Learning Again, Forgotten Things

Thursday, August 18, 2016 - 23:02

Mood: Calm, and content
Music: "Broken Wings" ~ Mr. Mister
Thought of the Day: Your heartbeat is the music of your soul. Listen and learn to dance again.

     Since the evening of Aug 8, I have felt a new inner calm. That Monday, I had a chat with Tavis. Made a few WTF comments, let him know how hurt I was with the back-stabbing, and how utterly sick it made me that I frequently heard him tell his girlfriend, 'I'm sorry, I fucked up again.' He says it more often than he thinks he does. Mostly I'm just frustrated with the unnecessary drama that's mostly in his girlfriend's imagination. I'm pretty sure that he'll forget half of what I said, since he has the memory of a goldfish, but he seemed sincere for most of it. What really floored me was when he lied to my face with a few answers, but I was tired of the whole drama thing. So, I gave him the last part of his birthday present. The first week was a relief. The second week was a little harder to keep my promise - but I'm one of the few people I know that keeps their promises. Stubborn too. :) So, I've been toe-ing the line, although he's acting like nothing happened. On one hand, it ticks me off, but on the other hand, it slightly amuses me. Whatever. Just whatever.

Music: "Sounds of Silence" - Simon & Garfunkle

     My new inner calm has been helping me feel grounded and centered. I have been stepping forward and visiting friends and family. I created a Journey Jar, and took my first road trip yesterday! What's a Journey Jar? Well, I needed an outlet for my stress and anxieties. I was thinking of the pictures that I used to take as I walked around Pender Island. I realised that Alberta had a lot of weird landmarks that I had never heard of, and a couple that I had heard of, but had never seen. So I decided that I would make a list of the ones that I could drive to, visit, and return home in one day. At the cost of a tank of gas, and a meal or two, it would be a rewarding trip. I could take a friend, or go alone as I needed. I would be a part-time Day Tripper. LOL! Only one trip in and I'm pleased with the results so far. Wish I could show you my decorated Jar. Can't wait for the next trip! I plan to take a trip once a month, whether I need it or not, to help me stay balanced.

     I've also created a Crafter's Group on FB. It's another excuse to get some friends together and gab while we relax with projects. We'll use the club page for ideas and encouragement!

     I've applied for work now that my medical leave has officially ended. I think I have a handle on things for now. I'm also working on trying to get back into school, if it's not too late. If it is, I'll be saving like crazy until next year. Maybe I'll be allowed to take a few computer courses towards my goal. I'm staying positive about this. The course I want should open a lot more doors for me than I might normally see with a lesser education. I'm also considering starting my own business, so my course will go towards that as well. I need to talk with Shepherd and see if I can pick up some business tips. ;) I'm really excited about being my own boss. I just have to narrow-down what would be a successful product in my small town. I've written down scads of ideas and scenarios. Still a work in progress. I'm also eye-balling Jamberry, but I'm hesitant to do another DSA. I've heard good things about it from down-to-earth, practical people, so we'll see.

     I think I have a good foundation set with these steps made. I can do this Life thing. Nut first, I need some sleep!

Sweet Dreams!