August 26, 2015 - 21:43
Mood: Strangely relaxed. Almost accomplished, really. Lighter.
Music: Rumour Has It ~ Adele
Thought of the Day: Worry is a misuse of the imagination.
I've been feeling good all week. Mostly. Mom still needles biting irritation, but I've been giddy during the day. It's ... strange for me. I'm not getting a lot of sleep, but maybe it's better? Who knows? Why try to break it down or qualify it? Just enjoy it. I'm feeling much better with the exercise I'm getting at work. Seriously. I can get two flights in before I start to feel a slight strain. And I'm feeling the muscle, not the tendons at my knees. BIG improvement.
I've almost got my office set up the way I like it. Can you believe it? It's only been a few months. Normally, I take my time to make it feel right, but the energy of the room has been calling and things have been falling into place with extremely little need for adjustment. Just need to take brief advantage of the back to school sales and get a couple organisers that Mom noticed in Staples. They hummed for me and I knew that I had to have them. then I'll be well on my way. My bedroom is next. the pull is harder there. Heh. Maybe if the energy flows properly in the bedroom, I'll have better luck finding somebody to share it with, eh? It could happen. It's been a lonely seven years, but necessary, I guess.
I've been contemplating starting my own business, but I'm going to research it carefully first. Brainstorming ideas, seeing what my community actually needs. So far, my best idea is a lunch cafe that supports home-based businesses with display opportunity, and a place to read/chat/relax with a coffee. I ran it past Mom, expecting her to have doubts or to directly "pooh pooh" it, but she said that it sounded inviting. Still, going to brainstorm a bit. Ask the neighbours careful questions. I'm also going to check out the town's Chamber of Commerce to see what's actually here. Lady knows we won't need a hair salon. LOL! A craft store might be nice, but it might get away from me in regards to supplies. I don't want a Michael's, or a chain store (Panago is tempting though). I want something that offers a personal touch. Idea stage though ... we'll see ...
So, back to weight loss. I'm feeling lighter in mind as well as body. I decreased the size of my Facebook list considerably. It wasn't in anger or retribution. I was looking at my "About" section and abruptly reminded that I was falling back in some old, dangerous ways. I was clinging to what could be based on what I had thought I had. No. that was wrong, negative, and keeping me from moving forward. It was fogging my purpose. My ambition. I won't wait for my friends to understand me, or the brilliance of me. :) I'm not going to wait to be adored by people that don't have time for me. I went though my friend list and let some people go. there were a few I hesitated over and I let them stay, but I plan on going through the list again in a while. One must put away things that are no longer of use ... and, while that sounds pompous, it goes both ways. If they no longer have a need for me, then I can choose to walk away on my own instead waiting in the corner. Collecting dust like an old doll. If they find that they need me again, they should be able to find me.
In the past, I would have felt guilty for such a "culling", but I don't. I feel like I've lifted a weight off my shoulders. It's been utterly ... well, it's been a relief. Amazingly. So it was a good decision. Or at least, it was one that I was ready for. Simply ... Awesome.
What do I tackle next? I think I'll see if I can hunt down all my inspiration bits and finish a story or two. Its about time i joined the masses in trying to get published, don't you think?
Sweet Dreams!
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