November 2, 2009 - 22:24
Okay, so I have the car all (or mostly) packed up for Mom to drive to her new place tomorrow. (I have to get a picture of Teddy ... he's dressed for travel!) She's a little excited, a bit anxious, and very tired of "moving"! She is also very tired of being broke - just like me.
I do wish that my brother, Michael, had waited until I was settled to be paid back the money that he lent me for this trip out here. I had been counting on the extra funds to not only pay for rent, but to make sure that I had a good head start on paying off left over bills, and buying food, etc. Now I can only hope that I get a bit from EI. Hope I don't get burned for telling the truth, but with the government you can never tell, can you?
So, arriving destitute (again) on my mother's doorstep, I found myself in a situation of needing a job asap. I called the one place that expressed interest in seeing me as soon as I arrived ... and waited for days for them to return the calls I made to them. Finally got a call back and they'd like to arrange to meet me around the 15th. Still hadn't set up an actual appointment with me though, so I'm not holding my breath.
It is NOT a good time to be looking for work here ... and I know it. But needs must, when the situation drives ... and the situation is definitely driving me to a bitter end. (Yes, I adjusted the familiar phrase, but do you have any idea how hard it is to find good solid phrases that don't mention the Devil - I character that I can't exactly us because I don't believe he exists? My one weakness is that I still say 'Go to Hell'. My defense is that even if I don't believe, they do.)
Where was I? Ah, yes ... Tomorrow morning Mom leaves and I will be left pretty much alone with the dog and 2 cats (who aren't all sure about each other yet.) No car. Bike isn't put together yet, but I've been doing alot of walking. I'm tempted to drive with Mom to the ferry and then walk home after, just to see how long it will take ... except that I KNOW it bloody far, even by car. I guesstimate about 3 hours. Maybe a bit under ...
On the other hand, I'd get some great photos in ...
We'll see how awake I am.
It really is beautiful here, but it's going to take more than beauty to make me want to stay. I don't feel like I belong here ... yet. I feel like I've stepped into somebody else's space for a bit. Like I haven't yet forged a connection to the island. I'm not grounded. I don't want to force it either ... either the island accepts me or it doesn't. I think part of the problem is that I am here in my parent's house. It might be easier if I had my own ...
Jade left for Peru today. I haven't heard from him since he tried to help me when I got lost in Vancouver. No, that's not true. He texted me a couple times after that ... but then got tied up and busy getting ready for Peru. I don't blame him for not saying something ... I know what it's like to prepare for a big trip like that. And I also know that his parents would have taken up as much of his time as possible. I sent him a note that he hopefully read before boarding the plane. I understand ... but it still stings a bit, aye?
I very much enjoyed seeing Harry Potter 6 on Samhain night ... I was afraid that I'd have to see it alone. And it was trickling out of theatres when I left the city. So I got to see it on an almost big screen, and with a loved one. (Not the loved one I wanted to see it with, but I'm not going to quibble. With Mom, I could make sure we had front row seats!!)
I miss my friends. I miss chatting with them, and doing things. I keep waiting to see if anybody will show up for a visit ... Jackie would love the photo ops, Lavender would be ecstatic (and tired, and maybe sore) with the walking work outs ... It's a great little place for a relaxing vacation for any size budget. And it only has ONE current PartyLite Rep ... me.
Big day tomorrow ... need some rest.
Sweet Dreams!
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