Mood: Saddened, but marching forward
Music: To Make You Feel My Love - Garth Brooks
Thought of the Day: They say the first step to getting help is to admit that you need it. I really should wait for people to say that they need it ... or expect it, at least.
Resolutions update ... How am I doing?
My 2011 Resolutions ...
- To get a handle on my T-shirt addiction, and improve my wardrobe. I'm going to try and get away from the full time jeans/t-shirt look.
- I'm going to be financially stable, if not comfortable. (Independently wealthy would be nice, but ... baby steps ... baby steps ...)
- Lose weight/tone up/be a little healthier
- Find Love. That Somebody who wants Me and wants me to want Him back.
- Be Happy.
Hmm ... #1 ... haven't done much to improve it, but I've found the styles that I'm looking for. On the bright side, I haven't purchased a new T-shirt for myself in ages.
#2 ... I consider this to be basically achieved. I have savings in a couple accounts and my term deposit is coming along nicely. Looking forward to Yule this year. It's not as comfortable as I'd like, but I'm well on my way as long as my situation doesn't change for worse.
#3 ... Also well on my way. As reported earlier, I've lost inches. I'm happy with myself and look forward to seeing how much farther I can go.
#4 ... Still holding my breath ... Maybe?
#5 ... It comes and goes, but even in the low times, I recognise that I'm happier now than I have been over the past couple of years.
Overall Summary ... I'd like to see it progress further, but I consider this year's list to be a success. I haven't given up on any of them, but have seen some wonderful achievements within it. I'm very proud myself and look forward to taking these steps even further.
So why am I unhappy in the face of such positive motions? Part of it is the wicked mood swings ... Stupid pendulum. Part of it is that I'm wondering if Facebook is a good place for me. I've been told off/scolded once again for being me, in a way. I've been removing a lot of people on my Friend list lately too ... people that aren't a benefit to my life, people that I don't think I'm benefitting either. You know, the ones that add you and then you never really hear from them again. I've said that I don't want to be a statistic, a notch on somebody's post, and just there to make their list look bigger. I've let a few people slide on that, but it's time to 'clean house". In a way, I feel guilty, but I remind myself that it's just Facebook. Seriously. It's not the end all, be all, of social lives. Or, rather, it shouldn't be. Cutting back on my list keeps my ability to keep up with friends and family and stay somewhat active in their lives so much easier. Perhaps, in time, I will eventually get rid of it. I'm tired of people taking my comments out of context because they don't know me, they don't know how to read, or whatever their excuse is. It does very little for my PartyLite business. There are a few people that I use FB for to keep in contact, but, really, FB is taking over my life. I could use my time better. I could be writing.
So I'll be cutting back on the time that I spend there, I think. No more checking in at work, unless I need to send a message. Connection is slow as heck anyway. :) I'll use the laptop to watch movies, or to write a bit. I think there is a word processor on it ... LOL! Healthier ... Goes back to Resolution #3, even if that wasn't the interpretation I had intended, but it works. It's a good thing.
Here, on my journals entries, I don't have to worry so much about being myself, and saying what I think. But then, you've all been warned. At least, you have been if you have been with me for a while. As far as I know, I only have a couple readers ... I don't mind though. I'm here for me, really. These words are my thoughts, told from my point of view. My therapy. I've had people in the past get offended at my words and I have to remind them of the rules. If you don't know them, let me know and I will repeat them or direct you to the proper entry.
SNACK ATTACK!!
That's better. Still feeling a bit restless though. Maybe I'll go and work out a bit downstairs later, even though it's my day off from it. We'll see. I probably should, as my diet gets wonky when the groceries get low. I've been overdoing the grains and meats. I have to be a bit more watchful because I'm not visiting the nutritionist weekly anymore. This will be a two week stretch ... so I have to be a good girl, or it'll go back to weekly. Or I'll prove that I can't be trusted and go back to weekly. Still, I'm not sure how long this program is supposed to last, so I'll try to be a good girl and wean myself away from supervision. :) LOL!
I've been reading Jennifer Love Hewitt's book, The Day I Shot Cupid, and I'm enjoying it. She writes a lot like me, I think, and that gives me hope for my own ambitions.
Speaking of ambitions, I have things that I need to get done today. So ... off with me. :)
Sweet Dreams!
(Rolling credits ... Music: Good Ol' Boys - Waylon Jennings)
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