Dodging Aliens and Drawing the Soulless

20:15

It's difficult to draw the Soulless. Try as I might, I just can't do it very well. I don't know that any artist actually can. I think my main problem is that I have trouble giving my drawings soul. What? What the dickens am I talking about?

Faces. I can't draw faces. Not out of my head, at any rate.

I have trouble drawing characters' faces, because I'm 1) drawing from memory and 2) drawing something that doesn't quite have a soul ... yet. I have to concentrate on giving them one when I draw them ... takes forever, and I'm sure that's a part of my own soul that they've been given. But then , that's what true magic is, isn't it?

Got warm fuzzies today ... from Dona of all people. I still worry about not being able to pitch in enough and helping out financially. She pointed out that Jade had said that he doesn't want me to drive on the highways in the winter. It's not worth it, he'd said, especially since I would be out before any graders or clearing equipment and making my own trails. He can afford to keep me at home, unless I choose to try and work something locally. That just gave me a warm fuzzy. Maybe it was the way she said it.

D&D is going well, although I feel like I'm in a class full of elementary teachers because it feels like every few minutes one of the guys is shushing so that we can hear. Yeah, we talk a bit much at times, but this is supposed to be fun. Granted, it's a little slow at times because the group is so large (there's seven of us) but what's the rush? It's still amusing right now, but it's going to get annoying soon. I don't need to talked to like a child ... especially by a group of guys that are younger than I am. (No offense, Wayne, but control is your job. Don't let the control freaks get out of hand.) It's a large group; it's slow. Period. There's not much you can do to make it faster. Smoother, maybe, but not faster. Get over yourselves, guys. Let's hang on to the respect factor too, eh?

Trying to plan for San Diego 2007 and not sure at ALL how it's going to get managed. I guess it's up to Jade. Either he signs us up or he doesn't. I'd like to go ... I really would, but it personally sets me back about a month.

21:08

"Ah, I am wefweshed!"

Got a bit of Yule Shopping done today. Just a little bit. Stuffers, mostly. A lot of my gifts were ordered a few months ago and are just comin in now ... at the same time. *sigh* Say good-bye to my savings.

Crap.

Jade tried to surpirse me by giving me some money. He put it directly into my accout and didn't tell me. I was horrified. I was sure that he put it there accidentally. Once he assured me that it wasn't an accident, I was much happier ... until I got bogged down with wondering why.

Damn, I need to learn to relax.

I think I'm gonna go work on a craft I found whileI watch a movie ... yeah, that sounds nice.

Sweet Dreams!