Drained, Pained And Outa Rhyme

07:38

So, I was sitting here ... staring at my screen. Wanting to write but not having the energy to do so. Things have happened that I've wanted to write about but I've never found the time or energy to do so. Now I have it and I'm staring at the Dashboard ... waiting to shift into Drive.

Not that Neutral is a bad thing ... if you don't plan on actually going anywhere.

08:04
Okay, I found the "perk up" I needed to at least get some energy flowing. I moved a few things in the kitchen. Namely, that forsaken stupid green glass bottle that Dona uses to hold macaroni noodles. She took my beloved sugar and flour jars and put them in a place where they can't be seen (beside the fridge and behind a Tupperware container!) and replaced it with that ugly green bottle. I hate that bottle. Yes, I said 'hate'. The first morning I had to make Jade's lunch in front of it, I almost pushed it off the counter. If you wish to destroy a thing, then you must hate a thing. I very much want to destroy it. Maybe that's what Dona was counting on because she knows I don't like it and she agrees that it's ugly.

Bitch.

I'd quit my job just to remind her that I live here and this is my house upstairs.

Actually, I'm thinking of quitting my job anyway. It's a pretty good place, but I'm bored outa my tree. I became a Certified Groom to work with the horses, not to be a stall mucker. The amount of work they want two people to do in a day is just right - as long as there are no interruptions, delays or anything else that could impede our progress. They really need three people working every day - not just one day a week. Especially when the barn is full! (26 horses) There are three of us right now, sharing the work week, but one person is leaving on the 11th. I do feel sorry for this farm though because they keep hiring people that never show up.

How can people do that? How can they live with themselves? If you don't want the job, then SAY SO! One of the girls kept calling and calling, letting us know that she wanted the job. She'd had her try-out day, and she still liked the job. So they called her in and told her she could start. She never showed. Another girl, somebody who had worked at the track last summer, came for an interview, waved to my supervisor as she left and said, 'See you Saturday!' Never showed up.

That's two out of five people that have been hired since I got there ... another two were guys who each had a sudden "family emergency" and just never came back. Well, the excuse stinks, but at least they made the effort of communication.

Anyway, I'm not enjoying the job like I thought I would. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure things would improve with better weather, and I'm glad for the chance to brush up on driving tractors and what-not, and the horses - for the most part - are great. But I'm terribly bored. I'm not learning anything and I'm working long hours without any overtime. Yes, the five days a week is wonderful, and yes, I'll get time and a half this Sunday for working a stat, and yes, they allow two weeks a year for holidays ... but I'm not just a mucker.

Jade has been encouraging me to write to Dragonlady and let her know that I would be available part time. I'm not so sure that she will go for it. She doesn't like it when help is not available for races. Still, I miss the horses (Pepper!!!!) and I'd like to offer her the opportunity to tell me off herself instead of my giving up from the get-go. Hopefully, we'll get things done here quickly and I can get the job going here. I would LOVE to work from home. I just have to get my ass into gear and find out how the dickens I'm going to pay for it all. I know there is a grant for new businesses available, I just don't know how to get it.

I feel like I've typed pages, but I look up and it's only paragraphs ...

Lynne's surgery went very well, although the recovery is in question. She keeps trying to rush to work. Granted, she needs the money to support herself as EI won't give her any money until AFTER she's back at work. That's just wrong. I was bugging her about her need to exaggerate with "nobody" and "everybody" and other widespread terms, just to turn around and say, 'Oh, I didn't mean you!' Well, she got me back. Saucy wench. Here's what she wrote (with minor editing)

((DISCLAIMER))
Any and all reference to people in my life using any pronouns of any type
eg: Intensive or reflexive pronouns eg: themselves, herself
Indefinite pronouns eg: everything, everyone
Relative or Interrogative pronouns eg: whom, whomever
Objective pronouns eg: you, it
Subjective pronouns eg: you, she, they

should in no way be assumed to include or any way imply the inclusion of LEA.

For example: If I say "no one in my life understands me" it should not be assumed that LEA is lumped in with all the other people in my life.

Any reference to LEA in my blog will be direct and will use PROPER NOUNS although the assumption can be made that if a subjective pronoun is used in the same sentence as LEA'S name, that I am, indeed, speaking of her.

Otherwise exclusion of her person is implied.

I do, however, reserve the right to freely use colorful metaphors, simile's and hyperbole and maintain, at all times, creative license.

This rule is absolute and expires when I die.

SO MOTE IT BE.

I love you, Lea, but half the time I don't know whether to hug you or slap you around. (Both could be fun..hehe)

Wench! I can't be the only one who takes offense at the lumping. She's just making fun of me because I'm the only one who posted a protest.

Heh. I wasn't even sure that she would allow it ...

My brother has finally started divorce proceedings. I wonder what kicked his butt into gear. Maybe he was just tired of it all.

My new T-shirt says: "I have PMS and ESP ... That means I'm a bitch who knows everything!" I love this shirt!! It's just unfortunate that it's pink!

I found a lovely top and skirt to wear to my god-brother's wedding next month! I just hope that it's still there when I have time to go back and get it! Beautiful neutral tone - somewhere between ivory and taupe, but I could be remembering it wrong. And it will look good with jeans or with a tank top/T-shirt, so it can be considered somewhat casual. (Of course, anything that I can't wear to the barn is considered "good" but to the rest of the world, it'll be somewhat casual.)

So I have until Sunday to do to the house anything I want. I have plans to move things around in the kitchen, but my mother gave me the idea of surprising them by painting a room. The bedroom would be grand, but it's huge. I'll never get it done by myself. Not in a day. The hall bathroom now ... that might be possible. I wonder if I'll actually do it. It's tempting ...

Sweet Dreams!