Dec 10, 2007
It's been a while since I posted, but nobody has called me on it or asked me to write anything. I could only nag at myself.
That's okay though.
Things have been very busy lately. Lots going on, but nothing really happening. I've been trying to slowly get into the mood for the Giving Season, but it's been difficult. I don't feel any urge to decorate or to go shopping. This is very unusual for me for in the past, even in the worst of times, I've been brighter and more chipper at this time of year. Nothing could get me down.
Damn, I wish I could go home again.
Let's see. When last we met, I wrote about getting in to a car accident. That issue is still ongoing, by the by. And we're feeling screwed the whole way. *sigh* Nothing we can do about either. Repairs will take place in the Spring, which will hopefully mean that there will be no need for towing charges.
Stupid, impractical, I-need-to-compensate, vanity cars that need flat bed trucks to tow.
Anyway ...
I'm hooked on Warbook. Especially now that I have a handle on how to succeed more. And it's working too.
PartyLite is still a going thing for me. It's been a rough start, but I've had some good support through it all and I'm looking forward to a fantastic 2008! In addition to this, I've been working some temp jobs to supplement my income and make some money to pay for the upcoming extra charges. Like the wedding.
Just five more months and I'll be able to start reserving things ... that means deposits. Jade and I need to decide what we actually want from thsi wedding. He wants something small. I would also like to have something on the intimate side. Given the fact that less and less of my family actually talks to me, the list may become easier to whittle down. If it wasn't for a small handful of people, I would be very lonely. Sometimes, I feel lonely in spite of them. At least I have my escapes. I love my truck.
So tonight I start a new temp job. I'm going to try being a Night Audit person at a local motel. The shift is 2300 - 0700. Not the most ideal shift, but it beats the last job I had. 1500 - 23:30. At least this shift allows me to spend time with my fiance. We'll see how Dona handles having to be quiet for most of the day.
I bet $20 that she can't do it.
Jade bought me some new clothes as an early Yule gift. After three years in the barns, I had no dress clothes left. Certainly not the black bottoms and white tops that they are requesting that I wear. What an experience that was! As usual ...
Is there no decent clothing shop within a 100 km that offers nice clothes for large breasted women?? Hey??
Well, I'd better get back to my multi-tasking. I'm making up my business cards, while designing announcement signs for the Open House that Lynne is hestessing for me this Saturday. I also have to find out if we can still go to a friend's place AFTER the Open House. It could be a long day. I've also got to get in gear and make sure that I'm ready for the New Product Launch that I'm participating in next month. I'm also trying to catch up on my laundry, and my greeting cards ... and keep Spot happy too.
It's a rough life. ;)
Sweet Dreams!
Monday, December 10, 2007
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Metal vs Plastic
14:19
Well, I'm back from the cop shop. Had to drive all the way into the city too. Damn it. There were a couple of good looking guys in there, Lynne, and one had a lovely accent. Scottish. The nice broad kind that totally understandable, but tickles yours ears all the same. Thankfully, he wasn't the one that helped me or I'd have never gotten anything accomplished this morning.
I had the other good looking guy though. He was completely thrilled that I had everything ready for him too. I even had my statement all written out already. Then we went out and assessed the damage.
Oh, have I gotten ahead of myself? Sorry.
Last night, I had to go to WEM for a business meeting. Nasty weather came out just in time for my drive in too, dammit. Right at the corner of my The Mall ... I kissed a Corvette. He had slammed on his brakes as we turned left to avoid hitting a pedestrian who was stupidly dressed in dark clothing. Even I didn't see him until after the accident, and then only because he walked in front of a set of headlights facing me.
Bastard.
So, Mr Officer felt that I had gotten off rather lightly, especially since my sweet baby was a Metal Queen. (Barely a smudge in the paint) and the Corvette ... well, they're made of plastic.
Where was I? Ah, yes, assessing damage. As I said I got off rather lightly there. Might cost a couple hundred to repair/replace. As he walked away, I asked him is I might give him a present. He'd been very polite and easy going with me. (I'm used to the sterner style of cop when I need to go in there.) So I reached into my purse and handed him one of my PartyLite Tealight Business cards ... hoping that this wasn't tacky or considered bribery. He reacted very warmly to it. Sniffing it after I showed him how it opened. He'd received the Scarlet Oaks flavour, and I told him that my fiance loved that flavour, but I had Frosted Pine in my purse if he preferred it. He said 'no, no' he liked the Scarlet Oaks just fine, and his wife LOVES this type of candles.
Boy, did I get the right guy to help me! Even if nothing happens, he made me feel good in an otherwise tense and crappy situation. If Luck is with me, I'll get a call from his wife soon and I'll be on my way to paying for that bloody Corvette's damage!
Damn plastic toys!
Yes, I'm fine. No damage done to me at all. I was just a bit shaken. And late to the meeting that I was supposed to be arriving early for! Grrr ...
Sweet Dreams!
Well, I'm back from the cop shop. Had to drive all the way into the city too. Damn it. There were a couple of good looking guys in there, Lynne, and one had a lovely accent. Scottish. The nice broad kind that totally understandable, but tickles yours ears all the same. Thankfully, he wasn't the one that helped me or I'd have never gotten anything accomplished this morning.
I had the other good looking guy though. He was completely thrilled that I had everything ready for him too. I even had my statement all written out already. Then we went out and assessed the damage.
Oh, have I gotten ahead of myself? Sorry.
Last night, I had to go to WEM for a business meeting. Nasty weather came out just in time for my drive in too, dammit. Right at the corner of my The Mall ... I kissed a Corvette. He had slammed on his brakes as we turned left to avoid hitting a pedestrian who was stupidly dressed in dark clothing. Even I didn't see him until after the accident, and then only because he walked in front of a set of headlights facing me.
Bastard.
So, Mr Officer felt that I had gotten off rather lightly, especially since my sweet baby was a Metal Queen. (Barely a smudge in the paint) and the Corvette ... well, they're made of plastic.
Where was I? Ah, yes, assessing damage. As I said I got off rather lightly there. Might cost a couple hundred to repair/replace. As he walked away, I asked him is I might give him a present. He'd been very polite and easy going with me. (I'm used to the sterner style of cop when I need to go in there.) So I reached into my purse and handed him one of my PartyLite Tealight Business cards ... hoping that this wasn't tacky or considered bribery. He reacted very warmly to it. Sniffing it after I showed him how it opened. He'd received the Scarlet Oaks flavour, and I told him that my fiance loved that flavour, but I had Frosted Pine in my purse if he preferred it. He said 'no, no' he liked the Scarlet Oaks just fine, and his wife LOVES this type of candles.
Boy, did I get the right guy to help me! Even if nothing happens, he made me feel good in an otherwise tense and crappy situation. If Luck is with me, I'll get a call from his wife soon and I'll be on my way to paying for that bloody Corvette's damage!
Damn plastic toys!
Yes, I'm fine. No damage done to me at all. I was just a bit shaken. And late to the meeting that I was supposed to be arriving early for! Grrr ...
Sweet Dreams!
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Light a Candle For Me
09:38
Has it been over a month already? Wow. Sorry, guys. I've been meaning to write, just been busy enough that I never seem to get to it. Well, no time like the present, aye?
If today is as good as yesterday or the day before, I may actually start to recover a little bit. I had a very decent weekend to start with. Barely saw the fogeys on Saturday between their shopping and ours. Sunday, we picked up a couple of old friends for a dinner and a visit. It was great! On the way home from dropping them off, I took the opportunity to have a heart to heart with Jade. He was much more open in this discussion than he was in the last one. Maybe because I came right out and said my problem plainly for once. I felt better after that chat, especially when he assured me that I can talk to him about anything when I need to, because it doesn't stress him to listen and I'll feel better for the unburdening of myself.
Monday ... I was surprised by Monday. No tension in the air and Dona was polite, in a human way, and I was in a good mood. Made me wonder if she had taken another one of her "happy pills" ... She asked me nicely if I'd drive her to an appointment in the city today, and it didn't sound like it was killing her to ask. So yesterday went better than it had in weeks.
Can't wait to see what today brings.
So far, so good!! I just found some extra votives that I'd forgotten about!! I had been given some Sheer Luxury as a prize at The Party That Started It All. It's not my usual style, so I put it in my sweater shelf to make them smell nice. Perfect. They are just what I needed to get my 13 prizes together for my Open House! I'm offering prizes to the first 10 people in the door, and for the first 3 bookings made with me. For display, I'm going to show off my starter kit, and a few borrowed items from friends. I'm looking forward to seeing how many people actually show up!
Good Days like these though ... they've been rare. And very welcome. It's been a rough year for me. Very rough. The tantrums set the pace at the beginning. You never know when they were going to come and except for the first, she never threw one with an audience. I think she stopped because Jade scolded her for the first. She made sure that we were alone after that. Then she found the next pity point ... she told everybody that she was so tragic in her trapped and bored state that she almost commit suicide. I showed her little reaction to that statement because 1) you aren't supposed to react to stuff like that, and 2) I would have been more impressed if she'd actually tried and then changed her mind. It's one thing to say that you almost tried and quite another that you tried or wanted to. Don't tell me that you ALMOST tried. That's not asking for help, that's bragging for attention. Especially from her.
The next six months have been like a tug-of-war for dominance. Sort of. She keeps insisting that she's the Queen Bee and I must bow before her and I keep telling her No. She's constantly telling me that I have to ask her for permission to do ANYTHING on the property.
Why?
Because it's her house.
It's my house too, how come nobody asks my permission to do anything?
Why would she need to ask permission to do things in her house?
Exactly.
Lately, she's tried a new tactic. She just tries to make me look bad in front of others ... to show how I'm a terrible person and she's just tragic in dealing with it. *rolls eyes* It goes like this ... While we are home alone together, we don't talk to each other, we don't look at each other, and, when possible, we just avoid each other. The air is so thick with tension, you practically have to swim through it. It's like this until Wayne comes home, and the tension shifts a bit, and then Jade comes home and she's starting supper ... and she's been playing the sweet, poor, old lady to my apparently ungrateful, rude, rebellious child.
Whatever.
I have friends who are concerned that I am about to crack. There may be violence, although that is more my fear than theirs. I have been offered a hidey-hole for when I need breaks, and chats whenever I need one. I've also had offers to tell her off on my behalf. That won't work so well though, because she's on her best behaviour when others are around. The tantrums, the lectures, etc ... they are all when nobody else is watching. It's her own little mind game ... and I'm not co-operating. Of course, it doesn't matter if I do or not since the guys refuse to become involved unless she's bordering on ridiculous.
On top of that, my own mother is not helping. She keeps trying to get me out of the room that was supposed to be saved for me. It was supposed to be a resting place while I worked with the horses at the track. Well, this year, I didn't work there ... so she said I don't need it, since I haven't used it, and should get all my stuff out of it so that she can use it. HOW THE HECK WAS I SUPPOSED TO USE IT WHEN YOU COULDN'T EVEN FIND THE BED BECAUSE SHE USED THE ROOM AS A STORAGE FACILITY????? Idiot.
Other than that, the remaining stresses have been little. Finding work. Losing weight. Not being able to properly lose weight because I'm so stressed out all the time ... which makes me stress even more. I am determined to go to San Diego and look good while I'm there. I've got about 7 1/2 months to get 'er done.
Light a candle for me.
I'll try to write more later.
Sweet Dreams!
Has it been over a month already? Wow. Sorry, guys. I've been meaning to write, just been busy enough that I never seem to get to it. Well, no time like the present, aye?
If today is as good as yesterday or the day before, I may actually start to recover a little bit. I had a very decent weekend to start with. Barely saw the fogeys on Saturday between their shopping and ours. Sunday, we picked up a couple of old friends for a dinner and a visit. It was great! On the way home from dropping them off, I took the opportunity to have a heart to heart with Jade. He was much more open in this discussion than he was in the last one. Maybe because I came right out and said my problem plainly for once. I felt better after that chat, especially when he assured me that I can talk to him about anything when I need to, because it doesn't stress him to listen and I'll feel better for the unburdening of myself.
Monday ... I was surprised by Monday. No tension in the air and Dona was polite, in a human way, and I was in a good mood. Made me wonder if she had taken another one of her "happy pills" ... She asked me nicely if I'd drive her to an appointment in the city today, and it didn't sound like it was killing her to ask. So yesterday went better than it had in weeks.
Can't wait to see what today brings.
So far, so good!! I just found some extra votives that I'd forgotten about!! I had been given some Sheer Luxury as a prize at The Party That Started It All. It's not my usual style, so I put it in my sweater shelf to make them smell nice. Perfect. They are just what I needed to get my 13 prizes together for my Open House! I'm offering prizes to the first 10 people in the door, and for the first 3 bookings made with me. For display, I'm going to show off my starter kit, and a few borrowed items from friends. I'm looking forward to seeing how many people actually show up!
Good Days like these though ... they've been rare. And very welcome. It's been a rough year for me. Very rough. The tantrums set the pace at the beginning. You never know when they were going to come and except for the first, she never threw one with an audience. I think she stopped because Jade scolded her for the first. She made sure that we were alone after that. Then she found the next pity point ... she told everybody that she was so tragic in her trapped and bored state that she almost commit suicide. I showed her little reaction to that statement because 1) you aren't supposed to react to stuff like that, and 2) I would have been more impressed if she'd actually tried and then changed her mind. It's one thing to say that you almost tried and quite another that you tried or wanted to. Don't tell me that you ALMOST tried. That's not asking for help, that's bragging for attention. Especially from her.
The next six months have been like a tug-of-war for dominance. Sort of. She keeps insisting that she's the Queen Bee and I must bow before her and I keep telling her No. She's constantly telling me that I have to ask her for permission to do ANYTHING on the property.
Why?
Because it's her house.
It's my house too, how come nobody asks my permission to do anything?
Why would she need to ask permission to do things in her house?
Exactly.
Lately, she's tried a new tactic. She just tries to make me look bad in front of others ... to show how I'm a terrible person and she's just tragic in dealing with it. *rolls eyes* It goes like this ... While we are home alone together, we don't talk to each other, we don't look at each other, and, when possible, we just avoid each other. The air is so thick with tension, you practically have to swim through it. It's like this until Wayne comes home, and the tension shifts a bit, and then Jade comes home and she's starting supper ... and she's been playing the sweet, poor, old lady to my apparently ungrateful, rude, rebellious child.
Whatever.
I have friends who are concerned that I am about to crack. There may be violence, although that is more my fear than theirs. I have been offered a hidey-hole for when I need breaks, and chats whenever I need one. I've also had offers to tell her off on my behalf. That won't work so well though, because she's on her best behaviour when others are around. The tantrums, the lectures, etc ... they are all when nobody else is watching. It's her own little mind game ... and I'm not co-operating. Of course, it doesn't matter if I do or not since the guys refuse to become involved unless she's bordering on ridiculous.
On top of that, my own mother is not helping. She keeps trying to get me out of the room that was supposed to be saved for me. It was supposed to be a resting place while I worked with the horses at the track. Well, this year, I didn't work there ... so she said I don't need it, since I haven't used it, and should get all my stuff out of it so that she can use it. HOW THE HECK WAS I SUPPOSED TO USE IT WHEN YOU COULDN'T EVEN FIND THE BED BECAUSE SHE USED THE ROOM AS A STORAGE FACILITY????? Idiot.
Other than that, the remaining stresses have been little. Finding work. Losing weight. Not being able to properly lose weight because I'm so stressed out all the time ... which makes me stress even more. I am determined to go to San Diego and look good while I'm there. I've got about 7 1/2 months to get 'er done.
Light a candle for me.
I'll try to write more later.
Sweet Dreams!
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Pacem
19:12
I don't know that I have a whole lot to say just now, but I'm trying to get back into the habit of writing again. It's one the few skills I have that I've received spontaneous compliments on and I don't think I want to lose that. Besides, it's not a bad thing to get my fingers used to typing again. Get them in sync with each other again ... stoopid fingers!
Had a great fire last night. Did some stargazing too. I finally recognised Cassiopeia. I've never been able to see her before. Still can't see Orion. Which is a pity. I keep thinking that I'll never quite be settled until I can find him again. We're old friends now. Another relationship I built up from my little haunted shack (heh) and I miss him almost as much as I do HER. Anybody who came over knows who I am referring to.
Which reminds me. She came to visit me a little while before I left for holidays. She was so ... sparkly feeling with happiness and joy that it took me a little while to figure out who she was. When I finally clued in, she laughed at me and I gave in to her requests like I used to. I felt ever so much better afterwards, even though we were disappointingly interrupted. Looking back I wonder if she went home again or if she went Home ... either way, I'll miss her.
If you didn't understand that passage, don't worry. It was something that I needed to get out. One more thing to add to my strangeness. Hey, some people like my strangeness!
I've been getting a bit more done here and there. If Jade isn't able to work tomorrow then we'll get even more done. There are carrots to pull and I enjoy being out there with him much more than Dona.
Things are quiet right now ... the in laws have gone out for a walk. I had the afternoon to myself as everybody went golfing. I stayed behind for the quiet. Goddess, it was so good. Even though Jade has his music going on the computer behind me (a trifle loud to me, but probably quiet to him) the house still feels ... still, at peace. That will change as soon as Dona walks back in the door. I've never met anybody with a loud aura before. I hope I never do again.It's just so wrong.
So I have several resumes out, plus my ad will be printed for next Friday, and I'm kinda nervous about who will call first. Worse, I wonder if anybody will actually call. I've promised my poor Jade that I will apply to the restaurants if nobody calls me this week. A nice PT job will be good and if something really good comes up, I can juggle the hours. I want my own money for Yule!! I also want a reason to be out of the house!! I foresee a settling misery once the snow hits.
Not that I'm looking forward to driving in it, but at least the grader keeps the roads clear (unlike a certain city I have lived in.)
It suddenly occurred to me earlier that I haven't written anything in months! I haven't even had story ideas buzzing through my head. THAT's how depressed and stressed I was. I didn't even see it. Things like that make me wonder how doctors can leave somebody with "happy pills" and tell them that they can take them when they think they need them. How is the person supposed to really know? It's not like your emotions come with instructions or pop signs up that yell, "YOU ARE DEPRESSED!! TAKE A HAPPY PILL!!" By the time you realise that you need it, heck maybe even by the time you need it, it's probably already too late. There has to be a better system.
You can always tell when Dona has finally taken one. She makes me shake my head, that girl. she's been complaining that she has been gaining weight and as a result she cuts back on her bread intake because she says that's what makes her gain weight. Just bread. That's all she adjusts. She doesn't adjust her walk time on her treadmill, she doesn't drink more water (although, I'm not sure how much she drinks in the first place). Moving out here has actually cut down on her activities so she doesn't get out much. I offered to share my exercise DVD with her because it's all based on walking, but she's refused. I offered to let her use the CD while she's on her treadmill, but she refused. She keeps telling me how she can't do much with her hips because of all the surgeries and replacements, but I keep telling her that it's not aerobics and it's not fast paced. All the movements are based on what she already does. Nope. I even asked if she'd like to give Curves a try to see if she'd like it. She won't even try it. She pointed to one woman who was on one of the "do-your-own-thing" squares (there's one between every machine) but I pointed out that you can do whatever you want on those squares - march in place, side stepping, or anything else that you are comfortable with, but she's got it in her head that she can't do it and so she won't even try. Nothing I say will get her to even think about it.
Stubborn, old bat.
Meanwhile, it remains my own place to disappear to. As much as I enjoy it, I'd enjoy it more if I was seeing some results!! Granted, I don't go as often as I should right now. Life has been getting in the way, but I make sure that I get up and move around. I've started up my exercises at home again too. That should help. Not just the DVD, but other little exercises that I don't think the machines at Curves is really dealing with. Like crunchies for my abs. It might also help that the weather has cooled down a bit too.
Using the wedding as a goal to lose weight probably isn't a good idea as it's so far off. So I picked something closer - I plan on looking good for the 2008 San Diego Comic Con!! 'Cause we're going, baby!! I'm gonna look really good with nice shirts that'll get me some good swag. I happened to be wearing one of my tighter shirts when we saw Frank Cho. He gave me a through up and down look. Next year, I hope to catch him again. Maybe I'll make him look twice!!
I think I'm going to go read something now. (Another re-discovered joy!) Or maybe I'll get some more stitching done while I watch a movie ... depends on if I can decide what to watch. Hmmm ...
Sweet Dreams!
I don't know that I have a whole lot to say just now, but I'm trying to get back into the habit of writing again. It's one the few skills I have that I've received spontaneous compliments on and I don't think I want to lose that. Besides, it's not a bad thing to get my fingers used to typing again. Get them in sync with each other again ... stoopid fingers!
Had a great fire last night. Did some stargazing too. I finally recognised Cassiopeia. I've never been able to see her before. Still can't see Orion. Which is a pity. I keep thinking that I'll never quite be settled until I can find him again. We're old friends now. Another relationship I built up from my little haunted shack (heh) and I miss him almost as much as I do HER. Anybody who came over knows who I am referring to.
Which reminds me. She came to visit me a little while before I left for holidays. She was so ... sparkly feeling with happiness and joy that it took me a little while to figure out who she was. When I finally clued in, she laughed at me and I gave in to her requests like I used to. I felt ever so much better afterwards, even though we were disappointingly interrupted. Looking back I wonder if she went home again or if she went Home ... either way, I'll miss her.
If you didn't understand that passage, don't worry. It was something that I needed to get out. One more thing to add to my strangeness. Hey, some people like my strangeness!
I've been getting a bit more done here and there. If Jade isn't able to work tomorrow then we'll get even more done. There are carrots to pull and I enjoy being out there with him much more than Dona.
Things are quiet right now ... the in laws have gone out for a walk. I had the afternoon to myself as everybody went golfing. I stayed behind for the quiet. Goddess, it was so good. Even though Jade has his music going on the computer behind me (a trifle loud to me, but probably quiet to him) the house still feels ... still, at peace. That will change as soon as Dona walks back in the door. I've never met anybody with a loud aura before. I hope I never do again.It's just so wrong.
So I have several resumes out, plus my ad will be printed for next Friday, and I'm kinda nervous about who will call first. Worse, I wonder if anybody will actually call. I've promised my poor Jade that I will apply to the restaurants if nobody calls me this week. A nice PT job will be good and if something really good comes up, I can juggle the hours. I want my own money for Yule!! I also want a reason to be out of the house!! I foresee a settling misery once the snow hits.
Not that I'm looking forward to driving in it, but at least the grader keeps the roads clear (unlike a certain city I have lived in.)
It suddenly occurred to me earlier that I haven't written anything in months! I haven't even had story ideas buzzing through my head. THAT's how depressed and stressed I was. I didn't even see it. Things like that make me wonder how doctors can leave somebody with "happy pills" and tell them that they can take them when they think they need them. How is the person supposed to really know? It's not like your emotions come with instructions or pop signs up that yell, "YOU ARE DEPRESSED!! TAKE A HAPPY PILL!!" By the time you realise that you need it, heck maybe even by the time you need it, it's probably already too late. There has to be a better system.
You can always tell when Dona has finally taken one. She makes me shake my head, that girl. she's been complaining that she has been gaining weight and as a result she cuts back on her bread intake because she says that's what makes her gain weight. Just bread. That's all she adjusts. She doesn't adjust her walk time on her treadmill, she doesn't drink more water (although, I'm not sure how much she drinks in the first place). Moving out here has actually cut down on her activities so she doesn't get out much. I offered to share my exercise DVD with her because it's all based on walking, but she's refused. I offered to let her use the CD while she's on her treadmill, but she refused. She keeps telling me how she can't do much with her hips because of all the surgeries and replacements, but I keep telling her that it's not aerobics and it's not fast paced. All the movements are based on what she already does. Nope. I even asked if she'd like to give Curves a try to see if she'd like it. She won't even try it. She pointed to one woman who was on one of the "do-your-own-thing" squares (there's one between every machine) but I pointed out that you can do whatever you want on those squares - march in place, side stepping, or anything else that you are comfortable with, but she's got it in her head that she can't do it and so she won't even try. Nothing I say will get her to even think about it.
Stubborn, old bat.
Meanwhile, it remains my own place to disappear to. As much as I enjoy it, I'd enjoy it more if I was seeing some results!! Granted, I don't go as often as I should right now. Life has been getting in the way, but I make sure that I get up and move around. I've started up my exercises at home again too. That should help. Not just the DVD, but other little exercises that I don't think the machines at Curves is really dealing with. Like crunchies for my abs. It might also help that the weather has cooled down a bit too.
Using the wedding as a goal to lose weight probably isn't a good idea as it's so far off. So I picked something closer - I plan on looking good for the 2008 San Diego Comic Con!! 'Cause we're going, baby!! I'm gonna look really good with nice shirts that'll get me some good swag. I happened to be wearing one of my tighter shirts when we saw Frank Cho. He gave me a through up and down look. Next year, I hope to catch him again. Maybe I'll make him look twice!!
I think I'm going to go read something now. (Another re-discovered joy!) Or maybe I'll get some more stitching done while I watch a movie ... depends on if I can decide what to watch. Hmmm ...
Sweet Dreams!
Saturday, September 15, 2007
The Answer is Blowin' in the Wind - Hurry and Catch It!!
08:51
Going to Fairmont Hot Springs for a week was just what I needed. We soaked in the springs two to three times a day. We took walks, we had therapy for couples (1/2 hr massage and 1/2 hr soak in "mud"), we went trail riding, we golfed, we hiked. One morning, we sat on the grounds and watched a young doe pick through the flower beds. She ate for about forty-five minutes before she was chased away by staff. Pictures will, of course, be coming but I'm not sure whose Facebook account will be used - Jade's or mine.
Jade was very proud of me on that trip. He said it was the closest that I ever came to relaxing. When we came back, I was actually happy. It's quite an uplifting experience, being happy. I highly recommend it to others. This lasted about two glorious days ... then hormones kicked in. (Changing my prescription probably didn't help at all.) I'm waiting for them to go away, in hopes that the happiness will come back, but I'm not sure that will be allowed to happen.
Dona seems to be in a snit. She's finally stopped trying to control everything that happens but she's being really snotty about it. Very high school. Guess some people never grow out of it. (I'm not even sure that she went!) And, of course, she's making herself miserable again. Which means everybody else is too. *sigh* Thank goodness the in-laws will be going for their own holiday soon. Thanksgiving won't get here fast enough.
Wedding plans are going slowly, as usual, but there's no other way for it to go right now.
Going to Fairmont Hot Springs for a week was just what I needed. We soaked in the springs two to three times a day. We took walks, we had therapy for couples (1/2 hr massage and 1/2 hr soak in "mud"), we went trail riding, we golfed, we hiked. One morning, we sat on the grounds and watched a young doe pick through the flower beds. She ate for about forty-five minutes before she was chased away by staff. Pictures will, of course, be coming but I'm not sure whose Facebook account will be used - Jade's or mine.
Jade was very proud of me on that trip. He said it was the closest that I ever came to relaxing. When we came back, I was actually happy. It's quite an uplifting experience, being happy. I highly recommend it to others. This lasted about two glorious days ... then hormones kicked in. (Changing my prescription probably didn't help at all.) I'm waiting for them to go away, in hopes that the happiness will come back, but I'm not sure that will be allowed to happen.
Dona seems to be in a snit. She's finally stopped trying to control everything that happens but she's being really snotty about it. Very high school. Guess some people never grow out of it. (I'm not even sure that she went!) And, of course, she's making herself miserable again. Which means everybody else is too. *sigh* Thank goodness the in-laws will be going for their own holiday soon. Thanksgiving won't get here fast enough.
Wedding plans are going slowly, as usual, but there's no other way for it to go right now.
- The dress is almost paid for ... just a little more to go.
- A corset style has been chosen. I admit I was hoping for something a bit more intimate looking, but at least this will work and can be worn again for other times.
- We've narrowed down the location and it looks like it's going to be local after all.
- We've got some strong ideas about the catering menu and I think we've decided on who we'll hire.
- I've chosen a maid's design that's fairly simple and inexpensive - it'll just be a matter of ordering it. It's just a matter of deciding how many maids I'll actually have and confirming their roles.
- I'm still keeping my eye out for the tiara design and shoes - if you have ideas, please use the comments section below.
- Soon I'll be bending my mind around invitation designs ... that should be fun!
Meanwhile, I've been doing some job hunting. I'm so broke that it's really no fun. Jade's been stressing about it a bit since the strike. It's costing us a fair bit of income. We're hoping that things have settled a bit for Monday because it's not just his job on hold, but the office hiring as well. Not that I'm sure I'm a shoe-in or anything, but the waiting is killing me. It's not the first time we've tried to get me a job where he works. It would be SO ideal to take one vehicle and pool together for gas costs. The money wouldn't be anything to sneeze at either.
I actually put an ad in the local paper in the Employment wanted section. Two weeks worth. Which sounds better than reality since the paper comes out once a week. :) But it's something. I need cash!! *sigh* I'd call in on what a few people owe me, but there's no polite way to ask and frankly, if they can't think of it themselves, then it's not worth it. I've come to the conclusion that I will never lend money again though. Every time I lend somebody money, something bad happens to me. Like losing my job, for one. (That's happened twice!) It just never seems to be worth it. Somebody seems to be trying to tell me something and I think it's time I clued in to it.
So. No more money lending. Ever. Sorry. Nothing stresses me out more than money. Especially in low figures. Except maybe Dona ... but that's a different kind of stress.
On a dull light note, I do have a small job coming up. I've been hired by the Town of Stony Plain to be a Deputy Returning Officer in their Mayoral elections next month. The money is pretty good. One very full day to get it, but I don't mind.
So, here I sit, surrounded by ... what? Half-realised dreams, struggling projects, shadowy friends, and things that won't (can't?) talk to me. Can't decide if they are holding their breath waiting or keeping their distance because they are unsure still. Frustrating. Add that to the tension from the dungeon ... yeah, happiness is going to be a goal that will have to be WORKED for! I wish I could say the move was worth it ...
I'm still hoping that it will be.
I'm not on the computer as much as I usual anymore. I've cut it down and taken up reading, and stitching again. Jade and I have also been trying to play more board games as a way of spending more time together. Last night we played "Life" ... they've changed it a bit from what it used to be. Sadly, I won. I was a millionaire by the end of the game. Sadly, because this never works in real life.
Maybe I need to change spinners ...
I feel like I'm waiting for something. Every now and then I find myself saying, "I can't wait for ..." what? What am I waiting for? Is something good in the offing? Is Happiness once again peeking around the corner, laughing as it waits for the Right Moment to come running up?
One can Dream ...
Sweet Dreams!
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Bobbing Along ...
13:16
I want to write something. Almost desperately, I want to write something. I just have no idea what to write.
I was correct in my assessment that nobody would respond to the survey that I filled out in my last entry. Does that make me smart, prophetic or just plain sad?
Spot has been driving me crazy ... begging me to go outside, then clinging to me when he comes in, then wanting to go out but I have to go too. What's he going to do when I have real job??
Finally found my PC magazines at the other house. They were in the silliest spot. Made me happy though - they've been missing for two years! Now I can go over patterns and see what I can make that is simple and will sell out here. I think have fairly good ideas of what should be popular. And there's only one woman (that I've noticed so far) who can offer me any competition. Lynne get your butt in gear on your beading if you want to join up with my table and sell things. I plan on getting a space by October, at least. So you have some time.
*click*
I've been doing my best to pick things out ahead of time and to get a few things now so that it won't be such a large dent in the pocket book later. Joyce has been very helpful with magazines and ideas. (Sometimes a bit too much) and Princess Mum was great about going shopping with me for a corset. We found what I needed in no time flat. Slow or quick, shopping is best done with company. the fitting is a long way off, but I've now set my mind on shoes. I have NO clue what to do for shoes. The dress is way too long and will need to be altered at any rate, but I think I would like a nice heel on it. Not stilettos, but a nice classic pump height. Something that will put up with a lot of movement, because you never know. I am not dainty with my footwear either. So, I am taking suggestions. Nothing lacy. It's kind of a Spring/Scottish/almost medieval theme ... If you can't describe the shoe, tell me where to find it and I'll take it from there.
HA! Just discovered a photographer ... evil plans have begun to hire her into my clutches. At the very least she'll be part of the guest list ... MWAHAHAHAHAHA! Does the Shepherd know who I refer to? He should! She's one of his photo happy friends! (Mine too!)
Can't wait for Saturday! Finally be able to relax at the Pit with a couple of friends who will be temporarily kidless. They are bringing Lemon meringue pie!!!! *******drooool********
My poor arms are itchy. I trimmed back the pumpkin plant yesterday and think I still have thornies in my skin. I can't find them, but it feels like it. The pumpkins are doing fine, but I hope they hurry and grow ... just in case winter starts early again this year! We have about five growing right now and I've cut back all the new vines and the flowers, so hopefully they accept all the energy of the plant ... which should now be focused on them! I'll even sacrifice a couple, if I need to!
Which Goddess do I pray to for that???
Sweet Dreams!
I want to write something. Almost desperately, I want to write something. I just have no idea what to write.
I was correct in my assessment that nobody would respond to the survey that I filled out in my last entry. Does that make me smart, prophetic or just plain sad?
Spot has been driving me crazy ... begging me to go outside, then clinging to me when he comes in, then wanting to go out but I have to go too. What's he going to do when I have real job??
Finally found my PC magazines at the other house. They were in the silliest spot. Made me happy though - they've been missing for two years! Now I can go over patterns and see what I can make that is simple and will sell out here. I think have fairly good ideas of what should be popular. And there's only one woman (that I've noticed so far) who can offer me any competition. Lynne get your butt in gear on your beading if you want to join up with my table and sell things. I plan on getting a space by October, at least. So you have some time.
*click*
I've been doing my best to pick things out ahead of time and to get a few things now so that it won't be such a large dent in the pocket book later. Joyce has been very helpful with magazines and ideas. (Sometimes a bit too much) and Princess Mum was great about going shopping with me for a corset. We found what I needed in no time flat. Slow or quick, shopping is best done with company. the fitting is a long way off, but I've now set my mind on shoes. I have NO clue what to do for shoes. The dress is way too long and will need to be altered at any rate, but I think I would like a nice heel on it. Not stilettos, but a nice classic pump height. Something that will put up with a lot of movement, because you never know. I am not dainty with my footwear either. So, I am taking suggestions. Nothing lacy. It's kind of a Spring/Scottish/almost medieval theme ... If you can't describe the shoe, tell me where to find it and I'll take it from there.
HA! Just discovered a photographer ... evil plans have begun to hire her into my clutches. At the very least she'll be part of the guest list ... MWAHAHAHAHAHA! Does the Shepherd know who I refer to? He should! She's one of his photo happy friends! (Mine too!)
Can't wait for Saturday! Finally be able to relax at the Pit with a couple of friends who will be temporarily kidless. They are bringing Lemon meringue pie!!!! *******drooool********
My poor arms are itchy. I trimmed back the pumpkin plant yesterday and think I still have thornies in my skin. I can't find them, but it feels like it. The pumpkins are doing fine, but I hope they hurry and grow ... just in case winter starts early again this year! We have about five growing right now and I've cut back all the new vines and the flowers, so hopefully they accept all the energy of the plant ... which should now be focused on them! I'll even sacrifice a couple, if I need to!
Which Goddess do I pray to for that???
Sweet Dreams!
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
Survey Says ...!
16:10
Thought I'd put this survey here instead of sending it to people who won't answer anyway. I'm used to the silence here ... ;)
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Yes, but not anybody we know
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Last month. I just suddenly burst into tears in bed - not sure why.
3. Do you like your handwriting?
Sometimes.
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE LUNCH MEAT?
HAM!
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Have? No. Had? Yes.
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
I like to think so.
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT?
Frequently, although less than I used to. I mostly do it without realising it.
8. Do you still have your tonsils?Yup, they are warm and soft from being in my pocket. No, wait, those are gummy bears. (Yes, I do)
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Depends on what was in it for me!
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE CEREAL?
Shreddies, most days. Froot Loops, on others.
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nope.
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
Sometimes.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE ICE CREAM?
Currently, Cherry Chocolate Chunk. But most chocolate flavours will have my complete attention.
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Sometimes their eyes, sometimes how they "feel".
15. RED OR PINK?
BLUE (Fine, Red is okay. Never Pink - except in flowers)
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVOURITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
My square-shaped face. It's too masculine for me, but looks good on my brother. And my hips. Too wide (and also square.)
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST
Silence, my inner balance ...
Wait, this is a "who" question ...
House, the spirit from my little haunted house. (She was such a part of the place, that "House" seemed to suit her. I wish I could have taken her with me.)
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU?
I have no issues with recieving mails from those who wish to share. (Depending on what they are sharing. LOL!
19. WHAT COLOUR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Jeans. No shoes. Where do you think my computer is?!?
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
A milk choclate Thins.
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Thunder, and the noise of my Tower.
22. IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?
I'm not sure. One of the blues, maybe. Something deep, and rich, but remaining vibrant.
23. FAVOURITE SMELLS?
Fresh baking (especially bread)
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Margo, my boss
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
No. I adore her!
26. FAVOURITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
I prefer to participate rather than watch, but football is okay.
27. HAIR COLOUR?
Light blonde.
28. EYE COLOUR?
Mostly light blue, but they change. Anywhere from white (run!) to intense bright blue. Saw them turn green once. It was freakishly cool.
29. Do you wear contacts?
Yup, but not coloured. Would love green ones one day.
30. FAVOURITE FOOD?
Steak! Watermelon! Ham! Lemon meringue pie! And most chocolates.
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy endings, but not ridiculously so.
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Watched? Uh ... Harry Potter (theatre), Last Boy Scout (tv)
Fell asleep to Labyrinth the other night. Does that count?
33. WHAT COLOUR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Blue
34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer
35. HUGS OR KISSES?
From James? Both!
From friends? Hugs, maybe kisses on cheek
From Hershey's? KISSES!
36. FAVOURITE DESSERT?
Watermelon, ice cream, lemon meringue, chocolate cake (devils food, or black forest w/ cherries)
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
I'm going to post this on my online journal, so maybe (Lynne), but most likely nobody!
38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND
See above answer.
39. What book are you reading now?
I am currently between books right now. It's driving me crazy.
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
ELVIS! Dressed casually in a cable knit sweater.
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T.V. LAST NIGHT?
MASH. First 2 episodes of Season 8
42. FAVOURITE SOUND?
James talking in my ear, and the bank teller asking which account do I want to make my deposit in.
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
The Beatles
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Mobile, Alabama.
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
I am a visual mathematician. So I'm good at seeing patterns. I am artistic, creative, a fairly good problem solver, and I've been called a horse whisperer.
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Chilliwack, BC
47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
Everybody's, anybody's
48. WHAT TIME IS IT NOW?
16:08
Sweet Dreams!
Thought I'd put this survey here instead of sending it to people who won't answer anyway. I'm used to the silence here ... ;)
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Yes, but not anybody we know
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Last month. I just suddenly burst into tears in bed - not sure why.
3. Do you like your handwriting?
Sometimes.
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE LUNCH MEAT?
HAM!
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Have? No. Had? Yes.
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
I like to think so.
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT?
Frequently, although less than I used to. I mostly do it without realising it.
8. Do you still have your tonsils?Yup, they are warm and soft from being in my pocket. No, wait, those are gummy bears. (Yes, I do)
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Depends on what was in it for me!
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE CEREAL?
Shreddies, most days. Froot Loops, on others.
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nope.
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
Sometimes.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE ICE CREAM?
Currently, Cherry Chocolate Chunk. But most chocolate flavours will have my complete attention.
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Sometimes their eyes, sometimes how they "feel".
15. RED OR PINK?
BLUE (Fine, Red is okay. Never Pink - except in flowers)
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVOURITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
My square-shaped face. It's too masculine for me, but looks good on my brother. And my hips. Too wide (and also square.)
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST
Silence, my inner balance ...
Wait, this is a "who" question ...
House, the spirit from my little haunted house. (She was such a part of the place, that "House" seemed to suit her. I wish I could have taken her with me.)
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU?
I have no issues with recieving mails from those who wish to share. (Depending on what they are sharing. LOL!
19. WHAT COLOUR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Jeans. No shoes. Where do you think my computer is?!?
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
A milk choclate Thins.
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Thunder, and the noise of my Tower.
22. IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?
I'm not sure. One of the blues, maybe. Something deep, and rich, but remaining vibrant.
23. FAVOURITE SMELLS?
Fresh baking (especially bread)
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Margo, my boss
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
No. I adore her!
26. FAVOURITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
I prefer to participate rather than watch, but football is okay.
27. HAIR COLOUR?
Light blonde.
28. EYE COLOUR?
Mostly light blue, but they change. Anywhere from white (run!) to intense bright blue. Saw them turn green once. It was freakishly cool.
29. Do you wear contacts?
Yup, but not coloured. Would love green ones one day.
30. FAVOURITE FOOD?
Steak! Watermelon! Ham! Lemon meringue pie! And most chocolates.
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy endings, but not ridiculously so.
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Watched? Uh ... Harry Potter (theatre), Last Boy Scout (tv)
Fell asleep to Labyrinth the other night. Does that count?
33. WHAT COLOUR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Blue
34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer
35. HUGS OR KISSES?
From James? Both!
From friends? Hugs, maybe kisses on cheek
From Hershey's? KISSES!
36. FAVOURITE DESSERT?
Watermelon, ice cream, lemon meringue, chocolate cake (devils food, or black forest w/ cherries)
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
I'm going to post this on my online journal, so maybe (Lynne), but most likely nobody!
38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND
See above answer.
39. What book are you reading now?
I am currently between books right now. It's driving me crazy.
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
ELVIS! Dressed casually in a cable knit sweater.
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T.V. LAST NIGHT?
MASH. First 2 episodes of Season 8
42. FAVOURITE SOUND?
James talking in my ear, and the bank teller asking which account do I want to make my deposit in.
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
The Beatles
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Mobile, Alabama.
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
I am a visual mathematician. So I'm good at seeing patterns. I am artistic, creative, a fairly good problem solver, and I've been called a horse whisperer.
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Chilliwack, BC
47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
Everybody's, anybody's
48. WHAT TIME IS IT NOW?
16:08
Sweet Dreams!
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Who Are You? Who-oo? Who-oo?
20:20
For those of you who aren't on my Facebook Friends List, I thought I'd share a certain test result with you ...
For those of you who aren't on my Facebook Friends List, I thought I'd share a certain test result with you ...
Which Disney Princess Are You? | |
 | You are Belle. You are strong, deep, and you are not a slave to petty superficial things. You are independent and allow yourself to see inner beauty without sacrificing your values. You are almost too good of a person. |
| Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com | |
I just thought that this was interesting and funny all at once. I actually slipped a bit in my chair when I saw it.
Sweet Dreams!
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
It's a New Day
17:22
Either Lynne didn't read the last entry yet, or she's withholding comment until later. I'd like to think that she accepts it all as my feelings in the matter, but humans are too damn defensive for that. Still, Hope is Eternal, right? Either way, we are talking again and it's not uncomfortable. This mess will leave a scar, but it will heal.
I'm glad I got it off my chest ... typos and all. I think it was even coherent.
Anyway, I totally forgot the other big news. My parents will NOT be going to Scotland after all. Apparently, the lady who had hired them wrote them an e-mail and told them that Due to Family Circumstances, the position is not longer being offered.
How rude ... but they are more ready for the next opportunity than they were before. For one thing, half their stuff is gone! LOL! *shrug* They'll just go out and buy more. They tried to have a garage sale last weekend. I'm told that it was horribly slow. Not a whole lot went. I told Albert to just take the screens to the eco-station for disposal. He asked if they were working. They were. He said he's take them to a company that donates them to ... underprivileged or something like that. I forget exactly where.
People are coming to the slow realisation that I drive a truck. My parents have me hauling stuff, my boss (currently doing landscaping) wants me to haul in some loose manure ... sigh. I don't mind too much, I guess ... price of driving a truck, I guess.
Lynne left some cryptic violence on her LiveJournal ... it's gonna bug me. You know it will.
Sweet Dreams!
Either Lynne didn't read the last entry yet, or she's withholding comment until later. I'd like to think that she accepts it all as my feelings in the matter, but humans are too damn defensive for that. Still, Hope is Eternal, right? Either way, we are talking again and it's not uncomfortable. This mess will leave a scar, but it will heal.
I'm glad I got it off my chest ... typos and all. I think it was even coherent.
Anyway, I totally forgot the other big news. My parents will NOT be going to Scotland after all. Apparently, the lady who had hired them wrote them an e-mail and told them that Due to Family Circumstances, the position is not longer being offered.
How rude ... but they are more ready for the next opportunity than they were before. For one thing, half their stuff is gone! LOL! *shrug* They'll just go out and buy more. They tried to have a garage sale last weekend. I'm told that it was horribly slow. Not a whole lot went. I told Albert to just take the screens to the eco-station for disposal. He asked if they were working. They were. He said he's take them to a company that donates them to ... underprivileged or something like that. I forget exactly where.
People are coming to the slow realisation that I drive a truck. My parents have me hauling stuff, my boss (currently doing landscaping) wants me to haul in some loose manure ... sigh. I don't mind too much, I guess ... price of driving a truck, I guess.
Lynne left some cryptic violence on her LiveJournal ... it's gonna bug me. You know it will.
Sweet Dreams!
Sunday, July 29, 2007
The Long and the Short of It
21:07
I promised Drew that I would update with something this weekend, so I gues I'd better get my butt in gear.
Jade is teasing me the Theme song from Smokey and the Bandit. What can I say? I like Jerry!
Spent last weekend babysitting the zoo at my parents place. They left me $20 for pop and pizza. For the entire weekend. Three days. No other food was left for me. When they finally got home, I got a T-shirt. "World's Biggest Hoe - Dog River, Saskatchewan" Whoo. I didn't think it was worth the cost of groceries or gas, until I put it on the other day. Let's just say that it fit me very, very well and it's one of Jade's favourite shirts.
Of course, it's white too. (White shirt + impressive rack = food magnet ... 'Nuff said) And people wonder why I like to wear a lot of black, or darker coloured, shirts.
So I've come to the grudging realization that I'm enjoying the benefits of Facebook - if only because it's allowed me to speak with people I haven't seen in a while that never should have been lost. I'm also not enjoying the downside - can't do anything on the internet communities without inviting Drama. Yet again, somebody has decided that they don't like the idea of Jade and being together. Wouldn't matter if we were happy or fighting alot. We're together and that makes certain people itch for some reason. The last one had "proof" that she had been seeing my man while he was with me. She even claimed he was with a third.
I humour these accusations everytime because they never have anything but a decent acting ability. This girl claimed that he had texted and chatted online with her. the text was in February, apparently. I'll bet she "deleted" it along time ago. Her only real proof was chat transcripts.
CHAT TRANSCRIPTS?!?
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Amatuer. You can't prove shit with that.
Apparently, she was willing to meet with me and talk about it. What's to talk about? He never touched her and she'd only touched him in her dreams. What really made me angry though was that they'd suckered my best friend, my heart-sister, the woman I had asked to be my Matron of Honour because I loved and trusted her ... they put this woman in the midle by getting her to pass messages back and forth.
My friend, who doesn't completely trust men because she's had bad luck with them. A soul friend ... who suddenly tells me NOW that she's always thought my fiance had been lying to me during our entire relationship.
That's what really hurt. She took the word on somebody whom she admits that she only just met, and barely knew, over mine, throws in that "I've always felt" tidbit and then does her best to convince that maybe this girl is telling the truth ... because she seems like a nice girl and she likes her.
Right.
And through this entire thing, she's telling me not to tell Jade.
Excuse me?
You are accusing my man of something and you not only don't have the guts to tell me to my face, but you want me to go behind his back about it? Hello?
Nuh-uh. 1) If you want to accuse somebody of something, accuse him to his face. 2) If you choose to "inform" your friend because you think she's ignorant of said accused activities, you ahve no further right to tell her how to handle it - especially when you know she prides herself on having an open and honest relationship with her man. 3) Don't tell her you have to tell her this because you love her. If you really wanted to save her from the pain, you should have bypassed her and follow #1. 4) If she tells you, with confidence, that the man she's been with for over a decade is Not Guilty, don't argue with her unless you have undeniable proof. (And when you are supposed to be a computer whiz, it's flabbergasting that you accept Chat Transcripts as "proof")
I didn't talk to Lynne for three days after that ... Not because I was angry at her. (I never stay mad for long - and she's supposed to KNOW that by now) I avoided her because I couldn't believe that she accepted such flimsy stories. That she was so quick to latch on to the idea that my man was unfaithful. A series of reasons went through my head as to why. Jade has been good to her and helped her out of a few tight spaces. He even gave her a large amount of cash once and never expected repayment. He did a lot of nice things for her, even when it disturbed his routine to drive me over before a got a car.
Was she jealous or envious over my luck in finding him and keeping him? I can't believe that. Was she temporarily insane? On meds that made her loopy?? I have no clue. Depressed? Drepression makes you think stranger things. there were other possibilities but I finally stopped wondering ... none of them made sense to me. But she thought she had to tell me because she loved me and was concerned that I was being led on.
I appreciate the concern, I really do, but put it into perspective ... Do your own research, and be VERY certain, before coming to me with the "cheating" stories. And if her name comes up ANYWHERE ... declare it bullshit and walk away. I don't care what hte relationship is. And I'm not angry with you; I never was. I was very sick with disappointment though. I actually felt betrayed by your insistence. It made me doubt you and what you think about me. That I'm not intelligent enough to notice such things. That I'm not strong enough to confront him about such htings and KNOW when he is lying to me. that I wouldn't double check things for myself. That I could be with this man for over 13 years and not KNOW him. That you don't think that I'm woman enough for him.
Last time I'll say this. Believe it or don't, I don't care. Jade has NEVER cheated on me while we've been together. He has never cheated on me. Ever. With anybody. Certainly not with a psychotic ex-girlfriend who can't decide if she's a lesbian or not. End of story. Anybody who says otherwise will talk to my fists, my feet, and lose sections of hair and skin.
Do not send me angry defenses and excuses. I'll listen to calm explanations and I'll be happy to discuss - as long as you are willing to admit that I am correct about this. I'm sorry that your relationship seems to be strained, and I'm sorry that you can't find it within you to talk to me about it. Maybe you don't think I can help. I hope you have somebody who you feel is more reliable than me.
That's all I have to say about that.
Half my garden is now over six feet tall. I look out my bedroom window and I think, holy shit. Hopefully, it bears fruit in good time. Hopefully, we don't get a hugely early snowfall like we did last year. The damn pumpkin is taking over it's side of the garden too. Soon, it will be climbing the fence! Crazy.
Enough with the heat already! I'm tired of how the heat makes me look bloated and melty. It's just not the melty feeling that I enjoy, and it's too bloody hot to enjoy it even if I was feeling it! the Nuva-Ring isn't helping either, but that's anohter story and I don't think you want to hear about it.
No, really, you don't. I don't want to tell you even if you did. So there.
Happy now, Drew, boy? Big sister has provided.
Not to much else to pass on ... I finished my family tree info and am QUITE ready to move on to non-Irish branch. I think I'll work on Albert's for a bit. One of Dona's sisters has moved in with us temporarily. Auntie's relationship with her husband has turned more abusive that usual and it's time to do the seperation thing. He doesn't know that she's here. Her other sister is also having troubles. Her husband is leaving her for another woman. Could be worse, eh?
God-brother has decided to join the Army. (gack!) Pardon the noise ... he'll be the first grunt in the family since World War I, I think. He's doing it for free education. Apparently, he wants to get into the Patricia's. His sister and I have doubts, but we'd rather he tried and failed than just sit back and let the world go by. There are bets being placed on how long his new wife will handle being an Army wife. The most generous has placed it at two years.
Drew suggestd that maybe people didn't leave comments on my entries because they worry about offending me with their personal views of my persoanl writings. BWAHAHAHAHAHA! Goof. If I didn't want comments or reactions, I would write these things down ina book and never let people see them.
Please! Feel free to leave comments. I only ask that they be thoughtful and clean. I won't delete it, but I will repost it with editting if I feel you've said something inappropiate. And please don't use names. The nicknames used here are for privacy. Yours and theirs ans much as mine.
Thanks!
Okay, then ... Bring on the Rain!
Sweet Dreams!
PS. Hokey stinkmore!! FOUR SCRABBLE GAMES AT ONCE?!? Holy Geez!!
I promised Drew that I would update with something this weekend, so I gues I'd better get my butt in gear.
Jade is teasing me the Theme song from Smokey and the Bandit. What can I say? I like Jerry!
Spent last weekend babysitting the zoo at my parents place. They left me $20 for pop and pizza. For the entire weekend. Three days. No other food was left for me. When they finally got home, I got a T-shirt. "World's Biggest Hoe - Dog River, Saskatchewan" Whoo. I didn't think it was worth the cost of groceries or gas, until I put it on the other day. Let's just say that it fit me very, very well and it's one of Jade's favourite shirts.
Of course, it's white too. (White shirt + impressive rack = food magnet ... 'Nuff said) And people wonder why I like to wear a lot of black, or darker coloured, shirts.
So I've come to the grudging realization that I'm enjoying the benefits of Facebook - if only because it's allowed me to speak with people I haven't seen in a while that never should have been lost. I'm also not enjoying the downside - can't do anything on the internet communities without inviting Drama. Yet again, somebody has decided that they don't like the idea of Jade and being together. Wouldn't matter if we were happy or fighting alot. We're together and that makes certain people itch for some reason. The last one had "proof" that she had been seeing my man while he was with me. She even claimed he was with a third.
I humour these accusations everytime because they never have anything but a decent acting ability. This girl claimed that he had texted and chatted online with her. the text was in February, apparently. I'll bet she "deleted" it along time ago. Her only real proof was chat transcripts.
CHAT TRANSCRIPTS?!?
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Amatuer. You can't prove shit with that.
Apparently, she was willing to meet with me and talk about it. What's to talk about? He never touched her and she'd only touched him in her dreams. What really made me angry though was that they'd suckered my best friend, my heart-sister, the woman I had asked to be my Matron of Honour because I loved and trusted her ... they put this woman in the midle by getting her to pass messages back and forth.
My friend, who doesn't completely trust men because she's had bad luck with them. A soul friend ... who suddenly tells me NOW that she's always thought my fiance had been lying to me during our entire relationship.
That's what really hurt. She took the word on somebody whom she admits that she only just met, and barely knew, over mine, throws in that "I've always felt" tidbit and then does her best to convince that maybe this girl is telling the truth ... because she seems like a nice girl and she likes her.
Right.
And through this entire thing, she's telling me not to tell Jade.
Excuse me?
You are accusing my man of something and you not only don't have the guts to tell me to my face, but you want me to go behind his back about it? Hello?
Nuh-uh. 1) If you want to accuse somebody of something, accuse him to his face. 2) If you choose to "inform" your friend because you think she's ignorant of said accused activities, you ahve no further right to tell her how to handle it - especially when you know she prides herself on having an open and honest relationship with her man. 3) Don't tell her you have to tell her this because you love her. If you really wanted to save her from the pain, you should have bypassed her and follow #1. 4) If she tells you, with confidence, that the man she's been with for over a decade is Not Guilty, don't argue with her unless you have undeniable proof. (And when you are supposed to be a computer whiz, it's flabbergasting that you accept Chat Transcripts as "proof")
I didn't talk to Lynne for three days after that ... Not because I was angry at her. (I never stay mad for long - and she's supposed to KNOW that by now) I avoided her because I couldn't believe that she accepted such flimsy stories. That she was so quick to latch on to the idea that my man was unfaithful. A series of reasons went through my head as to why. Jade has been good to her and helped her out of a few tight spaces. He even gave her a large amount of cash once and never expected repayment. He did a lot of nice things for her, even when it disturbed his routine to drive me over before a got a car.
Was she jealous or envious over my luck in finding him and keeping him? I can't believe that. Was she temporarily insane? On meds that made her loopy?? I have no clue. Depressed? Drepression makes you think stranger things. there were other possibilities but I finally stopped wondering ... none of them made sense to me. But she thought she had to tell me because she loved me and was concerned that I was being led on.
I appreciate the concern, I really do, but put it into perspective ... Do your own research, and be VERY certain, before coming to me with the "cheating" stories. And if her name comes up ANYWHERE ... declare it bullshit and walk away. I don't care what hte relationship is. And I'm not angry with you; I never was. I was very sick with disappointment though. I actually felt betrayed by your insistence. It made me doubt you and what you think about me. That I'm not intelligent enough to notice such things. That I'm not strong enough to confront him about such htings and KNOW when he is lying to me. that I wouldn't double check things for myself. That I could be with this man for over 13 years and not KNOW him. That you don't think that I'm woman enough for him.
Last time I'll say this. Believe it or don't, I don't care. Jade has NEVER cheated on me while we've been together. He has never cheated on me. Ever. With anybody. Certainly not with a psychotic ex-girlfriend who can't decide if she's a lesbian or not. End of story. Anybody who says otherwise will talk to my fists, my feet, and lose sections of hair and skin.
Do not send me angry defenses and excuses. I'll listen to calm explanations and I'll be happy to discuss - as long as you are willing to admit that I am correct about this. I'm sorry that your relationship seems to be strained, and I'm sorry that you can't find it within you to talk to me about it. Maybe you don't think I can help. I hope you have somebody who you feel is more reliable than me.
That's all I have to say about that.
Half my garden is now over six feet tall. I look out my bedroom window and I think, holy shit. Hopefully, it bears fruit in good time. Hopefully, we don't get a hugely early snowfall like we did last year. The damn pumpkin is taking over it's side of the garden too. Soon, it will be climbing the fence! Crazy.
Enough with the heat already! I'm tired of how the heat makes me look bloated and melty. It's just not the melty feeling that I enjoy, and it's too bloody hot to enjoy it even if I was feeling it! the Nuva-Ring isn't helping either, but that's anohter story and I don't think you want to hear about it.
No, really, you don't. I don't want to tell you even if you did. So there.
Happy now, Drew, boy? Big sister has provided.
Not to much else to pass on ... I finished my family tree info and am QUITE ready to move on to non-Irish branch. I think I'll work on Albert's for a bit. One of Dona's sisters has moved in with us temporarily. Auntie's relationship with her husband has turned more abusive that usual and it's time to do the seperation thing. He doesn't know that she's here. Her other sister is also having troubles. Her husband is leaving her for another woman. Could be worse, eh?
God-brother has decided to join the Army. (gack!) Pardon the noise ... he'll be the first grunt in the family since World War I, I think. He's doing it for free education. Apparently, he wants to get into the Patricia's. His sister and I have doubts, but we'd rather he tried and failed than just sit back and let the world go by. There are bets being placed on how long his new wife will handle being an Army wife. The most generous has placed it at two years.
Drew suggestd that maybe people didn't leave comments on my entries because they worry about offending me with their personal views of my persoanl writings. BWAHAHAHAHAHA! Goof. If I didn't want comments or reactions, I would write these things down ina book and never let people see them.
Please! Feel free to leave comments. I only ask that they be thoughtful and clean. I won't delete it, but I will repost it with editting if I feel you've said something inappropiate. And please don't use names. The nicknames used here are for privacy. Yours and theirs ans much as mine.
Thanks!
Okay, then ... Bring on the Rain!
Sweet Dreams!
PS. Hokey stinkmore!! FOUR SCRABBLE GAMES AT ONCE?!? Holy Geez!!
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Just an Old Fashioned Update
11:46
Lynne has a baby bunny that sometime sappears outside of her office window to cheer her up. I've got about five baby coyotes. Finally caught them playing in the back yard this morning. They were just so cute! the mother wasn't around though, so either the den is a lot closer than we know about or she was out hunting the babies have taken it upon themsellves to wander. They didn't spend a lot of time out from the cover of the brush, so maybe they were playing hide and seek and maybe they were just trying to disobey Mother as little as possible.
I wonder if they'll come back tomorrow.
Aparently, we had a pack cutting through our yard all winter. This doesn't worry me and I'm not at all displeased. Says good things about the property. Might have to be more careful when the horses get here, but that's along ways off and anything can happen.
Dona has finally had it with the noisy mutts behind us. (Again.) They are theonly dogs around us that are not under any control by the owners. And trust me - there are a lot of dogs on the properties around us and only one has a single dog. So the "excessive" noise is stupid and unnecessary. Dona has tried to talk to the neighbour about it, but the owner just gets defensive and says that the dogs are "just doing their job".
Bull cookies.
So she's calling the county to complain. Especially since one of the dogs frequently jobs the fence to wander into our yard. He often comes up to the house, whether we are in or outof the yard, and just as often leaps the fence to chase the cats that also wander in. The owner says that nothing they do stops the dog from jumping the fence.
Try fixing it, moron. Better still, make it taller. It's a medium sized dog. It has limits.
So, after we call the county to complain, if nothing changes, we'll shoot the dog when it comes over. 'Nuff said. We don't want that thing jumping over when we have our own cats outside (tied!!) or visiting friends with their kids.
Besides, Dona is afraid of dogs.
My brother, Michael, still won't give me his address. I just want it so that I can mail him things from time to time. Cards, gifts ... stuff like that. Usually, I would just leave things at my arents house and he'd pick them up, and I'd come around again to pick up what he left behind. My parents are trying to go to Scotland. That's a long way to go to pick up your mail. Still, he stalls. He won't do it.
Jack ass.
So I may have a job offer coming up ... again. This one was brought to my attention through more reliable resources. Seems that one of their friends has a landscaping company and she needs help because two of her people are leaving. Sure, it's not horses, but I can deal with that. It's apaycheque right? And I have bills to pay. Not a lot, but enough to cause me grief.
Speaking of which, I'd better get my butt in gear and change my information with two of them. Heh.
Sweet Dreams!
Lynne has a baby bunny that sometime sappears outside of her office window to cheer her up. I've got about five baby coyotes. Finally caught them playing in the back yard this morning. They were just so cute! the mother wasn't around though, so either the den is a lot closer than we know about or she was out hunting the babies have taken it upon themsellves to wander. They didn't spend a lot of time out from the cover of the brush, so maybe they were playing hide and seek and maybe they were just trying to disobey Mother as little as possible.
I wonder if they'll come back tomorrow.
Aparently, we had a pack cutting through our yard all winter. This doesn't worry me and I'm not at all displeased. Says good things about the property. Might have to be more careful when the horses get here, but that's along ways off and anything can happen.
Dona has finally had it with the noisy mutts behind us. (Again.) They are theonly dogs around us that are not under any control by the owners. And trust me - there are a lot of dogs on the properties around us and only one has a single dog. So the "excessive" noise is stupid and unnecessary. Dona has tried to talk to the neighbour about it, but the owner just gets defensive and says that the dogs are "just doing their job".
Bull cookies.
So she's calling the county to complain. Especially since one of the dogs frequently jobs the fence to wander into our yard. He often comes up to the house, whether we are in or outof the yard, and just as often leaps the fence to chase the cats that also wander in. The owner says that nothing they do stops the dog from jumping the fence.
Try fixing it, moron. Better still, make it taller. It's a medium sized dog. It has limits.
So, after we call the county to complain, if nothing changes, we'll shoot the dog when it comes over. 'Nuff said. We don't want that thing jumping over when we have our own cats outside (tied!!) or visiting friends with their kids.
Besides, Dona is afraid of dogs.
My brother, Michael, still won't give me his address. I just want it so that I can mail him things from time to time. Cards, gifts ... stuff like that. Usually, I would just leave things at my arents house and he'd pick them up, and I'd come around again to pick up what he left behind. My parents are trying to go to Scotland. That's a long way to go to pick up your mail. Still, he stalls. He won't do it.
Jack ass.
So I may have a job offer coming up ... again. This one was brought to my attention through more reliable resources. Seems that one of their friends has a landscaping company and she needs help because two of her people are leaving. Sure, it's not horses, but I can deal with that. It's apaycheque right? And I have bills to pay. Not a lot, but enough to cause me grief.
Speaking of which, I'd better get my butt in gear and change my information with two of them. Heh.
Sweet Dreams!
Friday, July 06, 2007
Ve Vant To PUMP, You Up!
12:35
Well, it hasn't been too long since I last updated, but it feels like forever. I've had the occasional urge to write more, but just never acted on it.
I'm feeling a bit better about things. Sometimes they just have to soak in. there was more too it than just my parents' apparently imminent move out of the country, but nobody asked, so I'm not going to share. One of you even scoffed at me. Thanks.
So ... Life outside of all that. Dona is getting ready for a week's visit to her oldest son in BC. While she's gone, I'm going to revel in being free again. I'm also going to bust my ass and get some things organised! There are two more cupboards in the kitchen that need to be adjusted, and I'm going to let loose in the garage. I'm so sick of not knowing where things are and things being scattered. Dona and Wayne may have tidied things up a bit while we were in Calgary last May, but Dona can't organise anything worth ... well, she can't! I also want to see what's available for Garage sale items. On top of that, we have to get all of our stuff that still over at my parents' place. I'm obviously not going back to the track, so I might as well clean out the room - whether they actually leave or not.
I am also giving contemplation to painting the master bathroom. Depends on funds, I think.
I'm feeling really pumped about a new business idea too. It's not going to replace the horse barn - I'll never give that up! But it is a very good idea that I can do on the side! I actually brought ti up to somebody with an inside view to what I wanted and she was astounded that nobody had thought of it already. She insisted that I go ahead with it! So I will! I'm going to discuss things with Jade and figure out where to get started. It's going to involve an affiliation, so I'll need a lawyer to help introduce the proposal so that it can't be "yoinked" without giving me any credit.
Man, I am pumped about this!
I can't wait for evening!
Sweet Dreams!
Well, it hasn't been too long since I last updated, but it feels like forever. I've had the occasional urge to write more, but just never acted on it.
I'm feeling a bit better about things. Sometimes they just have to soak in. there was more too it than just my parents' apparently imminent move out of the country, but nobody asked, so I'm not going to share. One of you even scoffed at me. Thanks.
So ... Life outside of all that. Dona is getting ready for a week's visit to her oldest son in BC. While she's gone, I'm going to revel in being free again. I'm also going to bust my ass and get some things organised! There are two more cupboards in the kitchen that need to be adjusted, and I'm going to let loose in the garage. I'm so sick of not knowing where things are and things being scattered. Dona and Wayne may have tidied things up a bit while we were in Calgary last May, but Dona can't organise anything worth ... well, she can't! I also want to see what's available for Garage sale items. On top of that, we have to get all of our stuff that still over at my parents' place. I'm obviously not going back to the track, so I might as well clean out the room - whether they actually leave or not.
I am also giving contemplation to painting the master bathroom. Depends on funds, I think.
I'm feeling really pumped about a new business idea too. It's not going to replace the horse barn - I'll never give that up! But it is a very good idea that I can do on the side! I actually brought ti up to somebody with an inside view to what I wanted and she was astounded that nobody had thought of it already. She insisted that I go ahead with it! So I will! I'm going to discuss things with Jade and figure out where to get started. It's going to involve an affiliation, so I'll need a lawyer to help introduce the proposal so that it can't be "yoinked" without giving me any credit.
Man, I am pumped about this!
I can't wait for evening!
Sweet Dreams!
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Crying in the Rain
23:04
As of right now, my mother is halfway to Scotland. Or at least almost half way. I'm not sure what time the plane left. She's on her way to negotiate a contract with the lady of the original job offer that she had previously received. Apparently, the Hungarian that was hired ran out, and now she wants my Mom again.
She'll be back by Monday and then it'll be a mad dash for the next couple of months while they get everything sold. I'll get a few things that they don't want to take with them (to avoid weight costs) like a few books and a few heirloom type things ... but everything else will be sold. I believe the car has already been sold to an aunt. I've already refused the big screen TV and the pool. No room for one and we can't afford to fill the other.
Fuck, I'm going to be lonely. She's the only family member that talks to me. My Dad and my brother avoid me at all (or most) costs. Actually, my brother only contacts me when there's something in it for him. Like adding me to his friend list on Facebook. He has no wish to communicate with me. I can't even get him to tell me where he lives or works! Dad? Dad's dead. Haven't talked to him in two years. My Aunts? go through my mother to talk with me. My cousins, get their news through my Aunts.
And I'm going to go insane being alone her with my mother-in-law. I don't wanna go into that right now.
I don't think I want to talk about this anymore.
...
As of right now, my mother is halfway to Scotland. Or at least almost half way. I'm not sure what time the plane left. She's on her way to negotiate a contract with the lady of the original job offer that she had previously received. Apparently, the Hungarian that was hired ran out, and now she wants my Mom again.
She'll be back by Monday and then it'll be a mad dash for the next couple of months while they get everything sold. I'll get a few things that they don't want to take with them (to avoid weight costs) like a few books and a few heirloom type things ... but everything else will be sold. I believe the car has already been sold to an aunt. I've already refused the big screen TV and the pool. No room for one and we can't afford to fill the other.
Fuck, I'm going to be lonely. She's the only family member that talks to me. My Dad and my brother avoid me at all (or most) costs. Actually, my brother only contacts me when there's something in it for him. Like adding me to his friend list on Facebook. He has no wish to communicate with me. I can't even get him to tell me where he lives or works! Dad? Dad's dead. Haven't talked to him in two years. My Aunts? go through my mother to talk with me. My cousins, get their news through my Aunts.
And I'm going to go insane being alone her with my mother-in-law. I don't wanna go into that right now.
I don't think I want to talk about this anymore.
...
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Dedicated
14:31
Music: I'll Remember - Madonna
To You : you know who you are ...
Time passes
Life happens.
Distance separates.
Children grow up.
Jobs come and go.
Love waxes and wanes.
Hearts break.
Parents die.
Colleagues forget favors.
Careers end.
BUT.........
Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you.
A girl friend is never farther away than needing her can reach.
(Anonymous)
When you are in need, call me and I'll be there for you.
********************************************************************************
Well, I've got most of the computer room cleaned up and a few things are FINALLY hanging on the walls. Turning the large shelves so that I could have access to both sides was a give and take solution. I'm losing a bit of space, but gaining more room. Make sense? Good! It's one of things that you have to see.
Next, I think I'll tackle the bedroom. I don't like it the way it is, and I need a second book case for my mangas. Of course, this means I'm going to lose all my shelf space for my books, but I've made a compromise with Jade. He'll keep his books in the guest bedroom, and he'll buy me some more shelves for the bedroom and I'll keep mine there. Eventually, I plan on mixing our books together, but some habits take time to break.
We do that alot though. His space, my space. His stuff, my stuff; his side, my side. It's kind of silly, in a way ... but we're working on it. That's the point, right? We're working on it.
Jade was mentioning (not quite a whine, so much as a wistful note) that he practically has to sacrifice spending time with me in order to work enough hours to live so that we can be comfortable together. It's true ... he's gone for 13 hours a day, and when he gets back, he has about four and half hours to get his personal stuff done and spend a bit of time with me. Sometimes I think he was able to spend more time with me before we moved in together. ;)
I'm sure it'll work out soon. He's waiting for something to happen at a closer location so that he can transfer over there. That'll save him time and gas money. Both of which will probably be spent on me. Heh.
Meanwhile, we do the best that we can. I work here until I find a job to help balance things out, and he works as many hours as he can without killing the idiots he works with. I'm a bit surprised that Dragonlady hasn't called me yet, but I'm sure there will be room for me if I need work. Meanwhile I await word from the trainer north of me. The person was supposed to be our go-between doesn't come into town very regularly and her mailbox is full, so I can't leave a message asking her to call me with an update. Hopefully, I'll hear something soon. I'll giver until the end of the week, and then I'll call up the track. I'm sure I'll be able to find help there.
Meanwhile, I have things to do. I'm determined to break through this writer's block and get my current fanfic written and completed so that I can move on to other things!
Sweet Dreams!
Music: I'll Remember - Madonna
To You : you know who you are ...
Time passes
Life happens.
Distance separates.
Children grow up.
Jobs come and go.
Love waxes and wanes.
Hearts break.
Parents die.
Colleagues forget favors.
Careers end.
BUT.........
Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you.
A girl friend is never farther away than needing her can reach.
(Anonymous)
When you are in need, call me and I'll be there for you.
********************************************************************************
Well, I've got most of the computer room cleaned up and a few things are FINALLY hanging on the walls. Turning the large shelves so that I could have access to both sides was a give and take solution. I'm losing a bit of space, but gaining more room. Make sense? Good! It's one of things that you have to see.
Next, I think I'll tackle the bedroom. I don't like it the way it is, and I need a second book case for my mangas. Of course, this means I'm going to lose all my shelf space for my books, but I've made a compromise with Jade. He'll keep his books in the guest bedroom, and he'll buy me some more shelves for the bedroom and I'll keep mine there. Eventually, I plan on mixing our books together, but some habits take time to break.
We do that alot though. His space, my space. His stuff, my stuff; his side, my side. It's kind of silly, in a way ... but we're working on it. That's the point, right? We're working on it.
Jade was mentioning (not quite a whine, so much as a wistful note) that he practically has to sacrifice spending time with me in order to work enough hours to live so that we can be comfortable together. It's true ... he's gone for 13 hours a day, and when he gets back, he has about four and half hours to get his personal stuff done and spend a bit of time with me. Sometimes I think he was able to spend more time with me before we moved in together. ;)
I'm sure it'll work out soon. He's waiting for something to happen at a closer location so that he can transfer over there. That'll save him time and gas money. Both of which will probably be spent on me. Heh.
Meanwhile, we do the best that we can. I work here until I find a job to help balance things out, and he works as many hours as he can without killing the idiots he works with. I'm a bit surprised that Dragonlady hasn't called me yet, but I'm sure there will be room for me if I need work. Meanwhile I await word from the trainer north of me. The person was supposed to be our go-between doesn't come into town very regularly and her mailbox is full, so I can't leave a message asking her to call me with an update. Hopefully, I'll hear something soon. I'll giver until the end of the week, and then I'll call up the track. I'm sure I'll be able to find help there.
Meanwhile, I have things to do. I'm determined to break through this writer's block and get my current fanfic written and completed so that I can move on to other things!
Sweet Dreams!
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Moving Right Along ... (aka Damn Aliens Are Transferring Me AGAIN?!?)
11:52
Something pissed me off yesterday, but I managed a giggle-fit this morning and now I feel a bit better. I'm still disgusted, but I'm not radiating negatively anymore.
Bitches.
So, yesterday morning, I'm working my butt off. I know that things are going a bit slow because my co-worker was a bit behind when I got there, I have an injured finger (I didn't see a doc, so I can't prove hairline fracture) in a splint that constantly gets in the way, and we have extra stalls to do because of the rain. I don't have a watch since mine died, but I can feel that it's almost time for my partner to feed. Enter the Supervisor ... a 21 year old with a hot temper who expects her horses to toe a tight line. Especially the studs. She borders on cruel some days, but at least she's consistent about it.
Anyway, she calls me over to the office. By the time I sit in the chair, I know why. She doesn't even have to say. It's how she did it that gives me the urge to hurt somebody. Apparently, they felt that I was too slow, so things weren't working out. (Eh?!?) This coincided nicely with the arrival of a new Full Time girl from Oregon ... to whom I was introduced as part time help when she arrived. (Eh?!?)
I feel very used. Like I was brought on as temp help but wasn't told. I came on just as my super was leaving for a trip to Rome. They refused to negotiate with me about any of my work details - including wages - despite my willingness to compromise. I was told that I would be Feeding, Mucking and Grooming ... I was soon told not to bother helping with feed, and I barely touched a horse ... so there I was, doing the labour job that any kid on summer vacation could do ... at wages even a summer vacation kid might balk at - if they were doing this for the money.
Bitches.
Luckily, I kept to my planned day and went straight to Curves where I met up with a pair of ladies that I see fairly often. Thanks to them, I now have a very good prospect of working with a Thoroughbred Trainer just north of me. How's that for sweet? And he recently won a lottery too, so he'll not only understand my worth, but he'll be able to pay it.
And if things don't work out, well, I go back to the track. Part time. And hopefully don't kill myself falling asleep on the highway while driving home. (Or there!) Gee, life was exciting for the end of last year's meet.
I can't wait for my own barn to go up. I really can't.
Quote of the day:
Dreams are like feathers - if you have enough, you can fly.
Found a book I want to get. An Eberron adventure called Storm Dragon. It looks very interesting and may even be somewhat educational as I have a character involved in the Dragon Prophesies ... and I don't even know what they are. 'Course, neither does my character so that's okay.
Never been an assassin before ... it's interesting. Still an elf though. Tried to be human, but found it frustrating. Difficult, even. In hindsight, I find this to be also interesting, but from a personal point of view.
Not much more to catch y'all up on. Lots of rain this week, and the weeds are slowly trying to take over. If I'd known that it wasn't going to rain this morning, I would have gotten out there and pulled some. Still might, although the beds need to dry out a bit more before I get them all without bringing half the bed into the house.
You know, I thought losing the use of my index finger would slow me down more ... but it doesn't. How odd.
Sweet Dreams!
Something pissed me off yesterday, but I managed a giggle-fit this morning and now I feel a bit better. I'm still disgusted, but I'm not radiating negatively anymore.
Bitches.
So, yesterday morning, I'm working my butt off. I know that things are going a bit slow because my co-worker was a bit behind when I got there, I have an injured finger (I didn't see a doc, so I can't prove hairline fracture) in a splint that constantly gets in the way, and we have extra stalls to do because of the rain. I don't have a watch since mine died, but I can feel that it's almost time for my partner to feed. Enter the Supervisor ... a 21 year old with a hot temper who expects her horses to toe a tight line. Especially the studs. She borders on cruel some days, but at least she's consistent about it.
Anyway, she calls me over to the office. By the time I sit in the chair, I know why. She doesn't even have to say. It's how she did it that gives me the urge to hurt somebody. Apparently, they felt that I was too slow, so things weren't working out. (Eh?!?) This coincided nicely with the arrival of a new Full Time girl from Oregon ... to whom I was introduced as part time help when she arrived. (Eh?!?)
I feel very used. Like I was brought on as temp help but wasn't told. I came on just as my super was leaving for a trip to Rome. They refused to negotiate with me about any of my work details - including wages - despite my willingness to compromise. I was told that I would be Feeding, Mucking and Grooming ... I was soon told not to bother helping with feed, and I barely touched a horse ... so there I was, doing the labour job that any kid on summer vacation could do ... at wages even a summer vacation kid might balk at - if they were doing this for the money.
Bitches.
Luckily, I kept to my planned day and went straight to Curves where I met up with a pair of ladies that I see fairly often. Thanks to them, I now have a very good prospect of working with a Thoroughbred Trainer just north of me. How's that for sweet? And he recently won a lottery too, so he'll not only understand my worth, but he'll be able to pay it.
And if things don't work out, well, I go back to the track. Part time. And hopefully don't kill myself falling asleep on the highway while driving home. (Or there!) Gee, life was exciting for the end of last year's meet.
I can't wait for my own barn to go up. I really can't.
Quote of the day:
Dreams are like feathers - if you have enough, you can fly.
Found a book I want to get. An Eberron adventure called Storm Dragon. It looks very interesting and may even be somewhat educational as I have a character involved in the Dragon Prophesies ... and I don't even know what they are. 'Course, neither does my character so that's okay.
Never been an assassin before ... it's interesting. Still an elf though. Tried to be human, but found it frustrating. Difficult, even. In hindsight, I find this to be also interesting, but from a personal point of view.
Not much more to catch y'all up on. Lots of rain this week, and the weeds are slowly trying to take over. If I'd known that it wasn't going to rain this morning, I would have gotten out there and pulled some. Still might, although the beds need to dry out a bit more before I get them all without bringing half the bed into the house.
You know, I thought losing the use of my index finger would slow me down more ... but it doesn't. How odd.
Sweet Dreams!
Monday, June 11, 2007
There Are No Excuses ... Only Therapists
15:10
I am so exhausted. Absolutely bushwhacked, and I don't know why. I think I'm just tired of it all. Tired of not getting paid what I'm worth at a place that doesn't give me enough hours and doesn't seem to concerned with it either. Tired of living with a woman who goes anywhere she wants in my home at any time of day and has never knocked once ... because "we're family". Tired of not having enough time in the day to be able to spend quality time with my fiance. And after that last attack on us? The quality time would be nice.
Just bloody tired.
By the by, two people noticed that Lynne was absent from my birthday party. Two people, other than myself. There you go, Lynne ... it was noticed by the "masses" that you were absent.
I was a little hurt by that, but that's Life. I'm also a little hurt that Jade hasn't given me anything for my birthday. He even managed to squirm out of taking me out for supper. Whatever.
I've recently discovered that Jade's idea of teaching me to be more romantic is to deny me any sex at all unless I jump him. He won't touch me unless I start something ... and make sure it continues.
Bastard. Would have been nice if he'd just EXPLAINED this to me. There could have been SO much more sex!
Geez!
On another topic, I had recently sent out an e-mail to my friends that requested them to try to describe me in one word. Just one. I got four answers back. None of those four were the two people that I thought for sure would answer me. Anyway, the words I got back were thus:
I am so exhausted. Absolutely bushwhacked, and I don't know why. I think I'm just tired of it all. Tired of not getting paid what I'm worth at a place that doesn't give me enough hours and doesn't seem to concerned with it either. Tired of living with a woman who goes anywhere she wants in my home at any time of day and has never knocked once ... because "we're family". Tired of not having enough time in the day to be able to spend quality time with my fiance. And after that last attack on us? The quality time would be nice.
Just bloody tired.
By the by, two people noticed that Lynne was absent from my birthday party. Two people, other than myself. There you go, Lynne ... it was noticed by the "masses" that you were absent.
I was a little hurt by that, but that's Life. I'm also a little hurt that Jade hasn't given me anything for my birthday. He even managed to squirm out of taking me out for supper. Whatever.
I've recently discovered that Jade's idea of teaching me to be more romantic is to deny me any sex at all unless I jump him. He won't touch me unless I start something ... and make sure it continues.
Bastard. Would have been nice if he'd just EXPLAINED this to me. There could have been SO much more sex!
Geez!
On another topic, I had recently sent out an e-mail to my friends that requested them to try to describe me in one word. Just one. I got four answers back. None of those four were the two people that I thought for sure would answer me. Anyway, the words I got back were thus:
- Understanding
- Adventurous
- Quirky
- Searching
I thank those of you that answered. I think this year's favourite is 'Quirky'. Just 'cause it tickles me. Last year's 'Random' was chosen for similar reasons.
I was also sent this:
Your Birth date: June 7
You are an island. You don't need anyone else to make you happy. And though you see yourself as a loner, people are drawn to you. Deep and sensitive, you tend to impress others with your insights. You also tend to be psychic - so listen to that inner voice!
Your strength: Your self sufficiency
Your weakness: You despise authority
Your power color: Maroon
Your power symbol: Hammer
Your power month: July
I thought that was kinda cool. My thanks to Shorty for sending it to me. Now if anybody still has Thursday's paper, I'd be very happy if they could please tell me what the June 7 "It's your birthday" said.
Thanks!
I'm off now, to try to create more organisation, if not order, in my chaotic little world.
Yeah, I know, I'm pathetic! LOL!
Sweet Dreams!
Saturday, June 09, 2007
Laugh of the Day
08:29
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| 'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com |
09:20
Somebody was sending around the tired e-mail about "God" not being allowed in schools. I actually sent back a reply to it. thought you might like to see it.
First, the e-mail ...
Dear God:
Why didn't you save the school children at ?...
Moses Lake , Washington 2/2/96
Bethel , Alaska 2/19/97
Pearl , Mississippi 10/1/97
West Paducah , Kentucky 12/1/97
Stamp, Arkansas 12/15/97
Jonesboro , Arkansas 3/24/98
Edinboro , Pennsylvania 4/24/98
Fayetteville , Tennessee 5/19/98
Springfield , Oregon 5/21/98
Richmond , Virginia 6/15/98
Littleton , Colorado 4/20/99
Taber , Alberta , Canada 5/28/99
Conyers , Georgia 5/20/99
Deming , New Mexico 11/19/99
Fort Gibson , Oklahoma 12/6/99
Santee , California 3/ 5/01
El Cajon , California 3/22/01
and now? Blacksburg , VA 4/16/07 ?
Sincerely,Concerned Student
-----------------------------------------------------
Reply:
Dear Concerned Student:
Sorry, I am not allowed in schools.
Sincerely, God
Here's my reply ...
Dear God,
That was a ridiculous and lazy answer. If you were able to save them, you would have stopped the crazy people before they even entered those schools. The real truth is this - you can't interfere because you gave us Free Will. The people wanted it and you gave it to them. Now they are seeing the other side of the sword that is this gift, and they are blaming you. They are twisting your gift to show you don't care when the truth is that we need to be the ones who start caring about ourselves and, mostly, about others. It's not your fault, it's ours. It's a pity that there are people out there who resent this gift because they are incapable of thinking for themselves and/or caring for others.
Keep up the good work!
Sweet Dreams!
Friday, June 08, 2007
Into The Mystic
15:15
Herbal Salve
Customize your herbal salve with your choice of essential oils. This salve is thickened & emulsified with beeswax, which is impervious to water and unaffected by mildew. It has a melting point of 143 to 148 degrees F (61.67 - 64.44 C) and should only be heated using a double boiler as it is flammable when subjected to fire and flames or high heats. It is workable at 100 degrees F. (37.78 C)
Ingredients:
2 oz/56.7 g Beeswax
3 oz/85.05g Sweet Almond Oil
1 oz/28.35g Jojoba Oil
1/2 oz/14.2g Canola oil
40 drops total essential oil(s) of your preference*
Makes 4 oz, 4 x 1oz containers
Heat the Sweet Almond, Canola oil and Jojoba oil in a double boiler (or a stainless steal bowl over a saucepan full of water) and add Beeswax. If you want a thin consistency (such as a cream or petroleum jelly) use only a little bit of Beeswax. For a thicker consistency add more Beeswax. If you have any herbal infused oils on hand, such as Comfrey, Calendula or Plantain; feel free to substitute it for the canola oil. Make sure it is strained before adding.
Allow the base to cool down to see what the consistency is like. If it's too thick, add more Sweet Almond oil and reheat; and if it’s too thin, add more Beeswax.
As the base is cooling add the essential oils to enhance the healing effect of the balm. After you have added the essential oil and the base is still warm enough to pour, carefully pour it into your containers. Let cool then cap. Best used within 1-2 years. Apply as needed.
Aromatherapy suggestions to customize your salve:
Tea Tree Essential oil for Antiseptic, anti-fungal, antiviral qualities. Citronella Essential oil for making a insect repellent salve. Lavender Essential oil for emotionally cleansing effect; calms the nerves and has antiseptic qualities. Eucalyptus Essential oil to relieve congestion and ease breathing for allergies and colds.
(Recipe courtesy of the newsletter - The Soap Dish)
So!
Yesterday was my birthday! Thank you to everybody who sent me an e-card, a phone call, or some other type of happy wish message. Together you created the largest response that I have received in years! My parents, Elohelae, fellow Tubber - B.I., my cousin from Washington State, Ellen, and the Care2 site. Especial thanks go out to lovely Lynne, who not only dedicated a post to specifically wish me a happy birthday, but she called up later in the day to remind of how special I am and how important I am in her life.
It's nice to be reminded that I have friends that care about me. Thank you, everybody.
Okay, so my day started off with a card and present from the in laws. A lovely little jewel box with a black kitty brooch. Very pretty.
Next I went to get my ultra-sound done on my liver. While she was taking pictures, and in between breathing, I managed to get a bit more information. The "mass" is only 2 cm (3/4 of an inch) and at the top right tip of my liver. She gave me the name, but I dismissed it as I knew I'd never remember it, never mind pronounce it. Apparently, it's basically like a birthmark. The only reason it's being noticed now is because the ultra-sound equipment is getting so much better. That and I must have breathed out at the right moment, because she said that when I took a deep breath and held it (which is how they usually like to look at things) it disappeared. There you go.
Let's just say that I'm not worried.
Dona and I went to Ricki's for breakfast and watched Curious George on TV. (They switched it to CNN just as we were leaving - right in the middle of Clifford, the Big Red Dog!)
I came home and piddled around for a bit before going to my next appointment. I was driving to St. Albert to visit a psychic. He came highly recommended by a friend, Princess Mum, and I've always, always wanted to try one. I was starting to get nervous as the appointment got closer though, and wondered if I was wasting my money. I refused to chicken out though. I wonder if I should have.
I admit to having very mixed feelings about the session. Mostly because the first thing he did was tell me that I didn't believe I was beautiful. (Well, shit, I could have told him that!) And he harped on it for a few minutes until I wanted to defend myself. I've come a very long way in terms of my self image. He was talking to me like I hadn't changed at all. He then spent the next, oh, 40 minutes?, telling me that Jade was not my soul mate, and although he was a very nice guy, I just look around for somebody who could make me happier. He insisted that he wasn't trying to get me to break up with him, but I should consider other options. Apparently this is why I came to see him. I wanted to know about my love life.
Uh, no. Hadn't occurred to me to ask about it. I had been quite content with my relationship. Yes, I knew it wasn't perfect, but it was WORKING and we were working on it. So there.
Oh, yes, and he said that I had built a beautiful wall, but that I had to tear it down. I knew that already too. Jade told me.
So ... most of the session was gone and he finally started to get into the things that I wanted to know about. Since there was little time left, he kinda rushed through it, so I had no chance to ask questions or get better details.
My spirit guide is a Warrior from the Roman era. I can call him "Gus", so I figure that his full name may be Augustus, or Octavius, or something like that. He has gorgeous black hair. I wanted to know what colour his eyes were, but never got the chance to ask.
My spirit animal is a Deer. (EH?!?) and I'm a Water person. I have hot hands (which I assume means I channel a lot of energy) and I am a Healer. I should stay with Horses. I should go ahead with the dream of having my own horse business. I got the idea that I should stick with race horses, but he never said specifically. He told me about the Law of Attraction and how to use it to get more money. I'll try it.
Past lives - he surprised me a bit here. Didn't mention any that I thought he would, but then he only mentioned a few out of 25. (Jade has been here 21 times - I told him I was older). He said that I was an Egyptian Seer; a very beautiful Brazilian who basically lived in a bikini because I was always swimming in the ocean; a gypsy; and a Spanish woman who had been horribly raped, which resulted in two children. There's more to that, but I'm not going into it here.
Jade and I have been married three times before. Once, he was the woman and I had hired a secretary who turned out to be my 'soul mate'. I guess I worked late lots in that life time. (I think he said that this was in the 1800's and it was still "okay" to have a mistress on the side. This might explain why Jade likes to tease me about having one.) Once he was my brother, and another time we had been in a war together ... and died together.
I left the session still feeling hungry because the areas that I really wanted covered and explained were so rushed. I went over the conversation in my head. Especially the tirade about how Jade won't make me as happy as I could be. The more I thought about it, the angrier I got. In fact, I'm still angry. Angry enough that it's leaking a bit into the other facets of my life - like work. (I'll have to apologise to my co-worker on Monday.)
This has not thrown me "off" of going again. But I think I'd like to change the circumstances a bit. It kinda felt like he was reaching sometimes. Guessing. Maybe because I was trying my best not to give him any real clues, so that I couldn't convince myself it was fake. Maybe because my shields are really good. He contradicted himself a few times, but mostly when he was rushed and not thinking about his words.
I honestly think I'd like to go back, but that I would try to control the conversation a bit more. Oh, yeah, that's the other thing. My masculine side is way too strong. I'm too much of a tomboy. "One of the guys." (Can you say Betty Cooper?) I need to work on my Feminine side he says. I need to go out, buy a bunch of lingerie and learn to be seductive, romantic ... a woman.
Um, ouch?
He also accused me of being a work-aholic. (BWAHAHAHAHAHA!) Well, you can't work the races and have time for much else!
My grandparents (from both sides) are with me alot and love me very much, although they don't know me very well. My paternal grandfather keeps berating me for being stubborn. (EH?!?) One of the "visitors" that I had seen (and had cornered Jade once) turned out to be a great-great Aunt, but I don't know which one.
AGH! It's horribly mind boggling and frustrating. I got more questions than answers out of that session. And it bothered me that he didn't try to See my Animal Spirit, he looked it up on a chart on a book. (EH?!?) Definitely was NOT expecting that answer. He said he could see a lot of cat in me, but I was a Deer. Also, I needed a dog for healing. A big dog. (EH!?!?!) He said that I found other people's dogs annoying because they weren't mine. (Okay, that made me laugh inside because that's what I'd been saying to Jade about children) He knew that I had lost a child, but he seemed surprised that the father was Jade. He also mentioned that I would name the third one Sally Lou. I almost fell out of my chair laughing. I told him it would take a pretty strong influence for that name to be used. He said he was bad with names and that maybe I'd just use Sally.
Maybe. But I doubt it. I'm partial to Sorcha, myself.
Anyway, today my co-worker wished me a Happy Birthday and told me that she missed my presence at work yesterday. A few minutes later I watched a horse go ass over tea kettle as it fell out of its stall. The lead shank that held her came apart as she pulled on it. I laughed at her a bit as I made sure she didn't run out of the barn. It was only as I was putting her on the Equi-ciser that I realised my finger was bleeding. I slapped a band-aid on it until I got home. By then, it was really hurting. Swollen, stiff, and very sore to the touch.
Dammit, I broke my finger. (Just a minor fracture, we think.) Gonna give that horse a piece of my mind on Monday, that's for sure.
So! that was my birthday. I'm waiting to see if Jade is still taking me to dinner tonight, but I'll bet money that he won't. *sigh* It's a family joke for a reason, folks!
Sweet Dreams!
Herbal Salve
Customize your herbal salve with your choice of essential oils. This salve is thickened & emulsified with beeswax, which is impervious to water and unaffected by mildew. It has a melting point of 143 to 148 degrees F (61.67 - 64.44 C) and should only be heated using a double boiler as it is flammable when subjected to fire and flames or high heats. It is workable at 100 degrees F. (37.78 C)
Ingredients:
2 oz/56.7 g Beeswax
3 oz/85.05g Sweet Almond Oil
1 oz/28.35g Jojoba Oil
1/2 oz/14.2g Canola oil
40 drops total essential oil(s) of your preference*
Makes 4 oz, 4 x 1oz containers
Heat the Sweet Almond, Canola oil and Jojoba oil in a double boiler (or a stainless steal bowl over a saucepan full of water) and add Beeswax. If you want a thin consistency (such as a cream or petroleum jelly) use only a little bit of Beeswax. For a thicker consistency add more Beeswax. If you have any herbal infused oils on hand, such as Comfrey, Calendula or Plantain; feel free to substitute it for the canola oil. Make sure it is strained before adding.
Allow the base to cool down to see what the consistency is like. If it's too thick, add more Sweet Almond oil and reheat; and if it’s too thin, add more Beeswax.
As the base is cooling add the essential oils to enhance the healing effect of the balm. After you have added the essential oil and the base is still warm enough to pour, carefully pour it into your containers. Let cool then cap. Best used within 1-2 years. Apply as needed.
Aromatherapy suggestions to customize your salve:
Tea Tree Essential oil for Antiseptic, anti-fungal, antiviral qualities. Citronella Essential oil for making a insect repellent salve. Lavender Essential oil for emotionally cleansing effect; calms the nerves and has antiseptic qualities. Eucalyptus Essential oil to relieve congestion and ease breathing for allergies and colds.
(Recipe courtesy of the newsletter - The Soap Dish)
So!
Yesterday was my birthday! Thank you to everybody who sent me an e-card, a phone call, or some other type of happy wish message. Together you created the largest response that I have received in years! My parents, Elohelae, fellow Tubber - B.I., my cousin from Washington State, Ellen, and the Care2 site. Especial thanks go out to lovely Lynne, who not only dedicated a post to specifically wish me a happy birthday, but she called up later in the day to remind of how special I am and how important I am in her life.
It's nice to be reminded that I have friends that care about me. Thank you, everybody.
Okay, so my day started off with a card and present from the in laws. A lovely little jewel box with a black kitty brooch. Very pretty.
Next I went to get my ultra-sound done on my liver. While she was taking pictures, and in between breathing, I managed to get a bit more information. The "mass" is only 2 cm (3/4 of an inch) and at the top right tip of my liver. She gave me the name, but I dismissed it as I knew I'd never remember it, never mind pronounce it. Apparently, it's basically like a birthmark. The only reason it's being noticed now is because the ultra-sound equipment is getting so much better. That and I must have breathed out at the right moment, because she said that when I took a deep breath and held it (which is how they usually like to look at things) it disappeared. There you go.
Let's just say that I'm not worried.
Dona and I went to Ricki's for breakfast and watched Curious George on TV. (They switched it to CNN just as we were leaving - right in the middle of Clifford, the Big Red Dog!)
I came home and piddled around for a bit before going to my next appointment. I was driving to St. Albert to visit a psychic. He came highly recommended by a friend, Princess Mum, and I've always, always wanted to try one. I was starting to get nervous as the appointment got closer though, and wondered if I was wasting my money. I refused to chicken out though. I wonder if I should have.
I admit to having very mixed feelings about the session. Mostly because the first thing he did was tell me that I didn't believe I was beautiful. (Well, shit, I could have told him that!) And he harped on it for a few minutes until I wanted to defend myself. I've come a very long way in terms of my self image. He was talking to me like I hadn't changed at all. He then spent the next, oh, 40 minutes?, telling me that Jade was not my soul mate, and although he was a very nice guy, I just look around for somebody who could make me happier. He insisted that he wasn't trying to get me to break up with him, but I should consider other options. Apparently this is why I came to see him. I wanted to know about my love life.
Uh, no. Hadn't occurred to me to ask about it. I had been quite content with my relationship. Yes, I knew it wasn't perfect, but it was WORKING and we were working on it. So there.
Oh, yes, and he said that I had built a beautiful wall, but that I had to tear it down. I knew that already too. Jade told me.
So ... most of the session was gone and he finally started to get into the things that I wanted to know about. Since there was little time left, he kinda rushed through it, so I had no chance to ask questions or get better details.
My spirit guide is a Warrior from the Roman era. I can call him "Gus", so I figure that his full name may be Augustus, or Octavius, or something like that. He has gorgeous black hair. I wanted to know what colour his eyes were, but never got the chance to ask.
My spirit animal is a Deer. (EH?!?) and I'm a Water person. I have hot hands (which I assume means I channel a lot of energy) and I am a Healer. I should stay with Horses. I should go ahead with the dream of having my own horse business. I got the idea that I should stick with race horses, but he never said specifically. He told me about the Law of Attraction and how to use it to get more money. I'll try it.
Past lives - he surprised me a bit here. Didn't mention any that I thought he would, but then he only mentioned a few out of 25. (Jade has been here 21 times - I told him I was older). He said that I was an Egyptian Seer; a very beautiful Brazilian who basically lived in a bikini because I was always swimming in the ocean; a gypsy; and a Spanish woman who had been horribly raped, which resulted in two children. There's more to that, but I'm not going into it here.
Jade and I have been married three times before. Once, he was the woman and I had hired a secretary who turned out to be my 'soul mate'. I guess I worked late lots in that life time. (I think he said that this was in the 1800's and it was still "okay" to have a mistress on the side. This might explain why Jade likes to tease me about having one.) Once he was my brother, and another time we had been in a war together ... and died together.
I left the session still feeling hungry because the areas that I really wanted covered and explained were so rushed. I went over the conversation in my head. Especially the tirade about how Jade won't make me as happy as I could be. The more I thought about it, the angrier I got. In fact, I'm still angry. Angry enough that it's leaking a bit into the other facets of my life - like work. (I'll have to apologise to my co-worker on Monday.)
This has not thrown me "off" of going again. But I think I'd like to change the circumstances a bit. It kinda felt like he was reaching sometimes. Guessing. Maybe because I was trying my best not to give him any real clues, so that I couldn't convince myself it was fake. Maybe because my shields are really good. He contradicted himself a few times, but mostly when he was rushed and not thinking about his words.
I honestly think I'd like to go back, but that I would try to control the conversation a bit more. Oh, yeah, that's the other thing. My masculine side is way too strong. I'm too much of a tomboy. "One of the guys." (Can you say Betty Cooper?) I need to work on my Feminine side he says. I need to go out, buy a bunch of lingerie and learn to be seductive, romantic ... a woman.
Um, ouch?
He also accused me of being a work-aholic. (BWAHAHAHAHAHA!) Well, you can't work the races and have time for much else!
My grandparents (from both sides) are with me alot and love me very much, although they don't know me very well. My paternal grandfather keeps berating me for being stubborn. (EH?!?) One of the "visitors" that I had seen (and had cornered Jade once) turned out to be a great-great Aunt, but I don't know which one.
AGH! It's horribly mind boggling and frustrating. I got more questions than answers out of that session. And it bothered me that he didn't try to See my Animal Spirit, he looked it up on a chart on a book. (EH?!?) Definitely was NOT expecting that answer. He said he could see a lot of cat in me, but I was a Deer. Also, I needed a dog for healing. A big dog. (EH!?!?!) He said that I found other people's dogs annoying because they weren't mine. (Okay, that made me laugh inside because that's what I'd been saying to Jade about children) He knew that I had lost a child, but he seemed surprised that the father was Jade. He also mentioned that I would name the third one Sally Lou. I almost fell out of my chair laughing. I told him it would take a pretty strong influence for that name to be used. He said he was bad with names and that maybe I'd just use Sally.
Maybe. But I doubt it. I'm partial to Sorcha, myself.
Anyway, today my co-worker wished me a Happy Birthday and told me that she missed my presence at work yesterday. A few minutes later I watched a horse go ass over tea kettle as it fell out of its stall. The lead shank that held her came apart as she pulled on it. I laughed at her a bit as I made sure she didn't run out of the barn. It was only as I was putting her on the Equi-ciser that I realised my finger was bleeding. I slapped a band-aid on it until I got home. By then, it was really hurting. Swollen, stiff, and very sore to the touch.
Dammit, I broke my finger. (Just a minor fracture, we think.) Gonna give that horse a piece of my mind on Monday, that's for sure.
So! that was my birthday. I'm waiting to see if Jade is still taking me to dinner tonight, but I'll bet money that he won't. *sigh* It's a family joke for a reason, folks!
Sweet Dreams!
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Your Parade is Raining on My Day!!
13:34
What kind of a jack-a-nape arranges for a parade to happen around lunchtime?? The hottest, and the busiest, time of day??
*sigh*Nothing like running a couple blockades to make the day special!
The new job is so-so. Things have slowly caught up to themselves and I'm only working 3-4 hours a day. When I had a chance, I told them my wage expectations. Poor lady almost fell out of her chair. Apparently, she doesn't even pay her daughter the amount that I told her. (Oh, sure, like it's my fault that her daughter couldn't negotiate a better contract?)
Anyway, we were supposed to go over things on payday when she gave me my cheque. We didn't. Her daughter (my supervisor/forewoman/insert-title-here) was going to Rome on the evening of payday, and they left for a family lunch. Looking at the cheque that had been left behind for me, they have settled on paying me $8/hr. That's not a whole lot, but it's not minimum wage either. I can also afford it a bit more since it's actually so close to home. Hours are low right now, but I'm told that things should get busier soon. We'll see. I've already told the boss that I would be showing up an hour early so that we could exercise the horses on the equi-ciser while it was still fairly cool out. (Hopefully it'll be cooler than today. Above 20C (68F) before 10:00 this morning! UGH!!) I've also told my co-worker that I intended to get some more time in each afternoon by making sure that I groomed the three horses that are going to compete in about a month. Told her they were going to shine like thoroughbreds. ;)
I've decided to buy a few more equipment items for myself. A couple new curry combs, some hoof paint, and a shavings fork. I like having my own stuff and I'll eventually need it for my own place anyhow.
I'm also devising a plan to get a PT job with the hardware store that sells the barn kits. (Like garage kits, but more expensive.) I don't know that the employee discount will make MUCH of a difference, but any help is good help. Right?
Speaking of help, we've gotta get those trees cleared first. Any volunteers? We'll supply you with food and drink (non-alcoholic) and we'll even let you use the bathroom. ;) You know where to find me. I'll be cleaning around the pond area next weekend if it's a bit cooler. Already have one volunteer for that too! (Thanks, Lynne! Bring the kid and stay for fire!) We'll even return your kids to you undamaged!
Anyway, about the job. It's not jumpers this time. I'm working on a breeding farm that trains cutters. So, it's quarter horses and I'm surrounded by babies. I love this job environment!! Miss the thoroughbreds though. (Wahh! Pepper!!)
I have to get my truck taken in pretty soon. The air conditioner doesn't work. Again. Crummy thing. Was sweating badly enough while driving it the other day that it was getting into my eyes. Do you know how hard it is to drive like that??
Spot is driving me insane with his attempts to get outside. He never lasts long when I finally agree though. He's just too hot when he's out there. He lasts about ten minutes - tops, then he comes inside, cools off and the begging and demanding starts all over again. Little rat.
We're going golfing tomorrow. 06:48 tee time. I'd rather be sleeping, I'm sure. Ah, well ... maybe it'll rain a bit tonight and things will cool off a little bit for tomorrow and I can get some planting done! Only a little left to go! Already have nice blooms on a few things!
Speaking of lovelies! Dona and Wayne found an early birthday present for me, while they were out at a greenhouse. they were going through the roses when Dona spotted one pot with a familiar name on it. Mine. It was even spelled correctly. How's that for a surprise! Apparently, it's a very popular rose too. The one she saw, and bought, was the very last one at that greenhouse.
I feel special.
Okay, some of you may recall the strange affair of the Mass on my Liver. I finally arranged for a doctor's appointment to arrange for an ultrasound appointment to take a peek at it. Guess what day they gave me? My birthday. Thanks, guys.
I've told Jade that I can't decide between Applebee's or Red Lobster for my birthday dinner. Chances are, we'll do neither. We'll see. Guess it depends on if it's just us or if the parents are involved, eh?
Trying to get some friends over to have a weenie/mallow roast on the Saturday following my birthday, but there doesn't seem to be much enthusiasm for it. Feels like people have better things to do with their time, you know? Betcha Shorty shows. He's never failed to show. Once he was the only person that did.
*sigh*
I'm such a loved and popular person, eh?
Hope it cools down soon ... I'm losing plants. Need rain in the tanks too! Guess I'll have to try to help it rain ... I'll send Jade out to wash his truck! LOL!
Sweet Dreams!
What kind of a jack-a-nape arranges for a parade to happen around lunchtime?? The hottest, and the busiest, time of day??
*sigh*Nothing like running a couple blockades to make the day special!
The new job is so-so. Things have slowly caught up to themselves and I'm only working 3-4 hours a day. When I had a chance, I told them my wage expectations. Poor lady almost fell out of her chair. Apparently, she doesn't even pay her daughter the amount that I told her. (Oh, sure, like it's my fault that her daughter couldn't negotiate a better contract?)
Anyway, we were supposed to go over things on payday when she gave me my cheque. We didn't. Her daughter (my supervisor/forewoman/insert-title-here) was going to Rome on the evening of payday, and they left for a family lunch. Looking at the cheque that had been left behind for me, they have settled on paying me $8/hr. That's not a whole lot, but it's not minimum wage either. I can also afford it a bit more since it's actually so close to home. Hours are low right now, but I'm told that things should get busier soon. We'll see. I've already told the boss that I would be showing up an hour early so that we could exercise the horses on the equi-ciser while it was still fairly cool out. (Hopefully it'll be cooler than today. Above 20C (68F) before 10:00 this morning! UGH!!) I've also told my co-worker that I intended to get some more time in each afternoon by making sure that I groomed the three horses that are going to compete in about a month. Told her they were going to shine like thoroughbreds. ;)
I've decided to buy a few more equipment items for myself. A couple new curry combs, some hoof paint, and a shavings fork. I like having my own stuff and I'll eventually need it for my own place anyhow.
I'm also devising a plan to get a PT job with the hardware store that sells the barn kits. (Like garage kits, but more expensive.) I don't know that the employee discount will make MUCH of a difference, but any help is good help. Right?
Speaking of help, we've gotta get those trees cleared first. Any volunteers? We'll supply you with food and drink (non-alcoholic) and we'll even let you use the bathroom. ;) You know where to find me. I'll be cleaning around the pond area next weekend if it's a bit cooler. Already have one volunteer for that too! (Thanks, Lynne! Bring the kid and stay for fire!) We'll even return your kids to you undamaged!
Anyway, about the job. It's not jumpers this time. I'm working on a breeding farm that trains cutters. So, it's quarter horses and I'm surrounded by babies. I love this job environment!! Miss the thoroughbreds though. (Wahh! Pepper!!)
I have to get my truck taken in pretty soon. The air conditioner doesn't work. Again. Crummy thing. Was sweating badly enough while driving it the other day that it was getting into my eyes. Do you know how hard it is to drive like that??
Spot is driving me insane with his attempts to get outside. He never lasts long when I finally agree though. He's just too hot when he's out there. He lasts about ten minutes - tops, then he comes inside, cools off and the begging and demanding starts all over again. Little rat.
We're going golfing tomorrow. 06:48 tee time. I'd rather be sleeping, I'm sure. Ah, well ... maybe it'll rain a bit tonight and things will cool off a little bit for tomorrow and I can get some planting done! Only a little left to go! Already have nice blooms on a few things!
Speaking of lovelies! Dona and Wayne found an early birthday present for me, while they were out at a greenhouse. they were going through the roses when Dona spotted one pot with a familiar name on it. Mine. It was even spelled correctly. How's that for a surprise! Apparently, it's a very popular rose too. The one she saw, and bought, was the very last one at that greenhouse.
I feel special.
Okay, some of you may recall the strange affair of the Mass on my Liver. I finally arranged for a doctor's appointment to arrange for an ultrasound appointment to take a peek at it. Guess what day they gave me? My birthday. Thanks, guys.
I've told Jade that I can't decide between Applebee's or Red Lobster for my birthday dinner. Chances are, we'll do neither. We'll see. Guess it depends on if it's just us or if the parents are involved, eh?
Trying to get some friends over to have a weenie/mallow roast on the Saturday following my birthday, but there doesn't seem to be much enthusiasm for it. Feels like people have better things to do with their time, you know? Betcha Shorty shows. He's never failed to show. Once he was the only person that did.
*sigh*
I'm such a loved and popular person, eh?
Hope it cools down soon ... I'm losing plants. Need rain in the tanks too! Guess I'll have to try to help it rain ... I'll send Jade out to wash his truck! LOL!
Sweet Dreams!
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Damn the Torpedoes! This Girl Can Dodge!
11:03
The forecast says that the for today is 18C (64.4F). It's already 25C ! (77F)
Stupid experts. Might get the thundershowers they thought were possible though. *Watches big fluffy cloud float by the window.*
The trip to Calgary was great! We took alot of side roads down because Jade wanted to avoid Hwy 2 (aka Q.E. II Highway - but only the media calls it that) We made it about half way to Red Deer before he gave it up and joined the lemmings. We'd found ourselves on a road that wasn't on the map and it died before we reached a road that was. We kept drifting west anyway and I have a hunch that we would have found ourselves on an Indian Reserve right quick if we'd gone the other direction.
He's so cute when he's trying to be different. *Silently thanks the Goddess that he doesn't read these entries.*
The weekend was wonderful! Weddings EVERYWHERE!! There were at least two in the hotel, one of which was HUGE! There were also three team groups, and at least one group of grads.
There were three weddings going on at the Devonian Gardens, including my god-brother's. The ceremony was lovely. Short, but lovely. There was a long pause in the middle. We were supposed to go to the bride and groom's apartment for refreshments and mingling until it was time for supper. It was a little disappointing. Three bags of chips ... firmly in the hands of three people. By the time we arrived, beer had been offered and slurped. My God-mother grabbed myself, Jade and my younger god-sister and we went upstairs to said god-sister's apartment. (You'd really like her, Lynne. Very solid Wiccan. Fantastic woman!)
We spent the rest of the wait upstairs, watching my god-nieces play with the cat or with video games and we chatted about all sorts of things. Was offered popsicles and happily accepted. Yummy. After a certain amount of time, we mosied back downstairs for a bit. I noted the time and warned my god-brother that there was 20 minutes before the dinner should be starting. He agreed that it would take that long to get everybody shoed up and out the door. Jade and I, along with my god-sister and her husband, shot out the door ahead of everybody else and made our way down to the restaurant. We walked in, told the server who we were and settled on our seats. We then waited for everybody else.
And waited.
And waited.
We finally phoned my god-mother's cell at about 16:53 and asked if they were lost. Apparently, they were standing outside because they didn't want to come in too early. Hello? We're already here. Come in, already!!
There apparently wasn't enough people for a buffet. So we got served selected dishes at the table. Some of it was really good. I actually ate won ton soup. I was very proud of myself. I ate a bit of everything. Still don't like spring rolls. Wish there had been egg rolls instead.
And that was it. When supper was cleared away and drinks were finished, everybody just kinda drifted away to their homes or hotels.
We, at the Cool Table, decided that it didn't really feel like a wedding. That, on the whole, it was a somewhat unsatisfying experience. Was it the pause in the middle? Was it the lack of dancing? The lack of celebrating in general? Not sure. Maybe a combo of everything. Even Jade admitted that it lacked something and that he hoped ours was a bit grander - although he's more than a fan of the short ceremonies and as little speeches as possible.
He's still fighting me about the kilt thing though.
We'll see.
Anyway, it was absolutely uplifting to see my family again. I didn't realise how much I missed them until I was there again. I finally met Gramma too. She was so thrilled to finally meet me. She didn't know who I was when she introduced herself at the ceremony. I was going to say I was the god-daughter, but what came out of my mouth was "I'm (Lea)", and oh my gosh, her eyes just lit up. Apparently, I was famous. She'd heard all about me for years. All good, she assured me. Lies; all lies, I told her. She loved me. I got just as many and sincere hugs as any of the other regular grandchildren.
I think I just added somebody else to the wedding guest list. LOL!
At some point before supper, I pointed out that nobody had introduced me to the bride yet. My god-mother was horrified. She'd been so scattered that she hadn't introduced me to anybody that she'd intended to. When we went back downstairs, she'd immediately fixed that over-sight. The bride and I were friendly with each other, and she's a lovely girl, but we didn't seem to have much to do with each other. But it was a busy day. No worries. A person's brain can only take so much.
We interacted a bit more at the wedding shower the next day. (Backwards, I know, but worth it.)
I have a job interview/try out day on Thursday. Another farm has requested my services and I'm thrilled so far. they want me to groom horses!! They even have some buffalo (which I won't be responsible for, but I've never seen up close.) And best ever reason to be happy and excited? They are only one Range Road away!! Less than 10 minutes driving!! I could ride my bike if I wanted to!!
WHEEE!!!
And they want to know what my wage expectations are ... Egad, I can never decide how much is too much and what is selling myself cheap.
Shut up. Yes, you.
This is going to put a damper on some of the projects that I have going and have partially committed myself to. I'm supposed to go out to my Aunt-in-law's to help her with her flower beds. Dona had bragged about my flower bed out front, and her sister came to see. She wants to hire me to do hers to. She even wants a bed like mine. Jade said he'd help build it, but, please, no more round beds. LOL!
Oooh ... Blogger now auto saves your drafts!! Don't even need a title!!
Cool!
Well, I have to run out and buy some new boots for work.
Have a good day and feel free to leave a comment! Don't just be a lurker!! It's a disturbingly suggestive title!
Sweet Dreams!
The forecast says that the for today is 18C (64.4F). It's already 25C ! (77F)
Stupid experts. Might get the thundershowers they thought were possible though. *Watches big fluffy cloud float by the window.*
The trip to Calgary was great! We took alot of side roads down because Jade wanted to avoid Hwy 2 (aka Q.E. II Highway - but only the media calls it that) We made it about half way to Red Deer before he gave it up and joined the lemmings. We'd found ourselves on a road that wasn't on the map and it died before we reached a road that was. We kept drifting west anyway and I have a hunch that we would have found ourselves on an Indian Reserve right quick if we'd gone the other direction.
He's so cute when he's trying to be different. *Silently thanks the Goddess that he doesn't read these entries.*
The weekend was wonderful! Weddings EVERYWHERE!! There were at least two in the hotel, one of which was HUGE! There were also three team groups, and at least one group of grads.
There were three weddings going on at the Devonian Gardens, including my god-brother's. The ceremony was lovely. Short, but lovely. There was a long pause in the middle. We were supposed to go to the bride and groom's apartment for refreshments and mingling until it was time for supper. It was a little disappointing. Three bags of chips ... firmly in the hands of three people. By the time we arrived, beer had been offered and slurped. My God-mother grabbed myself, Jade and my younger god-sister and we went upstairs to said god-sister's apartment. (You'd really like her, Lynne. Very solid Wiccan. Fantastic woman!)
We spent the rest of the wait upstairs, watching my god-nieces play with the cat or with video games and we chatted about all sorts of things. Was offered popsicles and happily accepted. Yummy. After a certain amount of time, we mosied back downstairs for a bit. I noted the time and warned my god-brother that there was 20 minutes before the dinner should be starting. He agreed that it would take that long to get everybody shoed up and out the door. Jade and I, along with my god-sister and her husband, shot out the door ahead of everybody else and made our way down to the restaurant. We walked in, told the server who we were and settled on our seats. We then waited for everybody else.
And waited.
And waited.
We finally phoned my god-mother's cell at about 16:53 and asked if they were lost. Apparently, they were standing outside because they didn't want to come in too early. Hello? We're already here. Come in, already!!
There apparently wasn't enough people for a buffet. So we got served selected dishes at the table. Some of it was really good. I actually ate won ton soup. I was very proud of myself. I ate a bit of everything. Still don't like spring rolls. Wish there had been egg rolls instead.
And that was it. When supper was cleared away and drinks were finished, everybody just kinda drifted away to their homes or hotels.
We, at the Cool Table, decided that it didn't really feel like a wedding. That, on the whole, it was a somewhat unsatisfying experience. Was it the pause in the middle? Was it the lack of dancing? The lack of celebrating in general? Not sure. Maybe a combo of everything. Even Jade admitted that it lacked something and that he hoped ours was a bit grander - although he's more than a fan of the short ceremonies and as little speeches as possible.
He's still fighting me about the kilt thing though.
We'll see.
Anyway, it was absolutely uplifting to see my family again. I didn't realise how much I missed them until I was there again. I finally met Gramma too. She was so thrilled to finally meet me. She didn't know who I was when she introduced herself at the ceremony. I was going to say I was the god-daughter, but what came out of my mouth was "I'm (Lea)", and oh my gosh, her eyes just lit up. Apparently, I was famous. She'd heard all about me for years. All good, she assured me. Lies; all lies, I told her. She loved me. I got just as many and sincere hugs as any of the other regular grandchildren.
I think I just added somebody else to the wedding guest list. LOL!
At some point before supper, I pointed out that nobody had introduced me to the bride yet. My god-mother was horrified. She'd been so scattered that she hadn't introduced me to anybody that she'd intended to. When we went back downstairs, she'd immediately fixed that over-sight. The bride and I were friendly with each other, and she's a lovely girl, but we didn't seem to have much to do with each other. But it was a busy day. No worries. A person's brain can only take so much.
We interacted a bit more at the wedding shower the next day. (Backwards, I know, but worth it.)
I have a job interview/try out day on Thursday. Another farm has requested my services and I'm thrilled so far. they want me to groom horses!! They even have some buffalo (which I won't be responsible for, but I've never seen up close.) And best ever reason to be happy and excited? They are only one Range Road away!! Less than 10 minutes driving!! I could ride my bike if I wanted to!!
WHEEE!!!
And they want to know what my wage expectations are ... Egad, I can never decide how much is too much and what is selling myself cheap.
Shut up. Yes, you.
This is going to put a damper on some of the projects that I have going and have partially committed myself to. I'm supposed to go out to my Aunt-in-law's to help her with her flower beds. Dona had bragged about my flower bed out front, and her sister came to see. She wants to hire me to do hers to. She even wants a bed like mine. Jade said he'd help build it, but, please, no more round beds. LOL!
Oooh ... Blogger now auto saves your drafts!! Don't even need a title!!
Cool!
Well, I have to run out and buy some new boots for work.
Have a good day and feel free to leave a comment! Don't just be a lurker!! It's a disturbingly suggestive title!
Sweet Dreams!
Monday, May 14, 2007
Circles in the Sand
21:52
Just a quick note before bed ...
Getting lots done in the yard, and I have proof. My sun burn. Why is that proof, you ask? I could have been tanning, you think?
You people don't know me very well, do you? I can't stay still long enough to do that stuff. I have to be busy.
Today we received a dump truck load of black garden mix dirt. OH, so much more than we needed for that new flower bed in the front yard. We raked down what we needed and proceeded to take the rest out by tractor and wheelbarrow. Still haven't quite managed to get out all that we need to, but it's almost done. The lilac bush is planted and the decorative rocks (there's always SOME in my gardens!) have been planned, but Wayne and I were WAY too tired to try to move them at that point. I have the next one all planned out too. The next plant, that is ... that's how I'll make the fantastic display that Lynne loves to see every year. One thing at a time. I can't plan it ahead, because no matter how well planned it is, I will change my mind when I actually see how it looks in front of me. It's going to look fantastic, I can tell you right now.
Have you seen a great rock of colour/size/shape? Tell me about it or bring it over. I'll find a use for it!
In other news, my chicken wings are GONE! No, these aren't the kind you eat, although I'll smack anybody who eats all my wings on me. No, I'm talking about a bit of flab that women start to get on their backs just below the shoulder blades. They were getting bad for a while. Yesterday, I looked at them ... and had to look for them! Only a faint outline, instead of the droopy bags, now exists! So there's my proof! Curves does work! Even if it's only because I'm finally working a set of muscles that work doesn't help me with!
Ugh, I'm exhausted!
Bed time!
Sweet Dreams!!
Just a quick note before bed ...
Getting lots done in the yard, and I have proof. My sun burn. Why is that proof, you ask? I could have been tanning, you think?
You people don't know me very well, do you? I can't stay still long enough to do that stuff. I have to be busy.
Today we received a dump truck load of black garden mix dirt. OH, so much more than we needed for that new flower bed in the front yard. We raked down what we needed and proceeded to take the rest out by tractor and wheelbarrow. Still haven't quite managed to get out all that we need to, but it's almost done. The lilac bush is planted and the decorative rocks (there's always SOME in my gardens!) have been planned, but Wayne and I were WAY too tired to try to move them at that point. I have the next one all planned out too. The next plant, that is ... that's how I'll make the fantastic display that Lynne loves to see every year. One thing at a time. I can't plan it ahead, because no matter how well planned it is, I will change my mind when I actually see how it looks in front of me. It's going to look fantastic, I can tell you right now.
Have you seen a great rock of colour/size/shape? Tell me about it or bring it over. I'll find a use for it!
In other news, my chicken wings are GONE! No, these aren't the kind you eat, although I'll smack anybody who eats all my wings on me. No, I'm talking about a bit of flab that women start to get on their backs just below the shoulder blades. They were getting bad for a while. Yesterday, I looked at them ... and had to look for them! Only a faint outline, instead of the droopy bags, now exists! So there's my proof! Curves does work! Even if it's only because I'm finally working a set of muscles that work doesn't help me with!
Ugh, I'm exhausted!
Bed time!
Sweet Dreams!!
Friday, May 11, 2007
Just Wingin' It!
17:18
Went out to wings last night. BY MYSELF! Yes, I drove. Thought I was being smart about it too ... until I got to the zoo. Okay, so I was a little late, but at least I went! Next week, if I go, I'll take the proper way.
Stupid River.
Anyway, had a good time. Even when I was trying to eat some ice cream in a waffle cone that kept breaking every time I licked.
Stupid waffle cones.
We talked about a little bit of everything ... easier with a small group. Lessee, Lynne, Colbat, Daniel, Faith, and me. Another girl showed up right at the end, but I've actually forgoten her name. She wasn't there long enough for me to remember. Took me a while just to remember Faith's. Besides, I was distracted by my presents!!
I gotted presents from Lynne. A wish/prayer bracelet, seeds (none that I had, bless you, Poppet!), and a scented candle with holder. Made me feel cheap in regards to my presents to her ...
I actually missed seeing her reaction to them too. And there was no camera, either! Never is when she's out with me, has anybody else noticed that? Only once have we gone out and there was a camera involved - and that was almost a year ago! (Which really is fine, because I think I look horrible in pictures when I know the camera is there. Especially in close ups.) Jade has some beautiful ones of me in Jasper ... I had no idea I was in the pictures, or that a camera was out. The few times I'm actually looking at the camera, I either glanced over just as it snapped, or I managed to freeze at just the right time and he took it fast enough.
That's what gets me nervous about pics ... having the camera stare at you forever while the photographer waits for GOKW. *sigh* Such a waste ... I used to be a pretty girl ...
Except when I tried too hard to look like everybody else. For some reason, I never looked good then.
Anyway, we had a good time at Wing's.
*wandered away ...*
19:40
Today I put my little seedlings outside in the shade so that they'd be there when the sun moved the few inches left and they'd get a full sun bathing instead of spurts ... well, I forgot to bring them in during high peak ... and I lost a few plants. All the chard, but one, 1.5 broccoli and the cucumber looks wilted, but might come back. the only thing that htrived out there was the watermelon!!
Ah, well, still time to plant more ...
A bat just flew onto our garden shed!! Jade got a pic, so I have proof! He's very cute looking. Hope he eats lots of mosquitoes! And spiders. He can have as many of those as he wants.
Going to run out to roast marshmallows now ...
Sweet dreams!
Went out to wings last night. BY MYSELF! Yes, I drove. Thought I was being smart about it too ... until I got to the zoo. Okay, so I was a little late, but at least I went! Next week, if I go, I'll take the proper way.
Stupid River.
Anyway, had a good time. Even when I was trying to eat some ice cream in a waffle cone that kept breaking every time I licked.
Stupid waffle cones.
We talked about a little bit of everything ... easier with a small group. Lessee, Lynne, Colbat, Daniel, Faith, and me. Another girl showed up right at the end, but I've actually forgoten her name. She wasn't there long enough for me to remember. Took me a while just to remember Faith's. Besides, I was distracted by my presents!!
I gotted presents from Lynne. A wish/prayer bracelet, seeds (none that I had, bless you, Poppet!), and a scented candle with holder. Made me feel cheap in regards to my presents to her ...
I actually missed seeing her reaction to them too. And there was no camera, either! Never is when she's out with me, has anybody else noticed that? Only once have we gone out and there was a camera involved - and that was almost a year ago! (Which really is fine, because I think I look horrible in pictures when I know the camera is there. Especially in close ups.) Jade has some beautiful ones of me in Jasper ... I had no idea I was in the pictures, or that a camera was out. The few times I'm actually looking at the camera, I either glanced over just as it snapped, or I managed to freeze at just the right time and he took it fast enough.
That's what gets me nervous about pics ... having the camera stare at you forever while the photographer waits for GOKW. *sigh* Such a waste ... I used to be a pretty girl ...
Except when I tried too hard to look like everybody else. For some reason, I never looked good then.
Anyway, we had a good time at Wing's.
*wandered away ...*
19:40
Today I put my little seedlings outside in the shade so that they'd be there when the sun moved the few inches left and they'd get a full sun bathing instead of spurts ... well, I forgot to bring them in during high peak ... and I lost a few plants. All the chard, but one, 1.5 broccoli and the cucumber looks wilted, but might come back. the only thing that htrived out there was the watermelon!!
Ah, well, still time to plant more ...
A bat just flew onto our garden shed!! Jade got a pic, so I have proof! He's very cute looking. Hope he eats lots of mosquitoes! And spiders. He can have as many of those as he wants.
Going to run out to roast marshmallows now ...
Sweet dreams!
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
It Isn't Always About Me, You Know - I Just Like to Pretend It Is.
17:37
I thought I'd type a few things while I wait for Jade to call and come home. It keeps me busy.
I managed to go through the entire day (so far) without talking to the in-laws. I left this afternoon to do a spot of shopping and get a hair cut and the I went to Curves. the shopping was nice and depressing all at once. I found some books for myself and others, then tried to find some clothes. The store I went into was one I've never shopped at before. Today I realised why. their cuts are strange. the jacket puffed out in the back and my arms swam in the sleeves no matter what size I tried on, and the skirt (NOT generously sized) was snug in the hips. I tried a size up (the numbers are mortifying so I'm not sharing) and it fit in the hips, but the waist was horribly loose.
It sucks being curvy. And there are woman out there trying to look like this?? *sigh* I'll just have to try another shopping mall. Maybe I'll go in town this weekend. Not WEM, though, I get a headache when I shop there. Kingsway, maybe.
Curves was fun, as usual. I don't know if anybody actually knows my name yet, but I'm definitely being recognised and acknowledged! It's a good feeling for somebody who went through life with a natural cloaking device. (Don't laugh; I've had teachers admit that they forgot I was in the class until I made a noise of some sort.)
I've been having a lot of trouble with dry air. I thought it was just the house, but I'm starting to think it's actually me. When I pet the cat, I can feel the shocks grounding themselves into my body from his feet. I am constantly shocking myself on the vehicle doors when I do to close them. I'm starting to wonder if I should ground myself before touching the computer. I remember the old keyboards that actually had a metal disk on them wired to a metal leg on the desk. You had to touch that before you touched the computer to ground yourself and get rid of static shock or you could damage the computer. Damn, I miss those days. Some of those schools were nice.
I wonder if a magnetic bracelet or something would help?
Princess Mum has suggested a Personage to me who will help me with certain aspects of my Life. She says that he does readings and can tell you your spirit guide's name and your animal guide's shape. I'm a little unsure about that. In some cultures, telling somebody about your spirit guide is an insult to your guide. they are supposed to be just for you. On the other hand, there are some that seem to thrive on publicity. I'm thinking of going to see this guy. PM says that he does readings over the phone too, but I find that harder to swallow. If I wanted a phone reading, I'd call a Psychic Hotline. Not that I think it's impossible, I just prefer to make these things more personal and I happen to think that eye contact and body language is very important. Especially for me. Very few people can interpret my words properly and in context if it's not said in person. Heck, there are a few that can't even do that. One of my friends has described my personality as difficult. I'm hoping she means 'complex', since she's still my friend. I have another friend who not only agrees with her, but admits that that is WHY we are friends. He thinks I'm interesting in my complexity. I guess one man's insanity is another man's genius.
"You are a child's PLAYTHING!"
The book that I actually bought for myself was a spur of the moment buy. That's actually rare for me, but the price helped. ;) Empowering Your Life with Natural Magic by Sirona Knight. It was the only book of it's kind in the large display and it really snagged my attention. I kept coming back to it. The last name of the author meant something special to me. The sale price was dramatically affordable, and the description looked reasonable. I went in looking for the Warrior Series novels. I came out with this. Go figure.
I can't wait to get to HH for my next pick up! My D&D shirts are FINALLY in! MWAHAHAHAHA! I can't wait to show them to Greywhistle and Naomi!! If I ever get the chance.
By the way, I've been reminded recently that I forgot to write about something that I meant to write about earlier. On Jade's birthday, we had appointments with a massage therapist. None other than Princess Mum, Shorty's mother. She came out to our place and performed her magic in my living room. It was nothing short of fabulous. I had instant relief with my shoulder and Jade's back felt ever so much better. We are definitely going to make further appointments with her. The next one will probably be for MY birthday this time. Our schedule is pretty full until then. A wedding out of town, a golf tourney, a garage sale ... So it's going to have to wait for June. Hopefully, I'll have settled for myself what I want to do with myself. I still haven't written Dragonlady yet. I'll have to make sure that I get this done soon. Or I can bite the bullet and see her when I'm in Calgary next weekend.
Makes me wanna throw up just thinking about it.
Stupid images ... they are supposed to be down here. Stupid 'Blogger. Bah! and it keeps changing the spacing in my entry too, every time I try to add them. What a pain. Next time I'll upload the images and then write around them! Less painful! Anyway, these are a couple of avatars I found that I liked. There are others, but I'm through playing with these for this entry. I'll share more later, if you want to see them. One of these I got off a site, another I borrowed off of a mutual friendly acquaintance. I'm sure he won't mind.
And I know the perfect place to use it!! MWAHAHAHAHAHA!
The Shepherd knows. The Shepherd always knows ... (PS. It didn't work!! *weep*)
Sweet Dreams!
Monday, May 07, 2007
Knowledge is Power
10:44
A recipe for all you witches, would-be witches, hedge wizards, tree huggers, or whatever you might call yourselves.
Insect Repelling Diffuser Blend
A simple but bright, energetic and fresh blend. Repels mosquitoes, black flies, no-seeums and other flying bugs as well as fleas.
5 parts Citronella Oil
5 parts Eucalyptus Oil
5 parts Tea Tree Oil
Combine essential oils in a small glass vial or bottle, shake gently to mix. Use this blend in a nebulizing or candle style diffuser or by placing a few drops on a cotton pad for passive diffusion. You can diffuse the blend outdoors or add some to a soy candle (extinguish the flame; add 2-3 drops of your blend to the wax pool; ignite again).
Works like magic, really.
What else can I do naturally to keep bugs away?
(Stay indoors! BWAHAHAHA!)
A recipe for all you witches, would-be witches, hedge wizards, tree huggers, or whatever you might call yourselves.
Insect Repelling Diffuser Blend
A simple but bright, energetic and fresh blend. Repels mosquitoes, black flies, no-seeums and other flying bugs as well as fleas.
5 parts Citronella Oil
5 parts Eucalyptus Oil
5 parts Tea Tree Oil
Combine essential oils in a small glass vial or bottle, shake gently to mix. Use this blend in a nebulizing or candle style diffuser or by placing a few drops on a cotton pad for passive diffusion. You can diffuse the blend outdoors or add some to a soy candle (extinguish the flame; add 2-3 drops of your blend to the wax pool; ignite again).
Works like magic, really.
What else can I do naturally to keep bugs away?
(Stay indoors! BWAHAHAHA!)
- Insects are attracted to standing water, change any birdbaths, or kid’s pools at least once a week.
- Clean your rain gutters periodically as well as flowerpots, pet dishes and garbage cans, which can all be breeding grounds for insects.
- Mosquitoes love shady areas, so keep the lawn cut short and trim trees and hedges.
- When sitting outdoors, pick a slightly breezy spot. Mosquitoes have a hard time moving in the wind.
- Wear light-coloured clothing; mosquitoes are attracted to dark colours.
- Don’t wear heavy, synthetic perfumes; bugs are attracted to heavy scents.
- Limit your outdoor activities during the dawn or dusk when bugs generally feed.
Don't say I never do anything useful for you.
Spot is driving me up the wall. He wants outside and I won't take him yet. It's still a bit cool out there and I ahve to go out with him on the balcony. Not that I'm very worried he'll jump off. I doubt that he will. (Which doesn't mean he won't.) But we've a tremendous number of red-tail hawks around here and at least one golden eagle and one bald eagle have been sighted. So you have to make sure the cats don't become unwilling hitch-hikers that get invited out to dinner.
May 9, 2007 - 10:45
Oops, didn't come back to this as soon as I thought I would. I got caught up in adding more poeple to the family tree program again. I'm past the 2500 point. I think I added almost two hundred people yesterday ... and I still have, at least, a generation and a half to go!! @_@;
Speaking of family, my brother is on his way to attempting to become a police officer. This decision kinda surprised the rest of the family, but I'm sure he'll be a damn good one. He likes to be in charge of things, especially during a situation, and I know he'll remain fair minded in regards to other "situations". You'll never catch MY brother on the take. He takes his first aid course this weekend and I've asked him to grab me one of the "mouth-to-mouth" kits. They're only $5, so it won't break him. The training might though. I'm cheering for you, Michael.
Wonder what Lynne would do for a pic of him in uniform? Hmmm ... guess we'll have to wait and see.
Not a whole lot happening right now. The in-laws are keeping themselves busy with yard stuff and errands. They got their cat shaved. Now it's a funny looking useless lump instead of just a useless lump.
Damn, I have to learn to close my chip bags ... stale rice cakes are not the best things, diet or no.
Shorty has been imitating Lindsey Lohan's "ew" noise. Why? I don't know. I don't try to pretend to understand. Those little girl pop-star wanna-be's don't do anything for me. Hilary Duff, Lindsay Lohan ... whatever; they all look the same and sound the same to me. You show me one that is successful and doesn't need rehab, and then I'll be impressed. Meanwhile, I worry about Shorty. Dude, are you sure you're not gay? (teasing.)
We missed Spot's birthday ... He's 11 years old now and I'm getting nervous. I lost Pepper when she was 12. Granted, she was very sick with a liver diease and Spot is healthy for his age, but I'm still nervous. That wart, or whatever it is, still hasn't left his chin, so the theory that he's allergic to his dishes is out the window. Stupidest thing I ever heard, though I can see the plausibility of it. Anyway, Whiskers lasted until he was 16 and he was just as energetic as my baby here. He died of luekemia, I think.
I'll know when it's time. I've never bought a cat in my life. When one leaves, another shows up on the doorstep. Always a younger cat. We'll see. I told Jade that I hoped the next cat wouldn't be black and white ... the last four have been black and white. The last two have had places by my pillow. I keep seeing a graduating process with my cats. My "bestest"experiences are with the ones that have chosen me for themselves though.
We'll see. Life has a way of showing you things when you most see to see them. I'm sure that everything will be all right. (Bonus points to anybody who can tell me who that spell belongs to and what it's called.)
Today, I go shopping and then to Curves. I'll work on my tree some more and hopefully get some writing done. If there's still time left in the day, I'll work some more on my stitching and stare my seedinglings into sprouting. ;)
Sweet Dreams!
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