you know only joy.

For those of you who haven't heard, I've been on a journey that will hopefully lead to a very good career for me. I'm in the process of applying for a civilian position with the RCMP. It's been very interesting so far. The Career presentation was eye opening and somewhat sobering, but I held no doubt. I could do this job. I faltered a bit when I went for the Typing certificate ... but I went back two days later and triumphed. I officially type 43 wpm with a 1% error rate. Mom says that's something to be proud of. Now I'm trying to get a letter from where I finished high school stating that I have High School Equivalency. I have until March 1 to supply the RCMP with it, but I'm really hoping that it doesn't take that long. :)

Some questions that have been popping up in my head as I get closer to acceptance. First of all, when does it start?? Will I be able to keep my job at BP's (will I want to?) at a PT level, or at least be able to offer enough notice as to be acceptable? WHERE is the training? I know that there are three call centres. Edmonton, Red Deer, and in the NWT. Red Deer isn't hiring right now, but may in the Fall. Not wanting to limit myself, I offered to work at any of the three. NWT would be an interesting post, but it is also a three to five year commitment. If I get a position outside of Edmonton, where will I stay? Am I responsible for finding my own place? Would Spot be happy? And Ashley? (Personally, I think they'll both be happy as long as I'm there, but they are 12 hour shifts ...)

I am very excited about this new start. It's the kind that I can handle. Starting wage during training is ... worth it.

My exercise routine continues smoothly. I'm almost back to where I was before. For a while there I thought I had gone horribly wrong, but then I discovered that I need to make sure that I don;t take my B6's until after I work out. Apparently, this vitamin speeds up your heart rate. Made staying at a certain level more difficult. Tomorrow, I think I'm going to push myself a bit. Just for fun. Because that's what my work outs are turning into ... fun. The weight loss, or inch loss, is not a concern, really. Just a great side effect. Mostly, I just love the way it makes me feel. I used to love Phys Ed. I love to get my heart pumping and the muscles moving. I love how I feel afterwards. Still, I'm watching my diet. Mostly out of habit. Why waste a good work out?

Speaking of which, Jackie didn't appreciate my concerns from my last entry. And everything else is my fault too. :)

"You work evenings weekdays and weekends I don't know your schedule I told you that, other then that, you never say "Hey I have this night off lets go to a show'. I work weekdays Monday to Friday and have weekends off, all planning has to be done around your schedule. You are just as bad for not communicating. And thanks for dumping on my project. Hope you are wrong, since I've seen the results"

Get stuffed, girl. I didn't dump on your project. I applaud it. I just don't approve of the method. Starving yourself is never the answer. I've researched it too ... it horrifies anybody I talk to about it. Especially your diet's way of beating a plateau. Madness. As for your Journal, all I complained about was false advertising. You don't SAY anything in it. I stopped reading at Day 5. I found it both alarming and boring. BUT it's your choice. You have the right to make that choice. Have at 'er.

As for my schedule, you're exaggerating. I rarely work weekdays. That's your gig. If you want to know my schedule, then ASK. I had tried to invite you to do things with me previously. You were always busy. The last time I tried to ask you out to dinner, you claimed that you already had plans, but when the day arrived, you were complaining on FB about being bored and having nothing to do. I asked you what happened to the event you had planned. You said that you didn't actually have anything planned that day, you just didn't know what you wanted to do. Thanks for slapping my face. So I stopped asking. That's fine. Nobody else has a problem asking when I have time off. So I mentioned that we don't spend time together any more. So what? That's part of life. As for my phrasing, I stick by it. Trust me, it's been noticed by others.

Well, it's time to provide heart shaped pizzas. If you need one, order EARLY. Last year we ran out too soon.

May sunshine chase away your shadows, but never burn your nose. ;)

Sweet Dreams!

PS. Lavender ... you still aren't replying to my e-mails. We should look into that tomorrow. ;)