23:04
As of right now, my mother is halfway to Scotland. Or at least almost half way. I'm not sure what time the plane left. She's on her way to negotiate a contract with the lady of the original job offer that she had previously received. Apparently, the Hungarian that was hired ran out, and now she wants my Mom again.
She'll be back by Monday and then it'll be a mad dash for the next couple of months while they get everything sold. I'll get a few things that they don't want to take with them (to avoid weight costs) like a few books and a few heirloom type things ... but everything else will be sold. I believe the car has already been sold to an aunt. I've already refused the big screen TV and the pool. No room for one and we can't afford to fill the other.
Fuck, I'm going to be lonely. She's the only family member that talks to me. My Dad and my brother avoid me at all (or most) costs. Actually, my brother only contacts me when there's something in it for him. Like adding me to his friend list on Facebook. He has no wish to communicate with me. I can't even get him to tell me where he lives or works! Dad? Dad's dead. Haven't talked to him in two years. My Aunts? go through my mother to talk with me. My cousins, get their news through my Aunts.
And I'm going to go insane being alone her with my mother-in-law. I don't wanna go into that right now.
I don't think I want to talk about this anymore.
...
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Dedicated
14:31
Music: I'll Remember - Madonna
To You : you know who you are ...
Time passes
Life happens.
Distance separates.
Children grow up.
Jobs come and go.
Love waxes and wanes.
Hearts break.
Parents die.
Colleagues forget favors.
Careers end.
BUT.........
Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you.
A girl friend is never farther away than needing her can reach.
(Anonymous)
When you are in need, call me and I'll be there for you.
********************************************************************************
Well, I've got most of the computer room cleaned up and a few things are FINALLY hanging on the walls. Turning the large shelves so that I could have access to both sides was a give and take solution. I'm losing a bit of space, but gaining more room. Make sense? Good! It's one of things that you have to see.
Next, I think I'll tackle the bedroom. I don't like it the way it is, and I need a second book case for my mangas. Of course, this means I'm going to lose all my shelf space for my books, but I've made a compromise with Jade. He'll keep his books in the guest bedroom, and he'll buy me some more shelves for the bedroom and I'll keep mine there. Eventually, I plan on mixing our books together, but some habits take time to break.
We do that alot though. His space, my space. His stuff, my stuff; his side, my side. It's kind of silly, in a way ... but we're working on it. That's the point, right? We're working on it.
Jade was mentioning (not quite a whine, so much as a wistful note) that he practically has to sacrifice spending time with me in order to work enough hours to live so that we can be comfortable together. It's true ... he's gone for 13 hours a day, and when he gets back, he has about four and half hours to get his personal stuff done and spend a bit of time with me. Sometimes I think he was able to spend more time with me before we moved in together. ;)
I'm sure it'll work out soon. He's waiting for something to happen at a closer location so that he can transfer over there. That'll save him time and gas money. Both of which will probably be spent on me. Heh.
Meanwhile, we do the best that we can. I work here until I find a job to help balance things out, and he works as many hours as he can without killing the idiots he works with. I'm a bit surprised that Dragonlady hasn't called me yet, but I'm sure there will be room for me if I need work. Meanwhile I await word from the trainer north of me. The person was supposed to be our go-between doesn't come into town very regularly and her mailbox is full, so I can't leave a message asking her to call me with an update. Hopefully, I'll hear something soon. I'll giver until the end of the week, and then I'll call up the track. I'm sure I'll be able to find help there.
Meanwhile, I have things to do. I'm determined to break through this writer's block and get my current fanfic written and completed so that I can move on to other things!
Sweet Dreams!
Music: I'll Remember - Madonna
To You : you know who you are ...
Time passes
Life happens.
Distance separates.
Children grow up.
Jobs come and go.
Love waxes and wanes.
Hearts break.
Parents die.
Colleagues forget favors.
Careers end.
BUT.........
Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you.
A girl friend is never farther away than needing her can reach.
(Anonymous)
When you are in need, call me and I'll be there for you.
********************************************************************************
Well, I've got most of the computer room cleaned up and a few things are FINALLY hanging on the walls. Turning the large shelves so that I could have access to both sides was a give and take solution. I'm losing a bit of space, but gaining more room. Make sense? Good! It's one of things that you have to see.
Next, I think I'll tackle the bedroom. I don't like it the way it is, and I need a second book case for my mangas. Of course, this means I'm going to lose all my shelf space for my books, but I've made a compromise with Jade. He'll keep his books in the guest bedroom, and he'll buy me some more shelves for the bedroom and I'll keep mine there. Eventually, I plan on mixing our books together, but some habits take time to break.
We do that alot though. His space, my space. His stuff, my stuff; his side, my side. It's kind of silly, in a way ... but we're working on it. That's the point, right? We're working on it.
Jade was mentioning (not quite a whine, so much as a wistful note) that he practically has to sacrifice spending time with me in order to work enough hours to live so that we can be comfortable together. It's true ... he's gone for 13 hours a day, and when he gets back, he has about four and half hours to get his personal stuff done and spend a bit of time with me. Sometimes I think he was able to spend more time with me before we moved in together. ;)
I'm sure it'll work out soon. He's waiting for something to happen at a closer location so that he can transfer over there. That'll save him time and gas money. Both of which will probably be spent on me. Heh.
Meanwhile, we do the best that we can. I work here until I find a job to help balance things out, and he works as many hours as he can without killing the idiots he works with. I'm a bit surprised that Dragonlady hasn't called me yet, but I'm sure there will be room for me if I need work. Meanwhile I await word from the trainer north of me. The person was supposed to be our go-between doesn't come into town very regularly and her mailbox is full, so I can't leave a message asking her to call me with an update. Hopefully, I'll hear something soon. I'll giver until the end of the week, and then I'll call up the track. I'm sure I'll be able to find help there.
Meanwhile, I have things to do. I'm determined to break through this writer's block and get my current fanfic written and completed so that I can move on to other things!
Sweet Dreams!
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Moving Right Along ... (aka Damn Aliens Are Transferring Me AGAIN?!?)
11:52
Something pissed me off yesterday, but I managed a giggle-fit this morning and now I feel a bit better. I'm still disgusted, but I'm not radiating negatively anymore.
Bitches.
So, yesterday morning, I'm working my butt off. I know that things are going a bit slow because my co-worker was a bit behind when I got there, I have an injured finger (I didn't see a doc, so I can't prove hairline fracture) in a splint that constantly gets in the way, and we have extra stalls to do because of the rain. I don't have a watch since mine died, but I can feel that it's almost time for my partner to feed. Enter the Supervisor ... a 21 year old with a hot temper who expects her horses to toe a tight line. Especially the studs. She borders on cruel some days, but at least she's consistent about it.
Anyway, she calls me over to the office. By the time I sit in the chair, I know why. She doesn't even have to say. It's how she did it that gives me the urge to hurt somebody. Apparently, they felt that I was too slow, so things weren't working out. (Eh?!?) This coincided nicely with the arrival of a new Full Time girl from Oregon ... to whom I was introduced as part time help when she arrived. (Eh?!?)
I feel very used. Like I was brought on as temp help but wasn't told. I came on just as my super was leaving for a trip to Rome. They refused to negotiate with me about any of my work details - including wages - despite my willingness to compromise. I was told that I would be Feeding, Mucking and Grooming ... I was soon told not to bother helping with feed, and I barely touched a horse ... so there I was, doing the labour job that any kid on summer vacation could do ... at wages even a summer vacation kid might balk at - if they were doing this for the money.
Bitches.
Luckily, I kept to my planned day and went straight to Curves where I met up with a pair of ladies that I see fairly often. Thanks to them, I now have a very good prospect of working with a Thoroughbred Trainer just north of me. How's that for sweet? And he recently won a lottery too, so he'll not only understand my worth, but he'll be able to pay it.
And if things don't work out, well, I go back to the track. Part time. And hopefully don't kill myself falling asleep on the highway while driving home. (Or there!) Gee, life was exciting for the end of last year's meet.
I can't wait for my own barn to go up. I really can't.
Quote of the day:
Dreams are like feathers - if you have enough, you can fly.
Found a book I want to get. An Eberron adventure called Storm Dragon. It looks very interesting and may even be somewhat educational as I have a character involved in the Dragon Prophesies ... and I don't even know what they are. 'Course, neither does my character so that's okay.
Never been an assassin before ... it's interesting. Still an elf though. Tried to be human, but found it frustrating. Difficult, even. In hindsight, I find this to be also interesting, but from a personal point of view.
Not much more to catch y'all up on. Lots of rain this week, and the weeds are slowly trying to take over. If I'd known that it wasn't going to rain this morning, I would have gotten out there and pulled some. Still might, although the beds need to dry out a bit more before I get them all without bringing half the bed into the house.
You know, I thought losing the use of my index finger would slow me down more ... but it doesn't. How odd.
Sweet Dreams!
Something pissed me off yesterday, but I managed a giggle-fit this morning and now I feel a bit better. I'm still disgusted, but I'm not radiating negatively anymore.
Bitches.
So, yesterday morning, I'm working my butt off. I know that things are going a bit slow because my co-worker was a bit behind when I got there, I have an injured finger (I didn't see a doc, so I can't prove hairline fracture) in a splint that constantly gets in the way, and we have extra stalls to do because of the rain. I don't have a watch since mine died, but I can feel that it's almost time for my partner to feed. Enter the Supervisor ... a 21 year old with a hot temper who expects her horses to toe a tight line. Especially the studs. She borders on cruel some days, but at least she's consistent about it.
Anyway, she calls me over to the office. By the time I sit in the chair, I know why. She doesn't even have to say. It's how she did it that gives me the urge to hurt somebody. Apparently, they felt that I was too slow, so things weren't working out. (Eh?!?) This coincided nicely with the arrival of a new Full Time girl from Oregon ... to whom I was introduced as part time help when she arrived. (Eh?!?)
I feel very used. Like I was brought on as temp help but wasn't told. I came on just as my super was leaving for a trip to Rome. They refused to negotiate with me about any of my work details - including wages - despite my willingness to compromise. I was told that I would be Feeding, Mucking and Grooming ... I was soon told not to bother helping with feed, and I barely touched a horse ... so there I was, doing the labour job that any kid on summer vacation could do ... at wages even a summer vacation kid might balk at - if they were doing this for the money.
Bitches.
Luckily, I kept to my planned day and went straight to Curves where I met up with a pair of ladies that I see fairly often. Thanks to them, I now have a very good prospect of working with a Thoroughbred Trainer just north of me. How's that for sweet? And he recently won a lottery too, so he'll not only understand my worth, but he'll be able to pay it.
And if things don't work out, well, I go back to the track. Part time. And hopefully don't kill myself falling asleep on the highway while driving home. (Or there!) Gee, life was exciting for the end of last year's meet.
I can't wait for my own barn to go up. I really can't.
Quote of the day:
Dreams are like feathers - if you have enough, you can fly.
Found a book I want to get. An Eberron adventure called Storm Dragon. It looks very interesting and may even be somewhat educational as I have a character involved in the Dragon Prophesies ... and I don't even know what they are. 'Course, neither does my character so that's okay.
Never been an assassin before ... it's interesting. Still an elf though. Tried to be human, but found it frustrating. Difficult, even. In hindsight, I find this to be also interesting, but from a personal point of view.
Not much more to catch y'all up on. Lots of rain this week, and the weeds are slowly trying to take over. If I'd known that it wasn't going to rain this morning, I would have gotten out there and pulled some. Still might, although the beds need to dry out a bit more before I get them all without bringing half the bed into the house.
You know, I thought losing the use of my index finger would slow me down more ... but it doesn't. How odd.
Sweet Dreams!
Monday, June 11, 2007
There Are No Excuses ... Only Therapists
15:10
I am so exhausted. Absolutely bushwhacked, and I don't know why. I think I'm just tired of it all. Tired of not getting paid what I'm worth at a place that doesn't give me enough hours and doesn't seem to concerned with it either. Tired of living with a woman who goes anywhere she wants in my home at any time of day and has never knocked once ... because "we're family". Tired of not having enough time in the day to be able to spend quality time with my fiance. And after that last attack on us? The quality time would be nice.
Just bloody tired.
By the by, two people noticed that Lynne was absent from my birthday party. Two people, other than myself. There you go, Lynne ... it was noticed by the "masses" that you were absent.
I was a little hurt by that, but that's Life. I'm also a little hurt that Jade hasn't given me anything for my birthday. He even managed to squirm out of taking me out for supper. Whatever.
I've recently discovered that Jade's idea of teaching me to be more romantic is to deny me any sex at all unless I jump him. He won't touch me unless I start something ... and make sure it continues.
Bastard. Would have been nice if he'd just EXPLAINED this to me. There could have been SO much more sex!
Geez!
On another topic, I had recently sent out an e-mail to my friends that requested them to try to describe me in one word. Just one. I got four answers back. None of those four were the two people that I thought for sure would answer me. Anyway, the words I got back were thus:
I am so exhausted. Absolutely bushwhacked, and I don't know why. I think I'm just tired of it all. Tired of not getting paid what I'm worth at a place that doesn't give me enough hours and doesn't seem to concerned with it either. Tired of living with a woman who goes anywhere she wants in my home at any time of day and has never knocked once ... because "we're family". Tired of not having enough time in the day to be able to spend quality time with my fiance. And after that last attack on us? The quality time would be nice.
Just bloody tired.
By the by, two people noticed that Lynne was absent from my birthday party. Two people, other than myself. There you go, Lynne ... it was noticed by the "masses" that you were absent.
I was a little hurt by that, but that's Life. I'm also a little hurt that Jade hasn't given me anything for my birthday. He even managed to squirm out of taking me out for supper. Whatever.
I've recently discovered that Jade's idea of teaching me to be more romantic is to deny me any sex at all unless I jump him. He won't touch me unless I start something ... and make sure it continues.
Bastard. Would have been nice if he'd just EXPLAINED this to me. There could have been SO much more sex!
Geez!
On another topic, I had recently sent out an e-mail to my friends that requested them to try to describe me in one word. Just one. I got four answers back. None of those four were the two people that I thought for sure would answer me. Anyway, the words I got back were thus:
- Understanding
- Adventurous
- Quirky
- Searching
I thank those of you that answered. I think this year's favourite is 'Quirky'. Just 'cause it tickles me. Last year's 'Random' was chosen for similar reasons.
I was also sent this:
Your Birth date: June 7
You are an island. You don't need anyone else to make you happy. And though you see yourself as a loner, people are drawn to you. Deep and sensitive, you tend to impress others with your insights. You also tend to be psychic - so listen to that inner voice!
Your strength: Your self sufficiency
Your weakness: You despise authority
Your power color: Maroon
Your power symbol: Hammer
Your power month: July
I thought that was kinda cool. My thanks to Shorty for sending it to me. Now if anybody still has Thursday's paper, I'd be very happy if they could please tell me what the June 7 "It's your birthday" said.
Thanks!
I'm off now, to try to create more organisation, if not order, in my chaotic little world.
Yeah, I know, I'm pathetic! LOL!
Sweet Dreams!
Saturday, June 09, 2007
Laugh of the Day
08:29
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| 'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com |
09:20
Somebody was sending around the tired e-mail about "God" not being allowed in schools. I actually sent back a reply to it. thought you might like to see it.
First, the e-mail ...
Dear God:
Why didn't you save the school children at ?...
Moses Lake , Washington 2/2/96
Bethel , Alaska 2/19/97
Pearl , Mississippi 10/1/97
West Paducah , Kentucky 12/1/97
Stamp, Arkansas 12/15/97
Jonesboro , Arkansas 3/24/98
Edinboro , Pennsylvania 4/24/98
Fayetteville , Tennessee 5/19/98
Springfield , Oregon 5/21/98
Richmond , Virginia 6/15/98
Littleton , Colorado 4/20/99
Taber , Alberta , Canada 5/28/99
Conyers , Georgia 5/20/99
Deming , New Mexico 11/19/99
Fort Gibson , Oklahoma 12/6/99
Santee , California 3/ 5/01
El Cajon , California 3/22/01
and now? Blacksburg , VA 4/16/07 ?
Sincerely,Concerned Student
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Reply:
Dear Concerned Student:
Sorry, I am not allowed in schools.
Sincerely, God
Here's my reply ...
Dear God,
That was a ridiculous and lazy answer. If you were able to save them, you would have stopped the crazy people before they even entered those schools. The real truth is this - you can't interfere because you gave us Free Will. The people wanted it and you gave it to them. Now they are seeing the other side of the sword that is this gift, and they are blaming you. They are twisting your gift to show you don't care when the truth is that we need to be the ones who start caring about ourselves and, mostly, about others. It's not your fault, it's ours. It's a pity that there are people out there who resent this gift because they are incapable of thinking for themselves and/or caring for others.
Keep up the good work!
Sweet Dreams!
Friday, June 08, 2007
Into The Mystic
15:15
Herbal Salve
Customize your herbal salve with your choice of essential oils. This salve is thickened & emulsified with beeswax, which is impervious to water and unaffected by mildew. It has a melting point of 143 to 148 degrees F (61.67 - 64.44 C) and should only be heated using a double boiler as it is flammable when subjected to fire and flames or high heats. It is workable at 100 degrees F. (37.78 C)
Ingredients:
2 oz/56.7 g Beeswax
3 oz/85.05g Sweet Almond Oil
1 oz/28.35g Jojoba Oil
1/2 oz/14.2g Canola oil
40 drops total essential oil(s) of your preference*
Makes 4 oz, 4 x 1oz containers
Heat the Sweet Almond, Canola oil and Jojoba oil in a double boiler (or a stainless steal bowl over a saucepan full of water) and add Beeswax. If you want a thin consistency (such as a cream or petroleum jelly) use only a little bit of Beeswax. For a thicker consistency add more Beeswax. If you have any herbal infused oils on hand, such as Comfrey, Calendula or Plantain; feel free to substitute it for the canola oil. Make sure it is strained before adding.
Allow the base to cool down to see what the consistency is like. If it's too thick, add more Sweet Almond oil and reheat; and if it’s too thin, add more Beeswax.
As the base is cooling add the essential oils to enhance the healing effect of the balm. After you have added the essential oil and the base is still warm enough to pour, carefully pour it into your containers. Let cool then cap. Best used within 1-2 years. Apply as needed.
Aromatherapy suggestions to customize your salve:
Tea Tree Essential oil for Antiseptic, anti-fungal, antiviral qualities. Citronella Essential oil for making a insect repellent salve. Lavender Essential oil for emotionally cleansing effect; calms the nerves and has antiseptic qualities. Eucalyptus Essential oil to relieve congestion and ease breathing for allergies and colds.
(Recipe courtesy of the newsletter - The Soap Dish)
So!
Yesterday was my birthday! Thank you to everybody who sent me an e-card, a phone call, or some other type of happy wish message. Together you created the largest response that I have received in years! My parents, Elohelae, fellow Tubber - B.I., my cousin from Washington State, Ellen, and the Care2 site. Especial thanks go out to lovely Lynne, who not only dedicated a post to specifically wish me a happy birthday, but she called up later in the day to remind of how special I am and how important I am in her life.
It's nice to be reminded that I have friends that care about me. Thank you, everybody.
Okay, so my day started off with a card and present from the in laws. A lovely little jewel box with a black kitty brooch. Very pretty.
Next I went to get my ultra-sound done on my liver. While she was taking pictures, and in between breathing, I managed to get a bit more information. The "mass" is only 2 cm (3/4 of an inch) and at the top right tip of my liver. She gave me the name, but I dismissed it as I knew I'd never remember it, never mind pronounce it. Apparently, it's basically like a birthmark. The only reason it's being noticed now is because the ultra-sound equipment is getting so much better. That and I must have breathed out at the right moment, because she said that when I took a deep breath and held it (which is how they usually like to look at things) it disappeared. There you go.
Let's just say that I'm not worried.
Dona and I went to Ricki's for breakfast and watched Curious George on TV. (They switched it to CNN just as we were leaving - right in the middle of Clifford, the Big Red Dog!)
I came home and piddled around for a bit before going to my next appointment. I was driving to St. Albert to visit a psychic. He came highly recommended by a friend, Princess Mum, and I've always, always wanted to try one. I was starting to get nervous as the appointment got closer though, and wondered if I was wasting my money. I refused to chicken out though. I wonder if I should have.
I admit to having very mixed feelings about the session. Mostly because the first thing he did was tell me that I didn't believe I was beautiful. (Well, shit, I could have told him that!) And he harped on it for a few minutes until I wanted to defend myself. I've come a very long way in terms of my self image. He was talking to me like I hadn't changed at all. He then spent the next, oh, 40 minutes?, telling me that Jade was not my soul mate, and although he was a very nice guy, I just look around for somebody who could make me happier. He insisted that he wasn't trying to get me to break up with him, but I should consider other options. Apparently this is why I came to see him. I wanted to know about my love life.
Uh, no. Hadn't occurred to me to ask about it. I had been quite content with my relationship. Yes, I knew it wasn't perfect, but it was WORKING and we were working on it. So there.
Oh, yes, and he said that I had built a beautiful wall, but that I had to tear it down. I knew that already too. Jade told me.
So ... most of the session was gone and he finally started to get into the things that I wanted to know about. Since there was little time left, he kinda rushed through it, so I had no chance to ask questions or get better details.
My spirit guide is a Warrior from the Roman era. I can call him "Gus", so I figure that his full name may be Augustus, or Octavius, or something like that. He has gorgeous black hair. I wanted to know what colour his eyes were, but never got the chance to ask.
My spirit animal is a Deer. (EH?!?) and I'm a Water person. I have hot hands (which I assume means I channel a lot of energy) and I am a Healer. I should stay with Horses. I should go ahead with the dream of having my own horse business. I got the idea that I should stick with race horses, but he never said specifically. He told me about the Law of Attraction and how to use it to get more money. I'll try it.
Past lives - he surprised me a bit here. Didn't mention any that I thought he would, but then he only mentioned a few out of 25. (Jade has been here 21 times - I told him I was older). He said that I was an Egyptian Seer; a very beautiful Brazilian who basically lived in a bikini because I was always swimming in the ocean; a gypsy; and a Spanish woman who had been horribly raped, which resulted in two children. There's more to that, but I'm not going into it here.
Jade and I have been married three times before. Once, he was the woman and I had hired a secretary who turned out to be my 'soul mate'. I guess I worked late lots in that life time. (I think he said that this was in the 1800's and it was still "okay" to have a mistress on the side. This might explain why Jade likes to tease me about having one.) Once he was my brother, and another time we had been in a war together ... and died together.
I left the session still feeling hungry because the areas that I really wanted covered and explained were so rushed. I went over the conversation in my head. Especially the tirade about how Jade won't make me as happy as I could be. The more I thought about it, the angrier I got. In fact, I'm still angry. Angry enough that it's leaking a bit into the other facets of my life - like work. (I'll have to apologise to my co-worker on Monday.)
This has not thrown me "off" of going again. But I think I'd like to change the circumstances a bit. It kinda felt like he was reaching sometimes. Guessing. Maybe because I was trying my best not to give him any real clues, so that I couldn't convince myself it was fake. Maybe because my shields are really good. He contradicted himself a few times, but mostly when he was rushed and not thinking about his words.
I honestly think I'd like to go back, but that I would try to control the conversation a bit more. Oh, yeah, that's the other thing. My masculine side is way too strong. I'm too much of a tomboy. "One of the guys." (Can you say Betty Cooper?) I need to work on my Feminine side he says. I need to go out, buy a bunch of lingerie and learn to be seductive, romantic ... a woman.
Um, ouch?
He also accused me of being a work-aholic. (BWAHAHAHAHAHA!) Well, you can't work the races and have time for much else!
My grandparents (from both sides) are with me alot and love me very much, although they don't know me very well. My paternal grandfather keeps berating me for being stubborn. (EH?!?) One of the "visitors" that I had seen (and had cornered Jade once) turned out to be a great-great Aunt, but I don't know which one.
AGH! It's horribly mind boggling and frustrating. I got more questions than answers out of that session. And it bothered me that he didn't try to See my Animal Spirit, he looked it up on a chart on a book. (EH?!?) Definitely was NOT expecting that answer. He said he could see a lot of cat in me, but I was a Deer. Also, I needed a dog for healing. A big dog. (EH!?!?!) He said that I found other people's dogs annoying because they weren't mine. (Okay, that made me laugh inside because that's what I'd been saying to Jade about children) He knew that I had lost a child, but he seemed surprised that the father was Jade. He also mentioned that I would name the third one Sally Lou. I almost fell out of my chair laughing. I told him it would take a pretty strong influence for that name to be used. He said he was bad with names and that maybe I'd just use Sally.
Maybe. But I doubt it. I'm partial to Sorcha, myself.
Anyway, today my co-worker wished me a Happy Birthday and told me that she missed my presence at work yesterday. A few minutes later I watched a horse go ass over tea kettle as it fell out of its stall. The lead shank that held her came apart as she pulled on it. I laughed at her a bit as I made sure she didn't run out of the barn. It was only as I was putting her on the Equi-ciser that I realised my finger was bleeding. I slapped a band-aid on it until I got home. By then, it was really hurting. Swollen, stiff, and very sore to the touch.
Dammit, I broke my finger. (Just a minor fracture, we think.) Gonna give that horse a piece of my mind on Monday, that's for sure.
So! that was my birthday. I'm waiting to see if Jade is still taking me to dinner tonight, but I'll bet money that he won't. *sigh* It's a family joke for a reason, folks!
Sweet Dreams!
Herbal Salve
Customize your herbal salve with your choice of essential oils. This salve is thickened & emulsified with beeswax, which is impervious to water and unaffected by mildew. It has a melting point of 143 to 148 degrees F (61.67 - 64.44 C) and should only be heated using a double boiler as it is flammable when subjected to fire and flames or high heats. It is workable at 100 degrees F. (37.78 C)
Ingredients:
2 oz/56.7 g Beeswax
3 oz/85.05g Sweet Almond Oil
1 oz/28.35g Jojoba Oil
1/2 oz/14.2g Canola oil
40 drops total essential oil(s) of your preference*
Makes 4 oz, 4 x 1oz containers
Heat the Sweet Almond, Canola oil and Jojoba oil in a double boiler (or a stainless steal bowl over a saucepan full of water) and add Beeswax. If you want a thin consistency (such as a cream or petroleum jelly) use only a little bit of Beeswax. For a thicker consistency add more Beeswax. If you have any herbal infused oils on hand, such as Comfrey, Calendula or Plantain; feel free to substitute it for the canola oil. Make sure it is strained before adding.
Allow the base to cool down to see what the consistency is like. If it's too thick, add more Sweet Almond oil and reheat; and if it’s too thin, add more Beeswax.
As the base is cooling add the essential oils to enhance the healing effect of the balm. After you have added the essential oil and the base is still warm enough to pour, carefully pour it into your containers. Let cool then cap. Best used within 1-2 years. Apply as needed.
Aromatherapy suggestions to customize your salve:
Tea Tree Essential oil for Antiseptic, anti-fungal, antiviral qualities. Citronella Essential oil for making a insect repellent salve. Lavender Essential oil for emotionally cleansing effect; calms the nerves and has antiseptic qualities. Eucalyptus Essential oil to relieve congestion and ease breathing for allergies and colds.
(Recipe courtesy of the newsletter - The Soap Dish)
So!
Yesterday was my birthday! Thank you to everybody who sent me an e-card, a phone call, or some other type of happy wish message. Together you created the largest response that I have received in years! My parents, Elohelae, fellow Tubber - B.I., my cousin from Washington State, Ellen, and the Care2 site. Especial thanks go out to lovely Lynne, who not only dedicated a post to specifically wish me a happy birthday, but she called up later in the day to remind of how special I am and how important I am in her life.
It's nice to be reminded that I have friends that care about me. Thank you, everybody.
Okay, so my day started off with a card and present from the in laws. A lovely little jewel box with a black kitty brooch. Very pretty.
Next I went to get my ultra-sound done on my liver. While she was taking pictures, and in between breathing, I managed to get a bit more information. The "mass" is only 2 cm (3/4 of an inch) and at the top right tip of my liver. She gave me the name, but I dismissed it as I knew I'd never remember it, never mind pronounce it. Apparently, it's basically like a birthmark. The only reason it's being noticed now is because the ultra-sound equipment is getting so much better. That and I must have breathed out at the right moment, because she said that when I took a deep breath and held it (which is how they usually like to look at things) it disappeared. There you go.
Let's just say that I'm not worried.
Dona and I went to Ricki's for breakfast and watched Curious George on TV. (They switched it to CNN just as we were leaving - right in the middle of Clifford, the Big Red Dog!)
I came home and piddled around for a bit before going to my next appointment. I was driving to St. Albert to visit a psychic. He came highly recommended by a friend, Princess Mum, and I've always, always wanted to try one. I was starting to get nervous as the appointment got closer though, and wondered if I was wasting my money. I refused to chicken out though. I wonder if I should have.
I admit to having very mixed feelings about the session. Mostly because the first thing he did was tell me that I didn't believe I was beautiful. (Well, shit, I could have told him that!) And he harped on it for a few minutes until I wanted to defend myself. I've come a very long way in terms of my self image. He was talking to me like I hadn't changed at all. He then spent the next, oh, 40 minutes?, telling me that Jade was not my soul mate, and although he was a very nice guy, I just look around for somebody who could make me happier. He insisted that he wasn't trying to get me to break up with him, but I should consider other options. Apparently this is why I came to see him. I wanted to know about my love life.
Uh, no. Hadn't occurred to me to ask about it. I had been quite content with my relationship. Yes, I knew it wasn't perfect, but it was WORKING and we were working on it. So there.
Oh, yes, and he said that I had built a beautiful wall, but that I had to tear it down. I knew that already too. Jade told me.
So ... most of the session was gone and he finally started to get into the things that I wanted to know about. Since there was little time left, he kinda rushed through it, so I had no chance to ask questions or get better details.
My spirit guide is a Warrior from the Roman era. I can call him "Gus", so I figure that his full name may be Augustus, or Octavius, or something like that. He has gorgeous black hair. I wanted to know what colour his eyes were, but never got the chance to ask.
My spirit animal is a Deer. (EH?!?) and I'm a Water person. I have hot hands (which I assume means I channel a lot of energy) and I am a Healer. I should stay with Horses. I should go ahead with the dream of having my own horse business. I got the idea that I should stick with race horses, but he never said specifically. He told me about the Law of Attraction and how to use it to get more money. I'll try it.
Past lives - he surprised me a bit here. Didn't mention any that I thought he would, but then he only mentioned a few out of 25. (Jade has been here 21 times - I told him I was older). He said that I was an Egyptian Seer; a very beautiful Brazilian who basically lived in a bikini because I was always swimming in the ocean; a gypsy; and a Spanish woman who had been horribly raped, which resulted in two children. There's more to that, but I'm not going into it here.
Jade and I have been married three times before. Once, he was the woman and I had hired a secretary who turned out to be my 'soul mate'. I guess I worked late lots in that life time. (I think he said that this was in the 1800's and it was still "okay" to have a mistress on the side. This might explain why Jade likes to tease me about having one.) Once he was my brother, and another time we had been in a war together ... and died together.
I left the session still feeling hungry because the areas that I really wanted covered and explained were so rushed. I went over the conversation in my head. Especially the tirade about how Jade won't make me as happy as I could be. The more I thought about it, the angrier I got. In fact, I'm still angry. Angry enough that it's leaking a bit into the other facets of my life - like work. (I'll have to apologise to my co-worker on Monday.)
This has not thrown me "off" of going again. But I think I'd like to change the circumstances a bit. It kinda felt like he was reaching sometimes. Guessing. Maybe because I was trying my best not to give him any real clues, so that I couldn't convince myself it was fake. Maybe because my shields are really good. He contradicted himself a few times, but mostly when he was rushed and not thinking about his words.
I honestly think I'd like to go back, but that I would try to control the conversation a bit more. Oh, yeah, that's the other thing. My masculine side is way too strong. I'm too much of a tomboy. "One of the guys." (Can you say Betty Cooper?) I need to work on my Feminine side he says. I need to go out, buy a bunch of lingerie and learn to be seductive, romantic ... a woman.
Um, ouch?
He also accused me of being a work-aholic. (BWAHAHAHAHAHA!) Well, you can't work the races and have time for much else!
My grandparents (from both sides) are with me alot and love me very much, although they don't know me very well. My paternal grandfather keeps berating me for being stubborn. (EH?!?) One of the "visitors" that I had seen (and had cornered Jade once) turned out to be a great-great Aunt, but I don't know which one.
AGH! It's horribly mind boggling and frustrating. I got more questions than answers out of that session. And it bothered me that he didn't try to See my Animal Spirit, he looked it up on a chart on a book. (EH?!?) Definitely was NOT expecting that answer. He said he could see a lot of cat in me, but I was a Deer. Also, I needed a dog for healing. A big dog. (EH!?!?!) He said that I found other people's dogs annoying because they weren't mine. (Okay, that made me laugh inside because that's what I'd been saying to Jade about children) He knew that I had lost a child, but he seemed surprised that the father was Jade. He also mentioned that I would name the third one Sally Lou. I almost fell out of my chair laughing. I told him it would take a pretty strong influence for that name to be used. He said he was bad with names and that maybe I'd just use Sally.
Maybe. But I doubt it. I'm partial to Sorcha, myself.
Anyway, today my co-worker wished me a Happy Birthday and told me that she missed my presence at work yesterday. A few minutes later I watched a horse go ass over tea kettle as it fell out of its stall. The lead shank that held her came apart as she pulled on it. I laughed at her a bit as I made sure she didn't run out of the barn. It was only as I was putting her on the Equi-ciser that I realised my finger was bleeding. I slapped a band-aid on it until I got home. By then, it was really hurting. Swollen, stiff, and very sore to the touch.
Dammit, I broke my finger. (Just a minor fracture, we think.) Gonna give that horse a piece of my mind on Monday, that's for sure.
So! that was my birthday. I'm waiting to see if Jade is still taking me to dinner tonight, but I'll bet money that he won't. *sigh* It's a family joke for a reason, folks!
Sweet Dreams!
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Your Parade is Raining on My Day!!
13:34
What kind of a jack-a-nape arranges for a parade to happen around lunchtime?? The hottest, and the busiest, time of day??
*sigh*Nothing like running a couple blockades to make the day special!
The new job is so-so. Things have slowly caught up to themselves and I'm only working 3-4 hours a day. When I had a chance, I told them my wage expectations. Poor lady almost fell out of her chair. Apparently, she doesn't even pay her daughter the amount that I told her. (Oh, sure, like it's my fault that her daughter couldn't negotiate a better contract?)
Anyway, we were supposed to go over things on payday when she gave me my cheque. We didn't. Her daughter (my supervisor/forewoman/insert-title-here) was going to Rome on the evening of payday, and they left for a family lunch. Looking at the cheque that had been left behind for me, they have settled on paying me $8/hr. That's not a whole lot, but it's not minimum wage either. I can also afford it a bit more since it's actually so close to home. Hours are low right now, but I'm told that things should get busier soon. We'll see. I've already told the boss that I would be showing up an hour early so that we could exercise the horses on the equi-ciser while it was still fairly cool out. (Hopefully it'll be cooler than today. Above 20C (68F) before 10:00 this morning! UGH!!) I've also told my co-worker that I intended to get some more time in each afternoon by making sure that I groomed the three horses that are going to compete in about a month. Told her they were going to shine like thoroughbreds. ;)
I've decided to buy a few more equipment items for myself. A couple new curry combs, some hoof paint, and a shavings fork. I like having my own stuff and I'll eventually need it for my own place anyhow.
I'm also devising a plan to get a PT job with the hardware store that sells the barn kits. (Like garage kits, but more expensive.) I don't know that the employee discount will make MUCH of a difference, but any help is good help. Right?
Speaking of help, we've gotta get those trees cleared first. Any volunteers? We'll supply you with food and drink (non-alcoholic) and we'll even let you use the bathroom. ;) You know where to find me. I'll be cleaning around the pond area next weekend if it's a bit cooler. Already have one volunteer for that too! (Thanks, Lynne! Bring the kid and stay for fire!) We'll even return your kids to you undamaged!
Anyway, about the job. It's not jumpers this time. I'm working on a breeding farm that trains cutters. So, it's quarter horses and I'm surrounded by babies. I love this job environment!! Miss the thoroughbreds though. (Wahh! Pepper!!)
I have to get my truck taken in pretty soon. The air conditioner doesn't work. Again. Crummy thing. Was sweating badly enough while driving it the other day that it was getting into my eyes. Do you know how hard it is to drive like that??
Spot is driving me insane with his attempts to get outside. He never lasts long when I finally agree though. He's just too hot when he's out there. He lasts about ten minutes - tops, then he comes inside, cools off and the begging and demanding starts all over again. Little rat.
We're going golfing tomorrow. 06:48 tee time. I'd rather be sleeping, I'm sure. Ah, well ... maybe it'll rain a bit tonight and things will cool off a little bit for tomorrow and I can get some planting done! Only a little left to go! Already have nice blooms on a few things!
Speaking of lovelies! Dona and Wayne found an early birthday present for me, while they were out at a greenhouse. they were going through the roses when Dona spotted one pot with a familiar name on it. Mine. It was even spelled correctly. How's that for a surprise! Apparently, it's a very popular rose too. The one she saw, and bought, was the very last one at that greenhouse.
I feel special.
Okay, some of you may recall the strange affair of the Mass on my Liver. I finally arranged for a doctor's appointment to arrange for an ultrasound appointment to take a peek at it. Guess what day they gave me? My birthday. Thanks, guys.
I've told Jade that I can't decide between Applebee's or Red Lobster for my birthday dinner. Chances are, we'll do neither. We'll see. Guess it depends on if it's just us or if the parents are involved, eh?
Trying to get some friends over to have a weenie/mallow roast on the Saturday following my birthday, but there doesn't seem to be much enthusiasm for it. Feels like people have better things to do with their time, you know? Betcha Shorty shows. He's never failed to show. Once he was the only person that did.
*sigh*
I'm such a loved and popular person, eh?
Hope it cools down soon ... I'm losing plants. Need rain in the tanks too! Guess I'll have to try to help it rain ... I'll send Jade out to wash his truck! LOL!
Sweet Dreams!
What kind of a jack-a-nape arranges for a parade to happen around lunchtime?? The hottest, and the busiest, time of day??
*sigh*Nothing like running a couple blockades to make the day special!
The new job is so-so. Things have slowly caught up to themselves and I'm only working 3-4 hours a day. When I had a chance, I told them my wage expectations. Poor lady almost fell out of her chair. Apparently, she doesn't even pay her daughter the amount that I told her. (Oh, sure, like it's my fault that her daughter couldn't negotiate a better contract?)
Anyway, we were supposed to go over things on payday when she gave me my cheque. We didn't. Her daughter (my supervisor/forewoman/insert-title-here) was going to Rome on the evening of payday, and they left for a family lunch. Looking at the cheque that had been left behind for me, they have settled on paying me $8/hr. That's not a whole lot, but it's not minimum wage either. I can also afford it a bit more since it's actually so close to home. Hours are low right now, but I'm told that things should get busier soon. We'll see. I've already told the boss that I would be showing up an hour early so that we could exercise the horses on the equi-ciser while it was still fairly cool out. (Hopefully it'll be cooler than today. Above 20C (68F) before 10:00 this morning! UGH!!) I've also told my co-worker that I intended to get some more time in each afternoon by making sure that I groomed the three horses that are going to compete in about a month. Told her they were going to shine like thoroughbreds. ;)
I've decided to buy a few more equipment items for myself. A couple new curry combs, some hoof paint, and a shavings fork. I like having my own stuff and I'll eventually need it for my own place anyhow.
I'm also devising a plan to get a PT job with the hardware store that sells the barn kits. (Like garage kits, but more expensive.) I don't know that the employee discount will make MUCH of a difference, but any help is good help. Right?
Speaking of help, we've gotta get those trees cleared first. Any volunteers? We'll supply you with food and drink (non-alcoholic) and we'll even let you use the bathroom. ;) You know where to find me. I'll be cleaning around the pond area next weekend if it's a bit cooler. Already have one volunteer for that too! (Thanks, Lynne! Bring the kid and stay for fire!) We'll even return your kids to you undamaged!
Anyway, about the job. It's not jumpers this time. I'm working on a breeding farm that trains cutters. So, it's quarter horses and I'm surrounded by babies. I love this job environment!! Miss the thoroughbreds though. (Wahh! Pepper!!)
I have to get my truck taken in pretty soon. The air conditioner doesn't work. Again. Crummy thing. Was sweating badly enough while driving it the other day that it was getting into my eyes. Do you know how hard it is to drive like that??
Spot is driving me insane with his attempts to get outside. He never lasts long when I finally agree though. He's just too hot when he's out there. He lasts about ten minutes - tops, then he comes inside, cools off and the begging and demanding starts all over again. Little rat.
We're going golfing tomorrow. 06:48 tee time. I'd rather be sleeping, I'm sure. Ah, well ... maybe it'll rain a bit tonight and things will cool off a little bit for tomorrow and I can get some planting done! Only a little left to go! Already have nice blooms on a few things!
Speaking of lovelies! Dona and Wayne found an early birthday present for me, while they were out at a greenhouse. they were going through the roses when Dona spotted one pot with a familiar name on it. Mine. It was even spelled correctly. How's that for a surprise! Apparently, it's a very popular rose too. The one she saw, and bought, was the very last one at that greenhouse.
I feel special.
Okay, some of you may recall the strange affair of the Mass on my Liver. I finally arranged for a doctor's appointment to arrange for an ultrasound appointment to take a peek at it. Guess what day they gave me? My birthday. Thanks, guys.
I've told Jade that I can't decide between Applebee's or Red Lobster for my birthday dinner. Chances are, we'll do neither. We'll see. Guess it depends on if it's just us or if the parents are involved, eh?
Trying to get some friends over to have a weenie/mallow roast on the Saturday following my birthday, but there doesn't seem to be much enthusiasm for it. Feels like people have better things to do with their time, you know? Betcha Shorty shows. He's never failed to show. Once he was the only person that did.
*sigh*
I'm such a loved and popular person, eh?
Hope it cools down soon ... I'm losing plants. Need rain in the tanks too! Guess I'll have to try to help it rain ... I'll send Jade out to wash his truck! LOL!
Sweet Dreams!
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