You Can Go Home Again ... Honest

June 27, 2011 - 16:42

Mood: Calm ... Peaceful, even
Music: Who Wants to Live Forever? - QUEEN, baby!
Thought of the Day: Your home reflects your inner self. That is the fine line between clutter and cozy, not the quantity of items you own.

I've been puttering around the house. Moving this, adjusting that ... tossing something away, declaring another to be donated ... and I sudden;y surprised myself with an urge to sing. I felt I was being asked. And I burst out into a song that I hadn't even been thinking of. Thanks, Albert. Miss you too.

So, singing and chair bopping aside, I felt like writing. I'm feeling like things are good right now and so I said ... 'Why not?' ... so here I am.

I feel so good today ... which is a relief because the past few days have been heavy and horrible. I think I'm reflecting Mom's feelings, and not my own though. It does take me a bit to shake it all off, but it's definitely easier when I'm away from her. Granted, she has some troubles in her life right now ... money is running a bit tight, but seriously, she should have seen that coming for a while now. My flighty mother. Her Chinese horoscope is a horse ... well, she has the flight part down pat. But I'm not letting her run away from, or ignore, her troubles. She's going to learn how to deal with them.

She is on the right track. While I feel both amused, and some trepidation, at her forays into the online dating scene, it has forced a big issue with her. Let's just say that my self-esteem is inherited. Which is why I'm so screwed up myself ... I have a fantastic self image. I should be healthy! :) Either way, she's working on it. The saying goes that you can't trust others to love you if you can't love yourself ... and she knows I'm right. She's watching me live it. I'm a much stronger person because of it too. Which would be to my benefit if I wasn't in love still with somebody who's mother is a manipulative energy vampire. Poor thing.

So! Beautiful outside. I think we are done with rain for a little bit. Despite the haze of ... something ... smoke? floating about the atmosphere, it's gorgeous outside. In fact, I'm going to go open all the windows. :)

~ A little later~

17:30
Okay, so I realised what time it was and got supper started. We had purchased a large package of drumsticks, and, for some strange reason, we hadn't split them up. So I have to make the whole package. O.o! Yup. Nineteen drumsticks. Half will be breaded and half will have sauce on them. I'm going to make KD (the kind made with cauliflower fibre) and a boatload of mixed vegies. Can you say LEFTOVERS? LOL! I knew you could!

Mom came home and I sent her downstairs to work out. She can't escape me. Mwahahahahaha!

The place is starting to shape up nicely for me ... I have PLANTS in the house! It's wonderful! I want more, but I don't think Mom is ready for them yet. :)

OH! I'm so excited, I almost forgot! LOL!

I was looking at the business cards for PartyLite. I'm going to need some for the trade show and I've been wishing for some anyway. So I looked at the people on the official PL web site. What a crappy deal. Then I remembered the cards one of the ladies had at the last meeting ... So I hunted up the site for that (made easier by FB, thank you!) OMFG! <-- (That's Oh, My Freakin' Goodness!, y'all) I came out with an order for a thousand cards, a hundred magnets (that match the cards), a sticky pad, AND a business card holder ... all for under eighty bucks! AND I got to choose my design, what I wanted on it, where I wanted it ... I chose the delivery I was willing to pay (cheap and slow, but it will get here in time.) I can't wait! Happyhappyhappyhappy!

SUPPERTIME!

18:38

Nummy. I'm a very good cook. I'm looking forward to cooking some of the things I earned while working in the kitchen at the marina on Pender. I was good.

Anyway, I have a nice full tummy and Mom is begging me to send her some virtual gifts in a game we are playing. So ...

20:09
The urge to write is dimming ... so I'll get out what I can. Aren't Gemini's great?

They say that home is where your heart is, but I've also heard that home is in your head. That way it's always with you.  I like this idea, but it's incorrect as well. A bad head-space can keep you out of sorts and uncomfortable in your own head, and make you feel lost ... homeless. But there's hope ... because you can go home again ... you'll be a different person, and home may not be the exact same, but you can find the same comfort that you once knew before. To me, that's what "going back home" means.

I'm almost there ... :)

Sweet Dreams!