Determination Rhapsody (or Dreams in Amber)

13:15

It's been an off day today. Kinda ho-hum, even. I didn't do my exercises. I forgot about them. I'll do some before supper tonight to make up for it. Mostly I've been sitting on my butt at the computer. I've gotten up and wandered about doing little things a few times, but there's not really all that much that I can do right now.

It's even quiet down in the dungeon. I don't think I've heard the TV all day, actually. I think they went out and didn't say anything. Unusual. Dona has been saying less and less to me. Maybe she's picking up my irritation; maybe she's feeling her own. Don't know. Not worried. Would have been nice to know if they were gone though ... I'd have blasted some music.

I'm actually tempted to re-arrange the bedroom, but I'm not sure that Jade would be happy about it. Heh. It's got to be done eventually. It's ineffective as it is now. It could be better.

I finally put up another chapter of my story. Luna R, the best fan in the whole world, rarely allows anybody to review ahead of her. Today was no exception. And, as usual, her review left me glowing.

"Holy crap! I nearly passed out when I checked my email and saw the alert!
This chapter was fantastic. Out of all the original characters I've encountered in Sailor Moon fan fiction, Rory is probably my favorite. She kicks! My favorite line of hers: "I am a Princess. Whether or not I am the Princess you seek, it does not matter. I am the only Princess you will be getting." Awesome!
This chapter threw me for a loop. First we were all kind of biting our nails as the Molly/Nephrite/Melvin bit worked itself out (great resolution by the way) but we were still kind of relaxed and comfortable. Nice picnic, fun outing in the park with the family and friends.
Then, BOOM! A kidnapping, a battle, and suddenly a character is gone. And you leave off with a sense of grieved mystery and a killer cliffhanger. It couldn't have been better!
But, man, I'm not going to lie. It is going to be miserable waiting for more!
Two wonderful updates within a year! Let's make it three, friend! And put some strawberry topping on top! :-D"

She never fails to make me feel really good about my work. To choose one of MY originals characters as her all-time favourite?? I don't know how to really describe it. There aren't really any words to properly express my pride and joy. I've had orgasms that were easier to explain.

*sigh* Such a pity that I killed that character off. LOL!

I'm still a little lost as to what the heck I'm supposed to do about my weight goals. Jade suggested that I've got the same amount of body fat as before, but I might be carrying it in different proportions than I previously was. There's no point in talking to my doctor about it - he'll follow a chart according to my height and tell me that I'm "a little" over-weight. Jack ass. I tried to tell him once that he can't use that chart for me as an exact as I have more muscle than a lot of women my age/height. He just smiled indulgently and asked me to go pee in a cup. That's his favourite test, I think.

Either way, I keep telling myself that it'll look better next week. Starting to weigh in just before a visit from Jill is really NOT the best timing. My appetite has been cutting back and I'm as active as I ever was. You can't tell me that this isn't making a difference!! *sigh* I wonder if I need professional advice? Or am I just a victim of genetics?

AGH! NEVER! I will beat the odds! I WILL have my dream body! (Or at least as satisfactorily close as possible!) There's no quitting from THIS crusade, baby!

Sweet Dreams!