Are We There Yet? (or Hey, Mister! Draw Me a Smurf, Hey?)

21:03

So, a few things have happened.

Yes, they have. Things happen to me too, once in a while. This is one of those whiles. Shush up.

First off, Dona is back to being very nice to me. I'm just going with the flow there and trying to keep my distance. It's hard though because things are nice when she's being nice (without smothering) and I want very much to enjoy it. Even knowing that it could end at anytime. Maybe because I know that. Anyway, she told me that she and Wayne are going to try to get jobs together at a golf course. She needs to get out of the house she says. (Like this is new news.) Apparently, she almost tried to suicide last week. This isn't the life for her, she says. She can't just sit around on her butt and she can only clean so much house. (She's cleaning more than she should, but I zipped that part off.) She's also talking about getting a senior's job in the winter.

I'm sorry that she feels this way and I would be upset if she actually hurt herself like that. I actually am fond of the bitch. ;) But I feel no pity for her. We're coming into our 8th month here and she's still moping because she's "stuck" in the country. She needs to be in the city where she can be more independent, she says. The only reason she is "stuck" is because she was determined to be "stuck" here to prove how pitiful she was. We all made suggestions on how she could help herself and she put down every suggestion. She didn't even think about them, she just smashed them. So I gave her no reaction when she told me about her depression. No way was I going to feed into her "poor pitiful me" routine.

She asked me (ASKED!!) to drive her into town to pick something up because the guys were taking forever with their errand. We went to a couple of Farmer's Markets (Another option to E-bay, Lynne?) and during this she talked about our property as just an investment thing. It's not supposed to be long term. (EH??) That in, maybe, ten years, they'd move into a condo or something and Jade and I would invest in another property. Probably a larger one.

Okay, I can see the sense in that. Especially this place is going to get VERY small when I finally have a child. (I'm allowed to have one, which is all I want ... so I'll probably have twins! BWAHAHAHA!) But I refuse to view this place as temporary or see my work as a way to make more money. I am NOT going to put my soul into this house and fix it up for somebody else. Nuh uh. I'm doing this for me. For myself and for Jade. This is a home, not a temporary business arrangement.

Whatever. We're getting along for now and if she actually gets a job, I'll have the house to myself. And I can choose if I go to work or not. I really should write to Dragonlady soon and let her know about my availability. I also haven't told her about the ring or any of the other happy news.

So there you go.

Next subject - "click!"

Albert is in the hospital again. His heart was fibrillating all over the place and his numbers were wonky. -- Just been updated, he'll be home tomorrow. Aparrantly, the trip was relaxing for him. I agree with Jade ... that's just wrong.

"click"

Had supper last night with the Green Man. It was fantastic! The company more so than the supper. We went to the Keg on the west end. I had called on Thursday to make reservations and I thought I had made them. When we got there, I was informed that they don't take reservations on Friday nights. Really? Then I should have been told that when I called to make one. I was obviously unhappy with this turn of events, but the list was short for waiting, so I shrugged it all off. She asked if I wanted to see the manager and I said that there was no point. I wasn't going to get a table any faster, was I? Managed to have a good time anyway, although it did get fairly noisy and I had to concentrate to hear everything that my companions were saying. Ah, well. Next time, we go to Applebee's, Green Man, okay?

We have a lovely border feature to a new flower bed out front now. Unfortunately, the tree will have to go. It's too close to the cistern. Pity.

Lynne wants to start an E-Bay business with me. This co-incides with similar thoughts that Jade and I were already having, so it's something I am positively thinking about. I also like the Farmer's Market idea too. It's a nice feeling in there and I wouldn't mind being a part of it. Very Family-ish. Clannish, perhaps.

Sounds nice, doesn't it?

Sweet Dreams!