So You Think We Can Dance ...

July 25, 2010 - 18:05

Music: Does your Mother Know - ABBA (LOL!)

So ... "everybody" wants to know about my Saturday night, although I have already described it. It was a calm and peaceful day. I finished up a few small chores, and basically spent the day reading and spending time with Spot. Thought about doing some yard work, but the reading downtime felt perfect. My place hummed with contentment ...

So you are wondering about the date that I was supposed to have? That got cancelled.

We were chatting on Wednesday night, when he told me that he'd had a date with the other lady that he was in contact with. He said that there was no spark, but he thought there was something there worth giving a chance. I supported the idea. (What else could I do?) He then cancelled our date to go on another one with her. Oh. Okay ... BUT he'd call me if nothing happened with her.

Eh?!? Thanks. Now I'm a back up plan? Hmmm ...

And then he mentioned that it would have been nice to (have a roll in the hay) this Saturday ...

... Did he just say what I thought he said??

I told him that if he was coming to see me just for the sex, then he was coming over for the wrong reasons. Period. No contest. The chat petered off from there ... and we haven't talked much since although he keeps trying to get me chatting.

Of course, I was upset about his comment and, being late in the evening, I sent a text to Jade. Just a simple, "I need a hug." I didn't think he'd be awake. He was and he demanded to know why I was crying. Damn my honesty! I wish I had lied. What a guilt trip I was given! Apparently, it was a betrayal for me to consider dating while he's (he says) not ready to date yet because he still loves me.

Granted, I'm probably not over him enough to be dating others, but I'm damn tired of being alone. What am I supposed to do, remain celibate expect for his visit twice a year?? There's no point in sending texts or e-mails about this to discuss. Chat might be okay, but we need to discuss this face to face. He's going to visit a friend in Nanaimo next month, and he's going to swing down to me ... and we'll get this settled at last. If I could get him away from his mother, he'd be worth saving. He's a good guy when she doesn't have her claws into him. Instant prick when she does.

Anyway, that's something to deal with if it happens. I'm contemplating whether or not to continue e-Harmony. This kind of turned me off ... especially when he pointed out that his profile's "never smokes" refers to CIGARETTES. He likes cigars and pipes. Erm ... I'm very allergic. Which is why I'm looking for a non-smoker. Thanks for lying, Mr. Honesty is Very Important. :P

Meanwhile, I'm really connecting with my property, but I can't afford the high rent. My friends keep pointing out other places to me, but I'm on a lease here. Can't leave until October ... so that's two months to pay on my own. Ouch. Well, maybe rent can be renegotiated ... The property needs a lot of work, maybe I can bargain with that.

Still waiting for visits! No competitions coming up, but a few gigs that you can watch and enjoy! Fall Fair is August 28 ... Let me lure you from the cities with the calming influence of my island. It's a Fantasy waiting to happen!

Sweet Dreams!