(aka Things Will Get Worse When on the Road to Getting Better ... But, Stay Your Course, It's Just a Test!)
(aka Where Have All the Aliens Gone?? Darn Vampires!)
January 16, 2010 - 22:09
Scent: Burning cedar
Song: Oh, What a Feeling! - Crowbar
(Closed my eyes and picked at random. Good choice!)
I am having such a feel good day today that I had to write quickly before something could come up. I know that there will be a low coming soon after this happy high, but I want to enjoy it while it's here!
Some good things happened today. I'm being loaned a car from an out-of-town neighbour, so I have transport! I had a response from one of the posters I hung up yesterday. AND a neighbour wants to have a party! And two more want to make orders! Whee!
Song: Bring on the Rain! LOL!
Another good choice since it's going to rain for the next few days and I'm feeling perky about everything!
Also, came across a Help Wanted sign ... and upon inquiring found that it was for a Baker. Immediate employment is tempting, but the hours are not what I want. 18:00 - Midnight ... with the possibility of some day shifts. Erm ... no. Everytime I take a night job, the PartyLite goes to pot, which is one of the reasons that it hasn't gone anywhere. I have a good chance to do something with it now. I want to keep that opportunity rolling.
But! The lady at the Hardware store remembers me and my resume and is still interested in hiring me ... so I'm not putting all my eggs into one basket, so to speak. Poet's Cove has competition for my abilities! Admittedly, I'd LOVE the Poet's job - it's everything that I want! It plays to my strengths, and it offers learning opportunity and personal challenge! But I'm in a bad place for cash if orders don't come through with the PartyLite and I'll go with whomever calls first and offers a good wage ... and a dental plan. LOL!
Things just feel SO positive for me right now. Even my heart has stopped breaking. Of course, that could be because the pieces can't get any smaller, but I would also like to think that it means I'm ready to move on to somebody who deserves me. Somebody good for me. A good looking guy who loves me for me ... with soft hair that I can run my fingers though. Blonde would be nice, but I'm open minded. ;) Black hair would be good too. Green eyes. Sensitive, yet strong.
Hmmm ... I think I dreamed of him a couple of times. Really strongly.
I guess we'll see who the lucky guy is ...
I have to confess something. I'm honestly considering staying on the island. If nothing else, it gives all of my great friends a place to visit on holiday. Seriously, I'm in an environmentally good place here. Physically, mentally, and mystically. I'm finally healing for the first time in years. It also helps with making sure that I break a bad habit ... Jade. Going home will make me "convenient" again. I don't want to be "convenient" in that way. I'm worth more than that. Time to prove it.
Now, this isn't solid yet. Not written in stone. But I think it's a good direction for me right now. And if anybody needs some of the same, well, the water's warm and prices here aren't all that bad. Provincial tax is going to take some getting used to ... but it's a small price for peace of mind.
I'm open to arguments for coming home ... but it may take longer than orignally planned. For one thing, Joyce and Albert are going to be in Vancouver longer than anticipated. There has been a development in that they have found a growth on Albert's kidney and they have to decide what to do about that - if anything needs to be done. Once that is out of the way, he'll be back on the list for a heart transplant again. The pump is doing wonders for him already and his recovery is surprisingly speedy. I'm sure that this will turn out well, but they'll be in Vancouver longer ... maybe 'til Christmas. So I have to take care of the house.
The more that I explain this path, the better I feel about it. Still, not written in stone until I talk to everybody involved but I feel that this is what's going to happen. And it will be a good thing.
I hope that my friends will find the time to come out and visit. I'll try to have space for you all. ;) Bring furniture.
Sweet Dreams!
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