Going to Fairmont Hot Springs for a week was just what I needed. We soaked in the springs two to three times a day. We took walks, we had therapy for couples (1/2 hr massage and 1/2 hr soak in "mud"), we went trail riding, we golfed, we hiked. One morning, we sat on the grounds and watched a young doe pick through the flower beds. She ate for about forty-five minutes before she was chased away by staff. Pictures will, of course, be coming but I'm not sure whose Facebook account will be used - Jade's or mine.
Jade was very proud of me on that trip. He said it was the closest that I ever came to relaxing. When we came back, I was actually happy. It's quite an uplifting experience, being happy. I highly recommend it to others. This lasted about two glorious days ... then hormones kicked in. (Changing my prescription probably didn't help at all.) I'm waiting for them to go away, in hopes that the happiness will come back, but I'm not sure that will be allowed to happen.
Dona seems to be in a snit. She's finally stopped trying to control everything that happens but she's being really snotty about it. Very high school. Guess some people never grow out of it. (I'm not even sure that she went!) And, of course, she's making herself miserable again. Which means everybody else is too. *sigh* Thank goodness the in-laws will be going for their own holiday soon. Thanksgiving won't get here fast enough.
Wedding plans are going slowly, as usual, but there's no other way for it to go right now.
- The dress is almost paid for ... just a little more to go.
- A corset style has been chosen. I admit I was hoping for something a bit more intimate looking, but at least this will work and can be worn again for other times.
- We've narrowed down the location and it looks like it's going to be local after all.
- We've got some strong ideas about the catering menu and I think we've decided on who we'll hire.
- I've chosen a maid's design that's fairly simple and inexpensive - it'll just be a matter of ordering it. It's just a matter of deciding how many maids I'll actually have and confirming their roles.
- I'm still keeping my eye out for the tiara design and shoes - if you have ideas, please use the comments section below.
- Soon I'll be bending my mind around invitation designs ... that should be fun!
Meanwhile, I've been doing some job hunting. I'm so broke that it's really no fun. Jade's been stressing about it a bit since the strike. It's costing us a fair bit of income. We're hoping that things have settled a bit for Monday because it's not just his job on hold, but the office hiring as well. Not that I'm sure I'm a shoe-in or anything, but the waiting is killing me. It's not the first time we've tried to get me a job where he works. It would be SO ideal to take one vehicle and pool together for gas costs. The money wouldn't be anything to sneeze at either.
I actually put an ad in the local paper in the Employment wanted section. Two weeks worth. Which sounds better than reality since the paper comes out once a week. :) But it's something. I need cash!! *sigh* I'd call in on what a few people owe me, but there's no polite way to ask and frankly, if they can't think of it themselves, then it's not worth it. I've come to the conclusion that I will never lend money again though. Every time I lend somebody money, something bad happens to me. Like losing my job, for one. (That's happened twice!) It just never seems to be worth it. Somebody seems to be trying to tell me something and I think it's time I clued in to it.
So. No more money lending. Ever. Sorry. Nothing stresses me out more than money. Especially in low figures. Except maybe Dona ... but that's a different kind of stress.
On a dull light note, I do have a small job coming up. I've been hired by the Town of Stony Plain to be a Deputy Returning Officer in their Mayoral elections next month. The money is pretty good. One very full day to get it, but I don't mind.
So, here I sit, surrounded by ... what? Half-realised dreams, struggling projects, shadowy friends, and things that won't (can't?) talk to me. Can't decide if they are holding their breath waiting or keeping their distance because they are unsure still. Frustrating. Add that to the tension from the dungeon ... yeah, happiness is going to be a goal that will have to be WORKED for! I wish I could say the move was worth it ...
I'm still hoping that it will be.
I'm not on the computer as much as I usual anymore. I've cut it down and taken up reading, and stitching again. Jade and I have also been trying to play more board games as a way of spending more time together. Last night we played "Life" ... they've changed it a bit from what it used to be. Sadly, I won. I was a millionaire by the end of the game. Sadly, because this never works in real life.
Maybe I need to change spinners ...
I feel like I'm waiting for something. Every now and then I find myself saying, "I can't wait for ..." what? What am I waiting for? Is something good in the offing? Is Happiness once again peeking around the corner, laughing as it waits for the Right Moment to come running up?
One can Dream ...
Sweet Dreams!
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