So I updated my site to the Beta ... we'll see if it's actually better or not. Eventually, I'll get my own space and not have to rely on these kind of sites for my things. I'll just start from scratch. I'm not afraid to start over.
Speaking of which, I still haven't heard anything fom Lynne, so I don't know if she's read my e-mails or my entry from earlier or what. I tried to peek at her Livejournal, but either I can't read without my account (I cancelled it) or she's blocked me. I'd like to think that she'd say something first. She always tells people that she'll talk to them and let them know why they are being blocked if she wants to block them. She still hasn't picked up my e-cards either.
It hurts to let her go. I love her like the sister I've always wanted. For a while she truly was my best friend ... but, well, I felt like I was begging for her attention, and one day I wondered why I needed to beg. She told me one day that the only way to get a hold of her is to text her phone. I thought, 'Then I'm screwed', because I can't send texts. I can only reply to them. I find it tedious anyway. Takes half an hour to say three words. I can say it faster with a stutter and a lisp.
No, she doesn't need me anymore. I wish her love and happiness and all the good things that she needs and deserves. If she, or Erin, ever needs me for something important, all she has to do is call and I'll be there. Yeah, I wish her the best.
And I wish I was sure that I didn't still need her.
Not much to Life if you don't learn to move on, right? So, I'll move on. But she'll always be in my heart and my thoughts. Red wine, candles, my pendant, Mustangs, cemeteries, and mint chapstick ... these and more remind me of her.
I sent my writings to The Green Man today. (I have to give him an important looking title so that he'll say nice things! LOL!) That nick is also a right bloody compliment too. I wonder if he'll recognise the magnitude of it from a certain angle. Anyway, I'm hoping he can offer me some insights that will help me get into the writing industry. S.O.B. lucked into a job with DC during the Con in 2006. I should have rubbed myself on him more *evil grin* ... maybe that kind of luck is catchy. Pass over some of that Irish, GM ... I think my own is too diluted to pull this off on my own.
Or do you think I could get by on charm alone? Heh. Charm and tight shirts. Watch out world!
Had another doctor's appointment today too. An impromptu one. (%&#$%&%&*!!!) Discovered that the antibiotics that I took, and actually didn't need, may have prompted another problem that requires a drug. Dammit. No more being informative. It's too damn expensive! Bad enough that I have to switch my Pills to another brand because the company that makes the ones I've been on since I was sixteen has been shorting the drugstores. Drat ... I'm so tempted to just wait it out. I don't wanna change. He wants me to wait until after my next visit from 'Jill' to take them too. HA! I'm not giving up sex for a month! I'll start them now, thank you. Not that I mind the idea of getting pregnant, but I don't think that now is a good time. ;)
Lola, honey, come to Alberta for a visit ... it's a nice place to live! We'll be in Utah on both legs of the trip, so check out the schedule to see when I'll be closest to you! *sigh* I was actually trying to avoid calling you that, but it's easier to type than Elohelae and Elly is just too close to Ellen. So there you go. Either way, you sound like a woman, and therefore confusing the masses.
Did a bit of shopping today since I was in the mall anyway. Walked out with ANOTHER piece of plastic for my wallet. *sigh* (I'd be happier if at least one of those pieces of plastic offered some sort of credit.) Bought my friend Wayne a present just in case the one I ordered doesn't come in. One for Jade and a few stocking stuffers. I thought about making gifts this year, but I won't have enough time and some of it is still packed! Besides, if I keep giving away everything I make, then I won't have anything to sell! Right?
'Nuff said!
Jade and I are in print!! In colour! *insert Snoopy dance here* Check out Issue #40 of Tarot: Witch of the Black Rose and see if you can find us! I almost missed us, actually ...
Feeling kind of restless, but not willing to start anything new ... I think I'll go play a few games on Pogo before wandering over to bed.
Sweet Dreams!
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